Newbies Nest

[Dutch1988]

Lots of action on here today, congratulations Lav, 6 years, I can't even imagine! Very happy for ya, and thanks for the advice, but I really don't feel much from ibs, I think what I realy need is surgery haha

Today would have been 30 days if I didn't give in after 2 weeks when I had a family struggle. So I am kicking in day 17 and I have to put it on paper because today and yesterday were struggles. I keep going to this place where I am just physically and mentally exhausted and I want to drink. I take some deep breaths, I eat and drink a soda, I go to the gym, eventually I feel better but I am no where near you guys when it comes to coping. But still is crossing my mind, especially days like today when im working almost ten hours straight with 15 minutes to grab lunch and then back at it. I think if I could reach a place more financially comfortable I would be better, but constant adversity is really kicking my ass. I'll hang in there, happy for everyone's progress in here!

Gnite all!

[Overit-still]

Dutch-you know the old saying about the grass being greener. Unfortunately, a better financial outlook would not make a difference. There are plenty of drunk millionaires, just sayin. You'll get it, we're all different and handle this process differently. The only important thing we have to agree on is to just not drink. I hope you don't think I'm picking on you. I just care and want you hanging on to me as we travel this journey. Good night friend.

[jane27]

Congratulations Lav!

[Hanna]

Im done

[NoSugar]

Hi, Hanna. I was planning to stalk you today. What's up? :hug:

[frances]

Hanna - hope you are ok - glad you are here - Make this your last day one! Feeling miserable and regretful over drinking can be gone for good. Think through what has happened and read through tools and ask for help here - you were doing great before - you can do this!

Lav - 6 years! WOW:welldone: that is so wonderful. You are a strong steady rock here and I am so glad to be here to benefit from your insight and wisdom. Thank you for all you do! And enjoy your day :happy2:

[Hanna]

Just finished. Scared shitless about my marriage, but don't care as much as staying sober. Just finished. Can't eat, sleep, am a bit of a mess. Up at 5 for no reason, so hitting 2 classes at the gym before work. Been better. But done with alcohol.

Lav AMAZING. I will be you one day.

[daisy45]

Lav, a big congratulations for your 6 years of living life sober and happy! And massive thanks for staying here....I know you say it helps you too, but without you and others who have paved the way being here, I believe there would be a lot less success stories. You are affecting peoples lives every day...I may not be a sober rock star yet but I am still here....thank you so much for all you do!
Have the best day! X

[moni]

I'm back. I need to get a serious grip. I've never felt so defeated or controlled by anything in my life. Sad part is I know I am capable of doing it, I did so well before

[abcowboy]

6 years is amazing Lavande!

[Lavande]

Good Thursday morning Nesters!

I am happy & darn right proud of myself today & I really want all of you to find the same happiness
The two most important things for me were to change my negative thinking & adopting a zero tolerance policy towards AL.
You all can do this too, it's entirely your choice!

Stella wants to wear her party hat today



Have a wonderful AF day everyone!

Lav

[Overit-still]

Happy Birthday Lav! You deserve a party! CONGRATULATIONS!

[moni]

Good Thursday morning Nesters!

I am happy & darn right proud of myself today & I really want all of you to find the same happiness
The two most important things for me were to change my negative thinking & adopting a zero tolerance policy towards AL.
You all can do this too, it's entirely your choice!

Stella wants to wear her party hat today



Have a wonderful AF day everyone!

Lav

Well done! Happy Anniversary!

[KENSHO]

Congratulations LAV! Hope you like strawberries and cream! Thank you for being such a leader! 6 years must feel wonderful!
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[Byrdlady]

Lav,
Your #1 fan here. Congratulations on this big day! Do you feel much difference than you did at, say, 2 years? or 3? We are darned lucky to have your NORTH STAR Guidance System here. Thank you for the countless hours you spend with us, believe me when I tell you, I couldn't have done this without you. You are nobody until you've been pecked by Lav and Stella! From the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for what you do.

I am working with a customer and had to look back at some emails that we traded in September of 2010. I noticed that some of them didn't make a lot of sense....weren't very professional! Quite frankly, I am embarrassed by them. I looked at the time stamp, 4:18 pm. September of 2010 was the height of my descent into hell and by 4:18 in the afternoon, I KNOW I had been drinking (was starting at 2:30 back then). Working from home is convenient for an alkie. I was flying off the handle about something that, today, I would sort thru like a rational human being. UGG. I would rationalize by saying...as soon as _____ happens, I will quit. After the holidays, I will quit. As soon as work slows down, I will quit. I was living life in the NEXT moment instead of the one I was in. I couldn't enjoy the drink I had because I was concerned about the NEXT one. I think that's one thing that quitting does for us, it puts us IN THE MOMENT. I imagine this is what Pavati is referring to when she speaks of MINDFULLNESS. AL takes all that away (and plenty more). Appreciating what I have RIGHT NOW has been a real gift. Stick with this, fellow nesters, there IS something to it. Being sober is the best!
Hope everyone has an easy day!!! Byrdie