Army, it's a new week

[JackieClaire]

Glad its of some use............don't know when you see you D&A worker again but it might be worth asking about Acamprosate (sp) and if there's any SMART meetings about.

[roxane]

firsty JC im sorry to hear about your friend. hopefully it was found early. your tooth, ouch. i have something like that to come but not for a while.

thank you for posting the link to PAWS. ive read about it before in different articles but not lately and it is what im going through at the moment, since beginning of this month roughly. there is a touch of mental relapse going on so maybe its not PAWS but emotional relapse.

under 'the first rule of recovery' what is written is a problem for me in that nothing has changed in my life apart from stopping drinking. something i cant avoid though is loneliness. with PAWS/relapse one of the alarm bells is isolating yourself, so this is hard as i am isolated lonely and isolating. im forcing myself to write this, though i would much rather do it offline. but thats not happening.

[JackieClaire]

Bless your heart, Roxxy. I know that was really hard for you to write..........but never be shy with us...........have one of these.:hug:

Anyway we can can help you get you out of your comfort zone.

Yo Molls.

[roxane]

the world and his wife is privy to this site, this thread. it does not make for comfort.

[JackieClaire]

I know love............why not try something wild and so out of your comfort zone that you think it might kill you like come to Newcastle in April.......

[roxane]

AND --- don't forget you have our email addresses if you do want to communicate off of here --- well you have mine anyway --- I presume you have the others?

im terrible at bothering people. i dont like to. which annoying just reading that. sounds pathetic. now i sound sorry for myself ffs.

[JackieClaire]

Its no bother at all..............I'm off to watch this new Wolf Hall thing............you go and watch BB and I'll meet you back here at 10pm. OK.

[roxane]

im going to watch wolf hall too. not watching bb as its offended me.

[roxane]

just remembered, had my first drinking dream the other day.

[shambles70]

Glad its of some use............don't know when you see you D&A worker again but it might be worth asking about Acamprosate (sp) and if there's any SMART meetings about.

I'm going to see my GP in the morning...my D&A worker has already wrote to her about Campral and I think I'm going to give it a go. I want anything in my arsenal that's going to help. I know I'm doing good atm, but I'm also aware of what a knife edge I'm living on, and it's early days. Reading about ABCowb relapsing shocked me a bit, not that I know him, but it shocked me all the same. And I just had a stupid spat with Maria on the phone about something really fuckin inconsequential and even while we were snapping at eachother it was like 'DRINK! DRIIIIINKKKK!!!

well that is true --- but you ARE anonymous ---- and oh I dunno --- I s'pose it's like when people on BB say they forget there are cameras ---- I just forget that anyone may read cos I can't imagine anyone is all that interested in me anyway --- feck it --- I just settle for the level of anonymity and would only give my email or FB address to good friends on here

Yeah, rox, I have thought about the public nature of this site. I've thought as well what would someone who knew me make of it if they somehow worked out it was me..i mean, I've wrote on here that I'm an art therapist who lives in Essex and manages a CAMHS team...pretty easy to narrow it down to me. But I don't give a shit. I'm proud of what I'm doing.

im terrible at bothering people. i dont like to. which annoying just reading that. sounds pathetic. now i sound sorry for myself ffs.

But it's not bothering here, is it? It's just...not. It's something rather wonderful. I got a bit sad last night thinking that this thread might not be around at some point in the future.

[shambles70]

just remembered, had my first drinking dream the other day.

Tell it, if you feel comfy doing so...I love hearing about dreams. I have drinking ones every night atm. Last night me and my dead dad were trying to make a cheesecake and we ended up mixing the biscuit base in with the cheese and poured in a load of brandy to make a smoothie-type drink and then I realised I had to go into work in an hour stinking of brandy, and kept falling off my motorbike on the way in. The excrutiating shame when I woke up...took me a good twenty minutes to shake that off...

[roxane]

But it's not bothering here, is it? It's just...not. It's something rather wonderful. I got a bit sad last night thinking that this thread might not be around at some point in the future.

it will be, it goes busy and slow, they all do. now stop bothering me, im watching wolf hall.

[shambles70]

And there's me watching 'Was Joan Rivers Murdered for Exposing Michelle Obama as Transgender' on YouTube.

[JackieClaire]

Verdict on Wolf Hall? I'm going not bad but not as great as publicised.

What's going on in BB that's so offensive?

[JackieClaire]

Now Thomas is brilliant.

Shams, keep apologising.............poor Mr JC didn't know what kind of mood I was going to be in when he got home from work...........that'll pass too.