Had an AF night last night which makes me feel a lot more comfortable but I lay tossing and turning and thinking about all the stuff that needs doing. I woke up this morning with my head full of those thoughts too. Really is one of the main reasons I drink to try to find a place to go that doesn't need me to work. But it is all in my head and I really need to develop a different attitude to it. It's not like I have a bad life -- I have plenty of plusses and benefits and lots of things that I like but I forget how to relax and enjoy it in the face of everything that needs doing to develop and maintain it. And I'm a bit of a workaholic so that doesn't help. Even pleasurable things like walking dogs, gardening and riding horse are just more jobs on a long list of jobs. That's wrong so I have to re-think. I need to find a method that will allow me to look at life in a different way - maybe a book (like I've got time to read one!! :H) Any suggestions?Have a great day all. Al free for me.
Bessie xxxxx
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