One Step at a Time - January 2016

[NoraC]

Mama - so glad to hear from you! :hug: Feel better.

Good for you for going AF. Yes - there has been a lot of thought going on in this tiny brain of mine lately. I can't think of one good reason to pick up a drink. Even this morning, I was thinking about it.......because I don't want to feel this shit that I'm feeling. But, what good would it do? I don't drink for the enjoyment of sharing a glass of wine with a friend. I drink to NUMB and I know from hard experience that it doesn't really numb. So, I don't want to go back to feeling shitty all the time - shaky, sick, red eyes, guilt, remorse and on & on.

So, I'm having an extremely rough week because I'm going to experience all this shit. And this is called life............

[Rusty]

Nora, I am so proud of you and you are a wonderful thread leader!

[Baclofenman]

Thanks Bac. how are you doing?

Yes Nora, well thanks - Every day is another day but I am feeling ok "head wise" but I am still getting small urges to drink but whether its will power (doubt it) or the Bac i am certainly - I am taking my daughter to Cubs and for the first time for years I will pick her up SOBER - I have you guys to thanks for that as without the contributions made on this site I will never have found the support

I am wondering if there is any interest in a facebook site?...I think we can start a private site?

Best Regards Nora

Bacman

[NoraC]

Nora, I am so proud of you and you are a wonderful thread leader!

Rusty - you are a doll but I'm certainly no leader. Just got my head down and plodding thru. I have to admit that it's been a little hard to take that one step each day but I'm doing it......
Have a safe trip. :hug:

[NoraC]

Bac - there was a facebook site that a few people were on. I'll try to remember to look up that link at home tonight and send to you. Not many people used it but I think it's still there.

Congratulations on how great you are doing! Good job on picking up your daughter sober!

[Baclofenman]

Bac - there was a facebook site that a few people were on. I'll try to remember to look up that link at home tonight and send to you. Not many people used it but I think it's still there.

Congratulations on how great you are doing! Good job on picking up your daughter sober!

Thanks

Incase you cannot find it I have created one called My Way Out - It is underconstruction and should not be visable at all

Regards


Bacman

[Lizann]

Hey guys!
Nora, wish I could do something to help you through this! Just know I am here for you. I am so proud of you. As bad as all this is it could have been way worse. I'm praying for and early release for him. How are he and his fiancé doing/managing? Does your mom know any of this. Being a mom sure is tough some times.
Mama, feel better. Yes, it seems hubs friends death really knocked you guys for a loop. So sad.
Fen good luck tomorrow. I don't like just sitting around either. Did you get paid for orientation. It'll done fun to get that first psycheck.
Rusty, don't work too hard!
Hi to everyone else I missed.
Went shopping with Mark tonight. It's Erin's birthday on Sunday and he didn't know what to get her, so I came along and helped. He was surprised how easy it was!

[NoraC]

Hi all....

Quick check in. Thank you all so very much for all the love & support. It means so much to me. Liz, thank you for saying that about it could have been way worse. I tell myself that daily and I thank God that nobody was seriously injured or killed. As strange as this sounds, I am glad that he is going thru this. I hope that this sticks in his head.

To make a shitty day worse, my boss talked to me. Questioned me about my son and about my Mom. (Never has asked before even though he knows what's going on & that my Mom had been taken to ER) Then, asks if things are going to calm down and things get better at work. I'm not getting things done, blah, blah, blah. Once again, it was some misunderstanding between his daughter and me. A couple misunderstandings - so by the time he hears it, it is completely one sided. I, of course, started crying because I'm so emotional at the moment. Then, I took a deep breath and said I needed a minute. So, I just laid it on the line - is it time for us to call it quits and for me to leave. I explained about his daughter & me being on different planes and not understanding each other. I said that it's not very helpful for her to complain to him and then he tells me and doesn't even know what the issue is. He brought up something else and I then explained my side of the story. Again - it was a complete misunderstanding. He said that he doesn't want me to go. Just need to get things done. Nothing was resolved. I said that I wanted to talk again in a month and decide if things were any better. There is no sense in continuing on if I am not being useful.

