Prepare for a rant!
Hmmmm.... Well I KNOW that I have been "absent" with the members of this thread of late... there's been a lot going on in my life these last few months and I don't have much left over to give at the moment. I feel bad that I'm not as present as usual but on the other hand I reckon I've done my fair share of lending an ear on here in the past 4+ years and I hope everyone is OK with me taking time for myself just now.
I'm actually glad Satz brought it up, as I've been feeling guilty even although I know I shouldn't. Feck knows why really? I'll probably interact more once I'm done with IOP but it is what it is for the time being. Bloody glad it's being aired though, I was feeling like a bit of a tosser!
As for the people that drop in but never lend support... well, I'm totally guilty of that at the moment. I will make an observation nonetheless! There are certain people that are always willing to help and lend an ear (and yiz know who you are!!!) and I hope that everyone realizes that these folk don't need to be doing that... it's out of the goodness of their hearts. It's not because they have nothing better to do because, when you're sober, there is a shite load you can do. It's because they are giving back... or paying it forward... however one chooses to look at it. Sometimes they don't even want to post, they're tired or busy, but they do nonetheless.
Next point I'll make is that is feels GOOD to be giving of oneself to other people (within normal parameters of course!) and for the ones that don't discuss other people's issues and concentrate entirely on their own... try putting your effort into someone else and give yer noggin some respite about worrying and fretting over your own drama. Therapy makes you brutally honest and I apologize if I've hurt anyone's feelings but, if you feel any of the above applied to you... take a wee squinty at yourself.
And on that note... Off to get coffee...
p.s. :l to Satz. I hope you didn't think I was ignoring yer...
p.p.s. I bought a new rug for the kitchen yesterday and it looks fab... I reckon I'm going to spend my last dime on one for the living room today! I have wood floors and a new rug in the living room would make a lot of difference. I woke up excited about it... LMAO... I'm a 50 year old child. It will be a BIG rug, mind...

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