One Step at a Time - June 2012

[Kradle123]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

You too Hon,

Nite nite,

:l


PS: She wrote great love scenes for 71. She will be missed.

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hey everyone,
I'm up and at 'em on my weekday day off. Can't remember when I last had an AF Wednesday, but that will be what will happen today. I have a small gardening project I want to get done before I take a long bike ride, so I have to get moving.

Briseus, congrats on those two AF days. Getting started is the hardest. The rest of my life also wont be easy, but that's what I plan to do.

Tipplerette, I agree on the days counting. After thirty days the specific number doesn't matter. I just have to remember that I don't drink anymore when that alkie brain starts talking. Noooo, it really would NOT be nice to have a glass of wine on the patio, not nice at all. Nothing good would come of it.

Nora, on a sunny day I sometimes sit on my lovely patio with just my legs in the sun between 12:30 and 1:30 pm. That's the strongest sun time.

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

YAY BRI..that made my day this morning!!
Orange feet ...tee hee!! You really are going all out these days aren't you Nora!!
I use a self tanning lotion sometimes, but I have been in FLA so log that I am fairly dark....
Tipp...keep fighting girl....I like counting for my own reasons.,...,I may know the exact numbers of days, but I can lool at the calendar and count....
Morning Sunni Butt...you and I are always the early birds
I have a doc appt at 9 and then off to work.....I am weaning off AD's and we are meeting to discuss my progress.....(I feel fine!)
off to find coffee
and, yes, sad about Nora Ephron...she was a comedy genius....
laters

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

talk to you sleepy heads later

[RingingCedars]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hola!
Too funny Nora...sorry. I've used them too but was VERY careful to spread evenly as I'd heard stories like yours. I remember waiting very anxiously to see the results. They used to sell tanning supplements (high in betacarotene). It will fade in no time.
Hope your days runs smoothly Mama(I'm sure you'll be sneaking peaks).
Sunbeam you're doing great! Enjoy the garden and maybe have some yummy drink (non al of course) ready for your afternoon sit back and enjoy your labours?
Top day to you all...

[Tipplerette]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Hey fellow soldiers in this battle to keep the bottle at bay. We are all in this together like you said, Nora and it feels good to have combrades in arms. Right now it's easy but from what I remember the temptation comes along very innocently. A toast at a dinner, a lovely meal, a weak moment and then caboom, it's back to day one.

As far as fake tans, you would laugh if you saw me. I am naturally so brown in the summer that my skin sometimes looks close to black... and I'm white of Maltese, French Canadian and Native decent. By being at the lake house for four days a week, I've outdone myself. At my age, I have to be careful not to get skin like cowhide. Cream, cream and more cream.

Congratulations to all of you for the milestones you are achieving. We should be very proud of ourselves in that we recognized our problem, sought to change ourselves and still struggle on after many disappointments and defeats. We will win this battle and we will win it NOW.

My elderly Aunt and Uncle are coming over today; one drinks wine and one drinks beer. I have my arsenal of weapons to defend my decision not to drink. Delicious N/A beer and iced tea made with ginger and green tea. They want liver n' onions for dinner so that's what we're havin'.

Have a great day. Keep up the good work girls.

[MWOLady]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

One Step Backwards for me

Well after 4 whole days AF I was not able to be AF last night.

Funny thing was I actually "planned" it. Or at least, my alcoholic brain planned it. I started thinking about it in early afternoon and at 4pm I at least had the forethought to take a Naltrexone. By 5pm I had convinced myself that this plan was just fine - DH and I would get dinner ready each sipping on a nice glass of red - I picked out a movie and I was all set - why not relax - after all we can't get too crazy about this "not drinking" thing right? We gotta live in the real world after all. DH will have a glass or two whether I drink or not so why should I sit here like a deprived sour puss and not have one or two??????

You get the picture. The Naltrexone actually gave me a bit of a high-ish feeling which calmed me and made me feel that this was a good idea!!!

Even though I only had two small glasses of red I woke up in the night with a headache - of course this is what ALWAYS happens.

I guess what I'm facing is this: I really don't want to quit even though I know I have to for many very good reason, not the least is my mental and physical health.

