Wow... today was a tough one
OK guys - I bought small bottle of Canadian Whiskey (not my first choice... but less expensive). NOT the teensiest bottle, but the one up from that.
I have NOT lost sight of how GRAND it is to feel... sober, alive & aware.
Not sure why, then, I bought it. And am drinking it.
I think it's OK.
I really believe, having experienced these last two weeks, that I Won't go back into the dismal routine.
I've only had about 1-1/2 drinks (so far) - but I don't think I can get drunk even if I wanted to...
Do I feel... bad? Yes, in a way. But I'm also seeing (only being Slightly affected).. that it really isn't what it's cracked up to be! It's "ok" - but... REALLY not as good.
As being Sober! I think I had to realize that. I'm doing a sort of comparison.
I think what makes me feel the worst is that I spent about $6... $5 for booze & $1 for coke. Pretty cheap - But. Still... so much better to spend that on something of Consequence.
OK, OK - NOW I feel bad! But it's a done deal. Can't return the booze...
It will be interesting to see if my Exuberant mood will change after a few drinks...?
Even if it doesn't, if I can feel Exhuberant WITHOUT booze, why the heck would I spend money on something that I think might maike me feel.. even better?
OH gawd. I guess I am feeling the effects.
OK guys - I bought small bottle of Canadian Whiskey (not my first choice... but less expensive). NOT the teensiest bottle, but the one up from that.
I have NOT lost sight of how GRAND it is to feel... sober, alive & aware.
Not sure why, then, I bought it. And am drinking it.
I think it's OK.
I really believe, having experienced these last two weeks, that I Won't go back into the dismal routine.
I've only had about 1-1/2 drinks (so far) - but I don't think I can get drunk even if I wanted to...
Do I feel... bad? Yes, in a way. But I'm also seeing (only being Slightly affected).. that it really isn't what it's cracked up to be! It's "ok" - but... REALLY not as good.
As being Sober! I think I had to realize that. I'm doing a sort of comparison.
I think what makes me feel the worst is that I spent about $6... $5 for booze & $1 for coke. Pretty cheap - But. Still... so much better to spend that on something of Consequence.
OK, OK - NOW I feel bad! But it's a done deal. Can't return the booze...
It will be interesting to see if my Exuberant mood will change after a few drinks...?
Even if it doesn't, if I can feel Exhuberant WITHOUT booze, why the heck would I spend money on something that I think might maike me feel.. even better?
OH gawd. I guess I am feeling the effects.
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