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[sami]

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Hablur, I am so sorry for all the pain you are feeling right now! Reading through your story, the prednisone jumped out as a red flag to me, too, as it did for Amethyst, as possibly a huge contributor to your emotional stress and exhaustion right now. I've known people who felt absolutely crazy on it! The prednisone alone did it to them....without all the other stressors that you have going on in your life right now.
(((((hugs))))) Hablur.....

[Accountable for Me]

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Oh.... and after talking with hubby the prednisone does give him insomnia. He has been on and off for over 10 years now and he says he can't sleep on it. Just to let you know. Take care of yourself.

[Breez]

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Ditto what Gabby said (except I'm closer to 5 mo AF). Topa has been my help. But what I want to add is that you need to have a well established mindset to boot. This is my second time on Topa because the first time I only went thru the motions of trying to quit without really quiting.

Campral is intended for maintaining abstinence. I convinced my Dr. to prescribe it to me when it first came out here in the U.S. but unfortunately thought it was some miracle drug & thought I could moderate on it-WRONG!

The only side effect I got was bad heart burn the first 3 days. As mentioned, I think all the hard work, stress & injury took a toll on the soul. Take it slow & I hope you sort all this out.

[ScoobyDoo]

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Hab, you poor guy! That is too much for anyone to cope with. You have so much on your plate... and now the meds giving you bad side effects... I am really feeling for you. *hug*

If I were you, I'd give your doc a call and ask if a side effect could be contributing to depression (not that you need a reason with all you've got on your plate!) so you can switch. That Naltrexone stuff sounds nasty!

I've heard all good things about the calms Forte (but we can't buy it here in Australia) so why not get yourself some of that.

When I feel that everything is too much, I try to make myself do small things to cheer me up. Even if it's just a hot relaxing bath with a candle. I guess you can probably think up more of a blokey/manly thing to do that is equivalent. My point is, to take some time out for yourself, that doesn't involve alcohol.

I'm feeling quite disheartened myself at the moment with my own progress. I've cut down a lot from where I was (used to be a bottle of wine or more nearly every night) but I can't seem to get my head around the non-drinking while socialising part. We had some Rotary friends over for dinner on Wednesday night and I probably had at least 1.5 bottles of plonk. The others drank the same, so to go from all to nothing seems so foreign to me. So I'm finding myself quite frustrated with myself with what I want so far as a long term goal. Do I continue drinking on weekends? do 30 day abs?? (which I don't seem to be able to do) So if you're feeling the same way... you're not alone.

I hope your spirits pick up and you get some good rest. At least you've got the weekend coming up so hopefully you can get some rest.

Scoob

[gabby]

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And yes...along with what Breez said, I did have the mind set as well. I was just ready to stop the drinkin too. But dont think I could'a done it without the topa. And oh the sleepin. Almost the best part of the day.

[hereatlast]

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hablur just a nurse thought hre when we put babies on steroids to help their lungs they become monsters they dont sleep they are starving all the time and so irriitable you would not believe it, i have spent many nights at work just cuddling the poor things so perhaps you need a cuddle

[Guest]

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Hab, I wish I had al the right words, you have always been so supportive of me. I want you to get better and feel better soon. Sounds like you just have a whole world coming down on you now. Can identify with that. Keep trying my friend. It will all come together. I think there are quite a few of us on the boards with family pressures and situations right now. Heck,maybe all of us, some of us are just more vocal than others! Please know you are not alone! You really are doing very well. Keep mending.
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Mar

[Debh]

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Hi Hab

I Haven't taken Meds. M Doc wont do it. i have woken up shaking like a leak, feeling like I wont to be sick. And yes I have kids, and yes I drive them to school and yes I am very nervest. Go One Day At A Time.
Debh

[hablur]

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I want to thank everyone here for such a strong response to my post. I was feeling so terrible yesturday that I really wasnt sure what to do. Because of your kindness and gift of genuine caring for me I feel much better today. I honestly don't know where I would be without this fantastic organization.

My deepest thanks go out to all for helping me pick myself up. I am on the last dose of Prednisone so lets hope I stabilize now that the weekend is here and can get some good quality rest. I wish I could have some serious ME time but with my living situation it comes far and few.

Again, Thank you all!

PS: I have decided I am going to post something positive today but I have not figured out what I want to talk about yet. Hopefully by bringing out a positive it will help me feel more positive and also help the community as well.

[Arial]

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Hi Hablur,

You already have posted something positive! To hear you feeling a little more upbeat and positive is certainly a good start to the weekend It is so difficult to find time for yourself in difficult situations, but sometimes you have to put yourself first in order to deal with everything/everyone else better. On my own with 2 growing girls I devoted eveything to them and had nothing left for me until a year or so ago I got so burnt out I started visiting a health spa just a couple of times a month. Even that little time was enough to get a break, a different environment, time to think, a different perspective and a better ability to deal with home. So maybe time to focus on you could be one of your priorities - it's impossible to deal with everything life throws our way if mentally and physically we're exhausted!

By all means rack your brains for the positive contribution - but for me, you've already just posted it! Take care of yourself and look forward to hearing how you get on over the next few days once things hopefully 'settle down'! :l

[ScoobyDoo]

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I'm with Arial Always know that you can come here and just talk... exactly like what you've done. I was thinking about you earlier and so glad to hear you're feeling a bit better today.

Keep smiling sunshine

Scoob xo