Hi All
I used to drink waaay too much and it affected every aspect of my life. With a lot of intervention, effort and support I managed to change that. I think it might be almost two years now since I?ve had any cause for concern or craving that I couldn?t turn away from? until now. Here I am back again, hoping to reach out to a place I know is safe and ask for help.
I won?t ramble on but suffice it to say that life has thrown me a curve ball. An unpleasant life event has occurred and what do you think was there to just waiting?..Al. The urge to drink is back with an unprecedented force and I haven?t been able to stop it. You know? you can fall off the wagon once or twice and chalk it up to experience but given that I am here alone here with a 25 year history of binge drinking, I?m don?t feel prepared to fight it.
I think I just need to vent and hear from others. Make contact with people who can relate and maybe get some sort of perspective. It makes logical sense to me that if I can kick it once, I should do be able to do it again but this time feels particularly ominous, like being drawn towards the edge of a cliff.
Any advice would be very much appreciated.
I used to drink waaay too much and it affected every aspect of my life. With a lot of intervention, effort and support I managed to change that. I think it might be almost two years now since I?ve had any cause for concern or craving that I couldn?t turn away from? until now. Here I am back again, hoping to reach out to a place I know is safe and ask for help.
I won?t ramble on but suffice it to say that life has thrown me a curve ball. An unpleasant life event has occurred and what do you think was there to just waiting?..Al. The urge to drink is back with an unprecedented force and I haven?t been able to stop it. You know? you can fall off the wagon once or twice and chalk it up to experience but given that I am here alone here with a 25 year history of binge drinking, I?m don?t feel prepared to fight it.
I think I just need to vent and hear from others. Make contact with people who can relate and maybe get some sort of perspective. It makes logical sense to me that if I can kick it once, I should do be able to do it again but this time feels particularly ominous, like being drawn towards the edge of a cliff.
Any advice would be very much appreciated.
Given the fact that it takes me days to recover, that means I haven't been out of the house or even out of bed much at all in the last week. It seems to take longer and longer to recover as I get older (I'm 43 now). I really hate feeling this way, mentally as well as physically. It amazing to me how the habit to drink is always right there, lurking in the shadows just waiting for an opportunity. I hadn't even though of a drink for so long. Doesn't seem fair. Anyways, Thank you so much for your posts of support and encouragement. It will be ODAAT for a while now.
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