who am i?

[satz123]

Hi Mary,yes it is dumb how i keep forgetting how drinkin REALLY makes me feel,its no different anytime, sometimes I think I'll just have a few Hahahaha!!! There IS no few,I just need to remember that alcohol doesn't work for me anymore, tired of going through withdrawal again and again, its just the same nonsense repeated.

Pauly -come over to the Army thread and we'll take care of you. You need to hang with some AF folks for a while :hug:
Mary being Irish you too are more than welcome

[Rusty]

Pauly,

I thought this post from the Army Thread was from Satz...it wasn't...it was from Roxanne, aka "Roxy" and it was in response to KTAB's fighting off the cravings rather than giving in to them...and I thought this was an excellent post. yep, those cravings are hard. you know it. i realised that, after deciding i didnt want to drink anymore, any needs wants desires i have to or i'll go mad i cant do it times was not me. it was the addiction. it tried a different tack if i managed to surf one type of craving. i also knew it would pass. sometimes it took until i went to bed. but it passed. i paced through them. i played stupid games on the laptop. i walked the legs off dog. i watched tv. i was mindful sometimes and sometimes i played solitaire and all its variations. i ate something. gulped down sparkling water, the bubbles would hurt my throat and give me satisfaction. i now also have a house completely painted. the kitchen was deep cleaned. the garden completely weeded and pruned (i think i killed some plants).

i have now not had a drink for one year and three months today. those sort of craving are long gone. push through them and you will find it so much easier. one day at a time.

I will also post this on The Steppers' Thread, too.

Satzy...thanks for coming here. You are such a sweetheart...always willing to help others.

[satz123]

Pauly,

I thought this post from the Army Thread was from Satz...it wasn't...it was from Roxanne, aka "Roxy" and it was in response to KTAB's fighting off the cravings rather than giving in to them...and I thought this was an excellent post. yep, those cravings are hard. you know it. i realised that, after deciding i didnt want to drink anymore, any needs wants desires i have to or i'll go mad i cant do it times was not me. it was the addiction. it tried a different tack if i managed to surf one type of craving. i also knew it would pass. sometimes it took until i went to bed. but it passed. i paced through them. i played stupid games on the laptop. i walked the legs off dog. i watched tv. i was mindful sometimes and sometimes i played solitaire and all its variations. i ate something. gulped down sparkling water, the bubbles would hurt my throat and give me satisfaction. i now also have a house completely painted. the kitchen was deep cleaned. the garden completely weeded and pruned (i think i killed some plants).

i have now not had a drink for one year and three months today. those sort of craving are long gone. push through them and you will find it so much easier. one day at a time.

I will also post this on The Steppers' Thread, too.

Satzy...thanks for coming here. You are such a sweetheart...always willing to help others.

Rustydrawers - that was not my post it was Roxy's- feck I thought I had arrived and had written a 'brilliant' post.:crybaby:

[paulywogg]

Fuckwad! That's what I am,so tired of this but cannot quit relapsing! Found out my youngest daughter smokes weed,I got upset and what do I do? Throw a fucking bitchfit and go buy beers,its barely 10 am,I work tomorrow shit! I thought I had it this time,I have all the support here,been posting in the Army,navy,air force,marines,haha,I'm pissed that I work HA RD on staying sober and everyone around me takes the easy way out,fuckers! I guess I did too,everyone just put me on ignore,I'm tired of this and everyone else should be too

[Pie]

So you bought them, doesn't mean you have to drink them, right?

[NoSugar]

Hey, Pauly. Just stop drinking right now, ok? It will give you confidence for your next quit (your last one!!) if you don't let it get out of hand. What's done is in the past but you can stop now and get back on track. Just dump what is open and get rid of the rest. You won't regret doing that. You can be proud of yourself. xx

[paulywogg]

No way! I just don't care today.

[NoSugar]

But you will later today and tomorrow. You came and posted which is great. Now take the next step and pour them out. You can do that.

[NoraC]

Hey Pauly - hang in there friend. I agree with everyone else - you are doing great! Just pour them out. Get rid of it. You will not regret pouring it out but you will regret drinking! :hug:

[roxane]

do you see the irony in being upset that your daughter is using drugs so you reach for drugs too?

or is it that its not fair that she is and you arent?

pauly that emotional reaction is just that, emotional. there is no logic in it. the hardest thing to do is to take the emotion out of it and try and work through why you feel how you do.

you wont be ignored. youre trying and we are here to support you.

[paulywogg]

I admit that I was already on the edge before I found out about the weed I was scared of being alone all day,sad cuz said daughter is leaving tomorrow, been sick for FOREVER, docs app that I didn't go,I lied and said I had a flat tire hubs is home cuz he's sick,I just really don't know what to say,god I'm a mess, nobody understands, I look like an IDIOT

[roxane]

we dont understand specifically pauly, no. but my god we understand being ground down with stress :hug:

your daughter is leaving for college? im sure many can understand how you feel about that. sorry if im wrong about that.

[NoraC]

Hey Pauly - sending you lots of positive thoughts. I understand because I am still there myself. Just a step at a time and sometimes we don't even move forward. But, you have made awesome progress. Look where you are compared to a year ago!

[Guitarista]

Yo Pauly!

We will never give up on supporting you my friend. Never forget your inner strength and how amazing you are. Get yourself back on the horse asap and maybe work out a plan to handle emotional triggers for next time. We can't control what family, friends, or others do, but we can control how we respond to their actions.

Often I have to acknowledge a situation I don't like, detach from it, then work out what I can do next. G

[paulywogg]

That's what I do!! I can detatch from my oldest being a LSD or something user,I can detach from Louie's mom drinkin and smoking weed, I had faith in this daughter, feck,I built my whole sobriety on her,hubs, Louie and myself why can't anybody just appreciate life and what we have??? We have EVERYTHING, just too dumb to realize I guess,heaven help me,I'm so confused right now: (