So, we will be tightening our belts even more at home. Hopefully, things will get resolved at work. I'll work on my resume and get some sent out and we will go from there.

We are spending a nice evening together - my mom, hubby, me, son & fiancee. They have picked a wedding date 2-24-16 (they are just sure he's getting an early release). I'm just keeping my mouth closed and letting them talk. I'll speak up before the put any money down anywhere. They are planning on getting married at the courthouse and then we'll have a dinner. There's just going to be a few family and friends there but it will be nice. I'm going to go wedding dress shopping on Saturday with my soon to be DIL.

Anyway - thanks everyone for everything. I'll check in tomorrow.

[paulywogg]

Bueno all,Nora,Ithink your son will be released early too,jails are too crowded these days,I'm with you though I hope he learns from this,I'm not so sure hubs has learned a lesson from his while he rarely gets drunk,he does get buzzed and like the commercial says buzzed driving is drunk driving!one tall can is enough to raise the b.a.l. in our blood and who only drinks one? Sorry things are shitty at work too,glad you're not drinking as you pointed out it won't help a gosh darn thing,although that thought seems to be there all the time with me not ALL the time but flashes anybody get those? For instance its been raining here and that stupid AV remembers drinkin rainy days away so stupid,Fen,how's the job? Liz,you and your son are so close,I love it hello to all,gotta fix my face and fro hope we all have a wonderful Wednesday

[mama bear]

Nora - I am So f'ing proud of you. You are dealing with enough bullshit in your life and that bitch daughter is not helping.
Quiet night last night. Got home about 7, ate leftovers from lunch, snuggled with Hubs and watched Nurse Jackie on Netflix. Drank some Nyquil and passed out about 9. The big test for me will be the weekend.
Love and hugs to all of you

[mama bear]

Fix that Fro Pauly!!! hahahahahhahahahahahahahahaha

[Glass Half Empty]

:upsidedown:

Hey lovely people. Just dropped in and wanted to say hello.

Nora - it sounds as though you're going through a very tough time, I can only send you my most heartfelt hugs :hug:

Mama, Fen - same goes to you too.

And Pauly - it sounds like you're doing really well.

I love you guys! xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[NoraC]

Glassie - so very great to see you. :hug: :hiya: How are you doing????? Love you & miss you too!

Mama - good to see you. Are you feeling any better?

Pauly - I know what you mean about having those thoughts/flashes. I don't that often anymore but they do still show up at times. Luckily, not even close to considering it but I don't like the thoughts.

Fen - please check in. Is the new job ok? I hope that you like it.

Liz, Rusty, bacman, Choices, Dottie, Red and everyone - sending out positive thoughts for a good day for all of us. I think I'm going to take a nap. Didn't get much sleep last night. Son turned himself in. Shouldn't have to serve more than 60 days (we hope). It finally occurred to them this morning that he's going to be in jail next month during the time they were talking about getting married. We don't know where he will be yet. He won't be booked until tonight or tomorrow. After he gets settled, he will be able to make a call.
So, I am sad but this could have been so much worse. So, like I told son & his GF this morning. We will get thru this. We love each other. This will be in the past.
Catch you all after my nap.......

To everyone - thank you for the support. The PM's, the posts, the positive energy has helped me so much. No words to say how much it means to me. :hug:

[paulywogg]

Mama,the weekend ain't no thing,you can still have date night without a drink,its who you're with not what is in the glass that counts(listen to me actin all longterm!) Glassy,wonderful to see you,wish you were here more watching my 600 lb life and the new series starts tonight where they cut all the loose skin off,love these shows,no Louie tonight and while I like the quiet its booooring! Hope everyone has a good night

[NoraC]

Boring over here too. I just can't settle down. I'm restless tonight. I keep starting to do some project and then put it away again. :rotlf: