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[sweetpea]

FIREWORKS - ANYONE WANT TO JOIN ME FOR 30 DAYS AF

:welcome: lil.michelle fantastic great to have you on board. Any questions just ask as all the firecrackers are very supportive and know what it is like to be new to the boards. Have you read Roberta Jewell?s book yet because if you haven't it is a very good place to start. So many people can relate to what she has to say and she gives loads of advice on different strategies you can deploy assist you in your goals.

I know that I am really so much better since finding MWO and getting the support from everyone here - a big thank you to you all:l:l

Rustop did you manage to get Goldie her swim? It was really quite hot yesterday which made a nice change. I think I shall start keeping a diary so that I can compare and see just how well I am doing from month to month.


Hope everyone has a great day. Will try and catch up later

Sweetpea :l xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[rustop61]

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Hi Firecrackers

Welcome Lilmichelle, jump on board and tell us how you are getting on. The firecrackers are a great crowd and you will get lots of support.

Bit overcast this morning but hoping it will brighten up to a nice day. My friend is on holidays so I am going solo on my walks, still enjoy but miss the company, I find it a form of therapy.

Have a busy day planned but will catch you all later.

Rustop

[maasai]

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hie firecrackers,
glad am here, am getting on pretty well though still new every day in my recovery, the funny thing is that i was soo longing and hoping that after having reached a year sober i will feel different, different as in i will feel relaxed in handling my sobriety. well i still find that at times a get nervouse, when am provoked what comes to my mind is the vision of me drinking, so i get scared, and i end up relating everything am doing to my sobriety.
everything am told to do i just question it relating it to drinking, right now i got a job that will take me a week or so and my boss drinks like no one bussiness, he is familiar to me and i keep singing him the song "you better do something about your drinking" and now he does not talk even speak or chat in the car, i feel am doing the right thing but at time i feel am bothering him.
cant wait to ran away from the alcohol smell after his drinking lol.
thanks everyone

[happydog]

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i have got time on my hands!

[pre]Teardrop hope you are getting some nice sunshine in your part of the UK so that you can enjoy the break with your kids - you so deserve it - should at least be a hot day today[/pre]
Sweetpea...dont know about you bt we had flying ants yesterday, thats when you can tell the weather is hot...But dont like flying ants they dont seem to see where they are going.
Rustop... hope you enjoy your walk but can understand missing the company i can image you to be a right chatter boxs (im i right?)
:welcome:Michelle you have come to the right place here.
East.. I cant believe you still have got the builders..my friend had a lot of trouble with her extenion feel really sorry for her at the moment they have trashed the house, the work has to be condonned twice by building regs....Hope your son is alright i know what its like toget redundant....I felt so worthless had to go to the doctors, every morning going to work i couldn't stop crying.
Maasia...it funny you should say that about your boss ...i was talking to my brother the other day he said he went to church and guess who sat next to him was someone that was a Alcohol, he to did not like the smell... because my brother also has drinking problem. The Reverend at this church has really been there for my brother, he is very nice.

went to my 1-2-1 session follow up yesterday didn't want to go b'cause i been drinking the last few weeks anyway the good thing is she said if i needed more 1-2-1 sessions just have a word with my group session therapist...so i feel quite safe, if you know what i mean. I also miss out on my group the last two weeks. We have two ladies that does our group sessions but one is leaving and i would of love her as my 1-2-1 therapist...its like she can understand me in the way i think. I have realise, but it was pointed out to me to really think about it, next time going af i will not buy no af wine i use this has a reward on a friday night( something about a friday night) but i need to change that reward in the way i think. tomorrow going to london dungeon with daughter and her friend and maybe go on one of the bus tour. (this is a long post sorry if i bored you all but just making up for lost time )

Love to all firecrackers.

Teardrop.x

P.s i will start on monday sweetpea as well! and who knows i may just carry on i hope so.

[Carmac]

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Hi all.....
First, welcome lilmichelle. You'll find this a very supportive group although Sweetpea is constantly demanding we send her good weather. Very demanding sort....:-)
Teardrop, can you explain 1-2-1 Never heard of that before.

It's another gorgeous day here. No humidity, low 70's wonderful breeze and we got a great rain for the flowers last night. I have a ton of basil and will be making pesto later to freeze. Yummy!

Having lunch with a friend and still being very happy AF. I have been lucky to have some great support here and at home and it truly is making a big difference this time. Even the "ex" SO itching he wants to try again. (And he is a real sweetheart, I will admit) SO, all is looking on the up and I'm wishing you all the same!

Hugs, Erin

[sweetpea]

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Morning all

Got a busy weekend ahead so just a short post

Teardrop just love your long posts because you always have something interesting to say. Hope your visit to the London Dungeon goes well - you couldn't do us all a massive favour and leave AL chained up down there:H:H Monday is definitely on for me - have slipped a little the last couple of days and need to reign myself in a bit so a good stint of AF time is required

Erin 1- 2- 1 means person to person

Maasai great to hear from you

Rustop, lil.Michelle, East and all the rest of the crackers have a great weekend

Loads of love

Sweetpea xxxxxxxx:l:l:h

[Nurseindistress]

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Will Try

Would like to join in you 2 week AF free plan. I went to the store last night to buy a bottle of wine. When I got home, I found that I hadn't looked well enough at the label, and the wine was sweet, and I couldn't stand it! I didn't drink it, and immediately lost my craving and felt to good for the rest of the night and this morning! I'm taking that as a sign to quit, although weekends are really hard.

