One Step at a Time - May 2013

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

I am here....I swear.....just slammed busy!!!!
Have not read back yet, but will later....
have therapy tonight too....

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Saw my doctor today regarding AB. He doesn't know much about it, which surprised me, and said he will have to do some research on hypothyroidism and AB before he will prescribe it for me. He was supportive, nonetheless.

Had blood work done, too. I'm sure all's well, but it will be nice to know.

AB makes me sleepy, foggy, and slow. If 125mg makes me feel like this, I can't imagine what 500mg would do. I hope my body adjusts soon. I'm thick-headed enough, as it is. Could be the Klonipin and AB combo. I always have weird SE's. Always. I want to wake up refreshed for once.

[paulywogg]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

hey juja,maybe its just being af that makes you feel that way?i always feel like that the first little bit when i quit,just keep with it hugs

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Hey Juja - Why don't you cut the pill into thirds? As long as you're keeping it in your system, you can't drink. So don't worry about going up on it. :l If you would take a third of a pill (or a quarter) everyday, you would not be able to drink.
I still have to wonder if it's because you are taking it at the same time as the Klonipin. Maybe you could experiment on a day off and take the AB in the morning or afternoon instead of at bedtime.
I really hope that you can find a dosage that you can tolerate.

Hi Hadit - Sorry that it took me so long to respond. I just got settled in from work. :l Anyway, I prefer to take the pill every other day. That seems to work well for me. I have also done the taking 1/2 a pill everyday. I just know that I can't drink for at LEAST 6 days after taking the last pill. So - that works for me.

I admit that I had a bad experience last month. I thought I would get back on the antabuse and I wasn't ready. I wasn't committed. It was a mistake to do it. I ended up drinking after 48 hours. I'm really lucky that my only reaction was the terrible flushing all over my face & chest. Plus short of breath. The only reason that I didn't have a worse reaction was because I only had taken one pill. I know that if it had been built up in my system, I would have been so very sick. It was a stupid thing to do.

This is no excuse but I needed to get myself back to a place where I was committed. I was still reeling from the 3 deaths in my family, etc. I tried to force myself to take the AB and it was a mistake. I am now ready and have been on it for 2 days.

Mama - how was your appointment tonight? I've been thinking about you.

Big hugs to everyone here. I am so sorry that I haven't been keeping in touch. I'm really working on climbing back out of this hole.
I love you all....................:h

[NoraC]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Pauly - that's an excellent point. I feel like that for several days when I stop. Almost like my body is trying to recuperate.

[allswell]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Hey Nora,

Take all the time you need to climb out Okay.

Hope everyone's day went well. So glad Summer is right around the corner!

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

I am home and my mind is spinning.....I am ok.....just processing alot...
I will try to log on tomorrow and explain better
love to all
good to see you Nora
be well Juja

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

NoraC;1505278 wrote: Hey Juja - Why don't you cut the pill into thirds? As long as you're keeping it in your system, you can't drink. So don't worry about going up on it. :l If you would take a third of a pill (or a quarter) everyday, you would not be able to drink.
I still have to wonder if it's because you are taking it at the same time as the Klonipin. Maybe you could experiment on a day off and take the AB in the morning or afternoon instead of at bedtime.

Big hugs to everyone here. I am so sorry that I haven't been keeping in touch. I'm really working on climbing back out of this hole.
I love you all....................:h

I think it's the AB and Klonipin mix. Can't go off the K cold turkey, so I will take a quarter of AB, and continue with 1/4mg K. I wonder what I really feel like? I'd love to gt off everything, and see who I really am.

Please don't worry about us, Nora. We're doing okay, and want you back happy and healthy.

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

paulywogg;1505275 wrote: hey juja,maybe its just being af that makes you feel that way?i always feel like that the first little bit when i quit,just keep with it hugs

I don't think so, pauly. I usually feel real good after being Af for a few days. I think it's the meds. Thanks for the support, though.

Hi, Mama. Rough day, eh? Yuck.

