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[noodle]

I reckon should change my name to boomerang (not sure I spelt that correctly - lols) the amount of times I've been here, all guns blazing, last 14 days (if lucky) than off to the dark side for another 6 months. Sick of the same old crap, look like crap, ashamed, massively in debt and letting all of my loved ones down, financially and emotionally - feel as low as. All of my problems point towards that big bottle that takes over my life. My body feels on the verge of impolding, hats off to me for making it through a working day. What to do, so over it.
Off the drink yesterday, not drinking today. Fed up of being at the starting point, over and over again.
Fed up:yuk:
Waiting for optimism to strike. I love this site, you guys are all awesome :h

[Nelz]

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Welcome back Noodle, we have all been there......repeated day ones. Keep climbing back up on the wagon, always someone here to hold out a hand

[Samstone]

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Noodle
Getting fed up is realizing that it is time to truly stop. Even though I am fairly new here, I'm not new to stopping, starting, stopping again, for almost 40 years. It is never fun to go through the same old shit you've gone through before, guilt, anger, hungover. I hope for you and myself that this time, this is it. Glad you are here. Keep in touch.
Sam

[little beagle]

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Keep fighting noodle. This is an all out war. Just because you lose a battle doesn't mean it's over. You are fighting for your life. Keep at it. Make it count. Just don't run off again and that will get you closer to a victory.

[mauritiusdodo]

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Hi Noodle, I am back again for the millionth time, good luck with your quitting

[Snapdragon]

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Hi Noodle - I'm back again too. So over it!! I managed 3 months AF and felt amazing. Why oh why do I keep slipping back down that slimy slope

[Mein Sonnenschein]

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Hi Noodle... good for you for coming back! I do the same thing... drink, not drink, drink, not drink... I've come to realize that, even though it's frustrating as hell, what matters is that you come back here and are honest with yourself. I'm so mad at myself today for choosing to drink yesterday, but I'm here because I believe in everyone in this community. So I say be frustrated, be angry... but stay here and keep fighting!

[Miley]

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Noodle and Maurie. Welcome back. I am only on day 3 today after getting derailed by vacation. Lets stick together......we can do this!

[Scarlett1946]

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Nice to meet you Noodle! I haven't had a Day One yet since I got here! Every day I hope it is the day one of many.... Hang tough!

[witts end]

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Hi! noodle welcome back
there are a lot of us that are back again
have a good day hang in there

[noodle]

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Thanks everyone, you guys are awesome xx Day 3, so still fumbling around, hoping to feel a bit better soon xxx Have a lovely weekend everyone xx

[pixie]

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Hi Noodle and welcome back! I remember you and your hyperactive avatar! Sorry to hear that you are back to early days, but good on you for coming back. It WILL stick at some point, as long as you keep trying. Try to make a promise to yourself that if you slip, no matter how badly, you will stay here at MWO. No slinking away! The accountability really does help a lot.

[little beagle]

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Yes just stick with us.

[Cinders]

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Hi Noodle and all others posting about the vicious cycle of stopping and starting.

A very dear friend on MWO, who is no longer with us on this planet, always said, "Never stop giving up."

The only time you truly will lose this battle is if you give in and decide to let this addiction take you all the way down.

Keep fighting and never ever give up giving up.

Cindi

[sparkles143]

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hi Noodle, Scarlett and the rest of you I totally get it I read your post Scarlett and can relate to you and so many of you.... im not doing as well as I thought I would but I am making small steps. Its really hard. I Love having a glass or 5 of wine a few times a week. Sometimes I think well I manage to work part time I am on ayso committe, manage a baseball team am on the PTA everything is done and organized around the house I take my kids everywhere....is it really bad that they see me drink wine and may be buzzed once a week? I still handle all my responsibilities? I know my daughter age 11 notices when I pour a glass of wine.... what do you all think?