[Captnjack]

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Quote massai " i got a job that will take me a week or so and my boss drinks like no one bussiness, he is familiar to me and i keep singing him the song " Massai where do you gain your strength from you are a inspiration to me since i got hear thank you
Cap

[KAT20]

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Hello friends, Just wanted to say hello and try and reconnect with everyone. I read back to about the 18th. Don't we have the triggers. I once heard "That which does not kill us makes us stronger." I am aiming for that. I'm 42 this month, do not have any children but feel responsible and take care of my family members and everyone else. "Codependency" Life is such a journey of change and rolling with it. I am determined to remain alcohol free and continue to grow. Even if it is painful at times I find the end result usually works out for the best. Anyway, rambling on and deep this morning. Big hugs and love to you all. Will jump on the express again Monday.

[sweetpea]

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:welcome: Nurseindistress glad you have joined us and we will have a Good 2 weeks of AF time - I too think the weekends are the hardest because I have always used drink to help me unwind and you have too much time on your hands at the weekend

Kat glad you will be joining the express again on Monday:l

Hi to all the other Crackers hope your having a great weekend

Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx:l:l

[happydog]

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Hi ALL,
Iniamike2...1-2-1 it is counselling with a therapist as sweetpea said with one person. Its funny she could see the change in me in my confidence...I know AL takes away my self esteen need to get myself movtivated again.....But this will only happen if i stop drinking.
Sweetpea...Wish i could of lift AL chain down the dungeons...but it follow me home.
:welcome: nuseindestress...Glad you join us i know the weekends can be hard but i have notice once you go past the a few it not that bad it just another day. Good for you not going out to buy another bottle of wine and not drinking the sweet wine..

Had a good day yesterday...but as i was parking my car in the station, car park try to squeeze my car between two cars not a good idea thought i could get in there heard a tiny crunching noise..(sh*t) other half not to happy about it but then im not perfect like him......Anyway we waited over a hour in the queue to get in the dungeons.but was worth it had a really good laugh the tour guys were really funny...on the way home stop of at canary whaf in the city ( could not believe how many office people were outside drinking dress in there suits, sort of bought back old times on a friday after work) to go to jack the ripper exhibiton...
GOOD NEWS my brother got a job on monday hope it last a few months hope he gets a fridge and freeze soon.
I know i need to stop drinking just hate breaking out in a sweat and in the mornings feeling like i want to be sick but cant plus just really hate feeling tired all the time its funny even tho i think im getting sleep but it not the real sleep.

Take Care all firecrackers.

Love
Teardrop.x

[Eastender]

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Hi everyone,
Have had such a busy week trying to squeeze all of sons belongings back into house!
Its great having him here but stressful listening to all the things thats happened while he has been away. GF has got him in such a mess financially trying to sort it out now.
Have not managed to stay AF but hope to start tomorrow with Sweetpea,have just ordered some more AF beer and cider to help cope.
I need to get it out of my system before the op so the healing will have a chance. Have found it so hard just this past week.
Reading teardrops post cheered me though, she is right the first few days are the worst, the first five for me always!
:welcome:to nurseindistress and well done on making up your mind to stay away from the wine. My poison too but I am also picky with what I like!
Glad that your brother has got a job, Teardrop.:goodjob:
Good to see you back from your hols Rustop.:l
SO HERE WE GO! AF TOMORROW FOR TWO WEEKS! ( I am hoping for almost 4,but tiny steps and one day at a time as always) Good luck everyone

Eastx

[Eastender]

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Catching up on pages missed and see I missed Lillmichelle Hi and:welcome:to firecrackers.

Teardrop my son was not made redundant THIS time round,7 others were, It worries me if he should lose the job it is very well paid, and he has enormous debts to settle.
GF ditched him when thought her money box was going to dry up. (She does not work out of choice,) relied on son to pay for EVERYTHING.
I have seen the clothes , shoes, makeup etc on his loaded credit card, makes me so mad!
Together for 8 years, all she wanted was his money! The sad thing is he still loves her but feels she will not change.and is dragging him down further, breaks my heart.

sorry to go on!

Eastx

[sweetpea]

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Sad Pea had a bad day yesterday

:upset: Have been moderating really well but yesterday had too much - Actually I say too much it was just a bottle and a bit of wine which normally before I could have drunk without it causing me too many problems - I don't know maybe it was the heat or whatever but it made me morose and sorry for myself - argumentative - you can all relate to what I am saying - not good for a healthy loving relationship - the whole world is against me sort of attitude - why can't i stop myself from feeling like this when I am down - it only seems to take little things to drag me down - stupid things - so stupid I am too embarrassed to even mention them. Upshot is Mr Pea has had enough and all I want to do is crawl into a hole and stay there forever!!!!!!! Maybe he is right and I should just let him go because I am NOT being fair to anybody least of all to the people I love the most -sorry tears are just pouring and I feel so down - have to get a grip!!!!!!!!

SO TO ALL MY LOVING FIRECRACKERS AND ANY NEWBIES LETS GO AF FOR THE FORESEEABLE FUTURE:l:l

A LONG AND HARD ROAD BUT WE WILL SUPPORT EACH OTHER xx

DAY 1 AF for me

Pleasssssssssssse join me and lets get this Sweetpea Express rolling again I just can't seem to stop crying I guess it is a sign of depression hitting me full on again - must pull out all the stops to stop it and AL getting a grip


Can't say how much you all mean to me and how much I need your support at the moment to stop me from getting too far this line - MWO has been a life line xxxx


Loads of love Sweetpea xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

PS Sorry this post has been all about me - love you all loads - but feeling a bit fragile and need you all xxxxxxxxxxxxx

[suez2225]

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Sweetie,

I can understand your feeling now, so I'm with you, start a 30 AF goals with you from today...XXX:l