I want to be in control, not controlled
I want my health to improve
I want my looks to improve
I want my mental wellbeing to improve
I hate feeling like shit the next day
I'm spending too much money on alcohol
I'm embarassed about my behaviour when i'm drunk
I have a yellowish tinge to my eyes which i hate
I'm worry those who care about me, and myself
There's more to life than booze and being pissed
Me and drunk me are two completely different people
That was written more than two years ago and it all still stands - just thought i'd share
they ring true for me too! - so many good reasons to quit, so whats the reason i keep slipping - (or have in the past at least - i'm hoping this will be different) - is it complacency - thinking, oh i did so well after 2 af days, its friday, i deserve it - why do i deserve to poison myself and make myself feel like shit - i'm not a bad person!
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