I am back and more motivated than ever!

[Accountable for Me]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Welcome back, Sam!

I bought the book 'The Easy Way to Quit Smoking' by Allen Carr. It was a good read. I think the one he wrote about Drinking is much of the same.

[Wagoneer]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Choochie;1008866 wrote: Sam - whatever works, right?!! The book certainly did it for me. We just have to be careful about being in the "pink cloud" effect. I feel determined, committed, etc. but after reading how so many long-termers are still vulnerable, I'm still reading, researching, staying on the posts, etc. You sound really good, and I'm thrilled for you/us!!

Absolutely true Choochie. I have been very careful this time around. Before I felt right on top of the world, like I could conquer anything - I had the red cape on with the big "AF" emblazoned on the back....able to leap tall goblets of Chardonnay in a single bound...then reality set in and it was harder than I thought, so I gave up. This time, I was careful and judicious about my planning and the way I went about stopping. It is still a struggle, but I am firmly rooted in reality and know that this is a life long commitment to me and my family. Not only is it what I need to do, it is the right thing to do for me and my family Knowing that makes it a bit easier for me.

Sam - so proud of you. Keep posting and remember you are among friends. :h

[Samantha T.]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Choochie and Wag Yes...I, too, am being extra wary of the Pink Cloud! It has bitten me in the a$$ before, last time after 5 months AF. Mostly right now I am just happy to be excited rather than scared. For some reason when my therapist said, "You are now in a powerful position to make the choice of whether you want to keep drinking or not," it turned on the lightbulb that I am 100% reasponsible. Up until now I have been feeling more of the "victim." I plan to stay around here for a long time! Every single person has something to contribute that I find myself relating to and beling able to apply to my own process

Today was a bit of a challenge and I am happy to stay I am still sober. My job cancelled for the day (I am a freelance court reporter). Lately it has been REALLY slow and my biggest trigger is financial insecurity. So my MO is usually, "Oh well! The day is shot anyway," and off I march to the wine store, happy that I can get an early start on the day and will have time for two bottles, not just one.

Today I went and bought myself a new outfit for work, anticipating and affirming to the Universe that I KNOW things will pick back up, so I need to be ready. It felt good to buy something pretty

Now it's time to take the dogs for their second walk. Then maybe a nap. The first nights without the hooch are not very restful, as you well know!

Thank you for your support and encouragement. It is so nice to come here and have people to share the journey with :l

[Choochie]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Sam sorry your job got cancelled today but glad that you were able to do something to take your mind of booze! Nothing makes me feel better than a new outfit. I have been trying not to spend money right now, but I love clothes. So, good on ya as Oney would say.

[fighting back]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Sam, glad to see you are still here! Welll done on the new attitude, you sound really focussed and positive. That goes for you too, Wagoneer and Choochie.

I've been buying new clothes too, boots, new coat and a shiny new bag. Shopping is a much improved experience with a clear head !:l

[Choochie]

I am back and more motivated than ever!

Hi Guys - just stopping by to say good morning - busy work day for me today.

Sending you all peace and strength to remain sober - it is sooooooo worth it (day 50 for me today --- feeling super).

Big hugs,
Choochie:l