50 mgs of 5 HTP made a large difference in my stress levels, thereby lessening my craving to use alcohol as a release. I took the dose at 5, right before meeting my parents for dinner at a local restaurant. Typically, taking my 2 little monkeys to a restaurant is enough to drive me straight over the edge, but last night I was better able to manage my stress levels. I believe part of it was the 5 HTP and part of it was my determination to make it work out. I took the GABA around 11 and was asleep a little before 12. I was trying to watch a rerun of David Letterman, with Jim Carey on. I missed it the first time because I passed out drunk. Missed it again. Should have recorded it. Oh well. I woke at 4:30 and was a little disappointed to be awake but quickly realized that I felt pretty darn good.
I fear, well I know, that my determination will diminish somewhat over the next few days and figuring out how to manage the "witching hour" will be more of a challenge. Not to mention that fact that I am a "weekend warrior". I have always felt that weekends = party time. Will have to change the old mindset.
Any way - thanks to all of you on this forum for helping me manage day 1. I am on my way to 30 days AF, and proud to say I am working on day 2 now. :thanks:
Control the Mind
Last Saturday morning, while running off a good drunk, I injured my quad and have not yet recovered. I have a race the 17th and am horribly disappointed that I can't train. At this point I just hope to be recovered and able to participate. I am having a very hard time not taking off and just running through the pain, but I know I need to let my body heal. It makes me so angry though to think that I probably would not have taken on this injury had I not been tearing down my immune system with alcohol, and been in good health and stronger. And I probably would have recovered faster if not for drinking. 
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