I'm feeling that to quit forever is way too big a challenge for me but taking it one day at a time is so much harder than I thought - because it keeps "drinking" right in my face every damn day.

My DH will NOT stop drinking even for 30 days or even to help me, so I have bottles of wine in the kitchen staring at me, him pouring a glass at 5:30 and another with his dinner, and sometimes he'll have a scotch as his "dessert." I realize that this is HIS problem and my sobriety cannot hinge on what someone else does - but it sure makes it much harder.

And I've been drinking alcoholically on and off for my whole adult life - so you could say this is a bit of a HABIT!!!!

So this is my pity party. I could sure use some support!!!! Back on day one again. I plan to be AF today.

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Lady - I understand completely. :l And, I know all about 'planning' it. I am also fighting the 'not really wanting to quit' feeling. But, I keep stringing AF days together and I feel better. I just am not saying never again. Good job on getting right back to AF. That is wonderful! It has to be hard with your husband still drinking. Keep coming here for support. We are all fighting the same battle. :l

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

I'm not allowed to play with self tanner anymore. :H:H
I looked at myself in the daylight. ROTFL I wish I could take a picture to show you. Part of my legs have a very pretty brown. So, it's brown, white, circle of brown, totally white. Then I have patches of brown on my forearms. Scrubbing didn't help. :bath2:
Scott said "Debbie what were you thinking?' :H

[K9Lover]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

Oh Nora that is so FUNNY :H:H I've played with self-tanner too, and it AIN'T pretty! The last one I "experimented" with was a spray on, which I thought would be easier, but it basically pooled around my feet and they looked crazy!!! And no...scrubbing does NOT help...you just gotta let it wear off. Funny how when it looks bad, it stays on forever, but if it was nice and even, I bet it would wear off in a day! LOL

MWOLady - I'm sorry to hear of your setback. I know that the last time I drank, I TOTALLY planned it...I am on Antabuse, so for me to plan, it takes a whole week! Not sure what I was going through at the time, but for some reason drinking seemed like a good idea for at least a week before I did it. It's hard to accept "never" or even take it one day at a time. We're so conditioned to think of drinking as a reward...I think once we can shift our attitude, that's when the change really happens. My drinking was becoming very hazardous to my mental and physical being...are you at that point yet? Keep us posted ok? I'm sending you strength :h

K9

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

from what I can tell...it takes A LONG time for the thoughts to dissipate...year and years...and we just have to remain viligant
wait...that sounds very smug and preachy...
we have to get to the mindset that NOTHING is worth our sobreity...and use whatever means helps...
meds, AA, MWO, faith, will power...and we ALL know it's not easy
but it is worth it
I am enjoying waking up with no remorse...and seeing the happy faces of my family
MWOLady...I am aorry too...but we are here for you
try to rack up some more tie and your alkie brain may give you a bit of a rest
hey...I passed the 30 day mark last week and almost bought beer two nights ago... so that demon brain is still working...
gosh I am rambling here
Nora....I have visions of sweet potato casserole smeared all over your legs....
maybe you could try a tinted lotion vs. a self tanner??
or better yet...come see me in FLA.....no...you would get sunburned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

I thought I was buying a tinted lotion!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Kradle123]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

NoraC;1341871 wrote: I'm not allowed to play with self tanner anymore. :H:H
I looked at myself in the daylight. ROTFL I wish I could take a picture to show you. Part of my legs have a very pretty brown. So, it's brown, white, circle of brown, totally white. Then I have patches of brown on my forearms. Scrubbing didn't help. :bath2:
Scott said "Debbie what were you thinking?' :H

Hi Nora,

Well There's your perfect excuse for not drinking: Roll up your pants leg and say, ' Oh, No thanks! Last time I drank THIS happened to me...

And before iit wears off snap a photo and whip it out when needed!!

It's fool proof (no pun intended)
:l

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

were your eyeballs in,Nora??

went to doc for med follow up
she and I have a great relationship and she knows my booze history
she gave me tradnezone for sleep??????????????

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - June 2012

HIYA Kradle