One Step at a Time - March 2016

[NoraC]

Sorry AG - I was just trying to make you smile. I'm not making light of how you feel. I can remember feeling exactly like you. And to be honest, I still don't say that I am NEVER going to drink again. I'm just not drinking. Period. I don't have to give it more power.
And, it is depressing. I get it. I was past being able to moderate. It was all or nothing and just to think about it so much. Aaarrggghhh.
Hang in there. Things will get better. This just hit you by surprise. (Personally, I never had good relationships with a psychiatrist. Talked to me for a couple minutes, wrote a prescription and shoved me out the door)
Regarding Nal. It did give me an upset stomach. Start with a small dosage when you do start to minimize that side effect. I have heard wonderful things about it. I just was too busy trying to figure out ways to drink to commit to taking that pill.

Hang in there - :hug:

[NoraC]

SK - that happens on my phone. On the computer, I have to make the screen fill the screen so that the PM's don't do that.
Good luck!
How are you feeling?

[SKendall]

Doing okay Nora. Starting physio again and possibly surgery. I just want to get to the point of being able to sit on a plane to see g/daughter.

Nora, I think your words of wisdom will be better and fresher than mine.

[Lizann]

Hi all. Laryngitis for me, but I did go to work. Hubby and I have a dinner to go to tonight. My SIL is coming also. I've thought of canceling but I think I'll just suck it up and go.
AG, I hope that the celexa does the trick for you. I am on a low dose do lexapro, it does help but yet it doesn't. I reduced the dose because I feel the same whether it's higher or lower. I know the anxiety disorder is the reason I drank. It really did help until it got outta control. You are so not messed up!
Skendall is right awhile off al does make one less depressed and anxious.
I hope the physio goes well for you Skendall.
Nora, how are the newlyweds? I'm sure you've mentioned it before but do you work full time? You've sure got a lot on your plate. Are you still reading a lot?
Rusty, Mama, hope you're ok. Haven't heard from you guys in a bit. Rusty, how's the bathroom reno coming along?
Pauly the picture of you puppy is so sweet! It's very windy here too. Lucy's not thrilled about it either.
Techie, Mr. V, hello to you guys.
Off to figure out what to wear.

[techie]

Hi all. In Denver enroute to New York. Moving mom out to Cali by May 1st. Lots to wrap up on east coast but I have a determined focus to do this right. Her apartment is newly furnished but I need her personal things to complete. It is so good to know she'll be very close to my house. Best to you all!

[paulywogg]

This is so dumb,I dunno what happened but the site looks like its from the 80's on my phone!! Anyways,I'm drinkin AGAIN, I dunno why,just bs got to me I guess, Ihate drinkin Pauly

[paulywogg]

Nora,8 months is amazing!! Good on you hon!

[Lizann]

Aww Pauly :hug: Nora, 8 months is amazing!

[actiongirl46]

Thanks Nora, SK & Liz! I appreciate your kind words. I'm feeling better now, but still angry. What I should be feeling is grateful, I guess. She said she sees about 1-2 of me a day . . . she said it is very common (anxiety and AUD) and no one is talking about it. Her parting comment was, "well, it could be a whole lot worse!" Arggg. Of course, to hubs, everything is so black and white. Which does not help my mood. I had a rough time tonight . . . very anxious, angry, irritable, just wanted to run away . . . but, I didn't, and I did not drink. I am trying to find other ways to calm down. I meet with the therapist tomorrow. She will help me process this.

I think a piece what makes me angry is that it seemed so impersonal. I think she would diagnose at least half of my friends as well!! Your comment Nora about "here's the prescription off you go" really hit home for me.

Techie, sounds like you are into a bit of a big project moving your mom across the country? Is she already there? That will be so nice to have her closer to you.

Pauly . . . thinking of you. I hope you can find where you want to be. I know you can. Good for you for checking in!!!

Hang in there everyone!

[NoraC]

Oh guys, thank you so much. It sounds like I was asking for congrats now that I reread it but that's not what I meant. I am just trying to stay alert....if that makes sense. Now that alcohol isn't always in the forefront of my brain, I want to make sure that I don't let my guard down. So, I've been reading and trying to learn.

[NoraC]

Pauly - I'm sorry. Did you start drinking today or has it been a couple days? :hug: Hang in there. Pauly - you did so very well and I know that you will again. You are one determined woman and you are going to win!!!!

[NoraC]

Techie - you are one of my most favorite people here. :hug: Thank you for your kind words and thank you for checking in here.
I know that it will be so much better to have your Mom near you? Is it an assisted living facility? Having her personal things will help make it home. How is she dealing with all of this? Does she know that she is moving?

Liz - how are you feeling? I'm sorry that you still had to work and then go out to a dinner. I take Lexapro also and have seriously thought about weaning myself off of it. Oh well, not going to deal with that issue at the moment.
The newlyweds are doing fine. Thanks for asking. I'm going to post some more pics soon.
Son texted me today and asked me if I was sill at the store to please pick up flowers for his wife. He would pay me when I got home. :flowersglow: She wasn't feeling the greatest so he wanted to cheer her up.

[NoraC]

Rusty - where are you? Are you still having the long commute?

Red - how's it going?

SK - what type of surgery are they talking about? When do you start physical therapy?

AG - congratulations on getting thru the night. :hug: Fantastic. My therapist told me straight out the psychiatrists are a different breed. :harhar:

Mr V - how are you doing? Please check in. :hug:

[red67]

Hi all, I don't feel well tonight but I just want to say hi to everyone.

Techie, you are an amazing son, your mom is a lucky woman. I hope everything goes well with the transition.

Nora, I am so happy, you are doing so well, and under very tough circumstances. Keep it up woman!

Lizann, you are doing wonderful also. I have followed you and Nora for years and I am so happy for both of you.

Pauly, hey I know it's tough, but you did this before and you can do it again. You know you are a strong beautiful woman and you deserve a peaceful, healthy happy life. What do you think caused you to drink? PM anytime if you need someone to lean on, I am here for you.

Rusty, I see you on a couple other threads, get back over here and tell us what's going on with you this week.

AG, I hope you can find some understanding with the therapy. I both liked and hated my counselor. I hated that I needed it and I really appreciated having someone to talk to without fear. It's complicated, but so is this addiction.

Mama, where are you?!?!?!?

I am off to sleep, I think I have the flu or strep throat, either way, yuck!!!

Love all of you!!!

[red67]

I forgot to say hi to Skendall, and forgive me if I forgot anyone else.

I feel like a someone ran over me with a truck, I have too much to do at work to be sick so this better be gone in the morning.

Talk to you tomorrow!