Hello to all the rest of you lovely people.

[hadit]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Thanks Nora,at least in the early stages of taking AB its probably best to take the full tab. You do have to be very committed to becoming af BEFORE you embark on the AB medication. Its not a drug to be messed with. I once drank on it and was very, very sick. This time around I am feeling more confident. Do you find that the cravings are EASIER to manage knowing you have AB in your system? They don't seem as strong nor last as long. Thanks again

[mama bear]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

morning peeps
I walked into IOP...Intensive Outpatient Therapy completely unprepared. Most of these people had just gotten out of detox/rehab and this was their next step. It was basically a three hour long AA meeting.
That being said, I am ok with it. I just wasn't told and felt a little misled. But therpay is therapy and it ALL has to do with addiction.
I am at a point where I am complacent and that scares me. I know I have to be diligent, so I am trying to get re-wired. This is WAY beyond the state mandated therapy to get my license back.
BUT....get this....I walked in and MY SON'S EX GIRLFIREND WAS THERE FOR COCAINE ADDICTION. Both of our mouths dropped open and I got all teary and embarrased for her....not me. I own what I did and will talk to anyone. But this little 21 year old was flabbergasted, and very quiet through the whole meeting. I do not know if I will tell Grant. She really hurt him and lied to him, cheated on him, got pregnant with someone else.....
I need to do this for me, but I am not sure I want to be there with her. I talked to the therapist and he said it would be fine.....I dunno.....
like I said.....still processing
and I have to find a sponsor, and go to meetings, etc.....
ack....
and now....COFFEE

[sweetpea29]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

mama bear;1505375 wrote: morning peeps
I walked into IOP...Intensive Outpatient Therapy completely unprepared. Most of these people had just gotten out of detox/rehab and this was their next step. It was basically a three hour long AA meeting.
That being said, I am ok with it. I just wasn't told and felt a little misled. But therpay is therapy and it ALL has to do with addiction.
I am at a point where I am complacent and that scares me. I know I have to be diligent, so I am trying to get re-wired. This is WAY beyond the state mandated therapy to get my license back.
BUT....get this....I walked in and MY SON'S EX GIRLFIREND WAS THERE FOR COCAINE ADDICTION. Both of our mouths dropped open and I got all teary and embarrased for her....not me. I own what I did and will talk to anyone. But this little 21 year old was flabbergasted, and very quiet through the whole meeting. I do not know if I will tell Grant. She really hurt him and lied to him, cheated on him, got pregnant with someone else.....
I need to do this for me, but I am not sure I want to be there with her. I talked to the therapist and he said it would be fine.....I dunno.....
like I said.....still processing
and I have to find a sponsor, and go to meetings, etc.....
ack....
and now....COFFEE

Good morning Mama and all the steppers

That sounds tricky for you Mama hope ye can find a way round it:l

[Glass Half Empty]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Hi friends

Terrible back pain here so can't sit at the computer for more than a few minutes.

Juja, Mama, Nora - all hang in there. :h:h:h

will check in again when I can

[Sunbeam]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Mama, it seems like we should be able to vouch for your AF status. If I can help, pm me. I will send a letter with my real name.

[Juja]

One Step at a Time - May 2013

Mama, does it ever end for you? Will you be in the same group? Can you demand to be in a different group, as you don't need to contend with her, on top of everything else? Maybe she won't show up next time.... Anyway, this is about you, not about her.

GHE, I know you've mentioned your pain problems before, but I forget what they were. Is you back an ongoing problem, and is there a solution? I hope you get some relief.

Ms Zombie here. The AB/klonipin combo is toooooo much. I have to figure out something. It's starting to get to me, as I don't like feeling drugged. I feel dead. And, no, it's not the loss of my AL friend; I'm so numbed I'm not even thinking about AL. No AB tonight, that's for sure. I'd never be able to get up at 6 tomorrow.

I'm so frustrated. I should go to the rehab counselor, as my psych suggested, but I don't have time. Goddamn it all to hell! I just want to feel good again.