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    Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

    What a better ways to witness this :

    Here I am sitting in airline lounge drinking my poison.
    feeling FAT, drunk, and not in control...
    a silver frequent flyer and workaholic ..
    my son complained "Dad ! why are you travelling again ... dont go !"
    atleast he missed me ... made me happy.
    I know he missed me now
    he never missed me earlier as I was always drinking.
    just 44 days of no booze ... made me spend time with him...
    he fell in love with me when everyone found me "boring"
    and now while i leave he miss me ...


    And then I just saw a mid aged small guy came escorted by 2 lounge guys
    must be a senator status frequent flyer !
    Wow What service he is getting ...
    Slim from tip, fit, confident ... must be travelling a lot !!
    and guess what is he having ...
    tea !

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    Life about choices .... I have made wrong one
    but i promise myself I will come on track...
    I will be sober ...
    forever....

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    OK I posted the above message back in October 2013 last year : https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...ces-81870.html

    Today I am at the same lounge, sitting at the same seat, taking the same flight, going to same place (Germany) BUT drinking pepsi and FEELING GRATEFUL !! And look at my earlier post ...

    LIFE IS about the choice we make ... and today I choose to be SOBER .... strong, grateful, happy .... !!
    and look at the state my mind at that time ... guilty, depressed, obsessed, trapped, unhappy, sick, fat .... etc etc ...

    I am sooooo glad to be sober ....
    Rahul
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    Rewiring my brain ... done ...
    Updating brain "attitude" firmware ... done ...
    Rebooting ... done ...
    Restarted program called "Life" ... started successfully ...

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    Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

    Rahul, what an inspiring post, the sad "before" and the proud "after".
    You've given your son an awesome gift, for now he has a positive role model to follow. :hug:

    Safe Travels! :racer:
    "God didn't give you the Strength to get back on your feet
    so that you can run back to the same thing that knocked you down."
    :hug:

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      #3
      Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

      Way to go Rahul!!

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        #4
        Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

        This is what it's all about! Knowing that we are in a better place and liking ourselves. Great Rahul!
        Sometimes what you're most afraid of doing is the very thing that will set you free.

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          Rahul! I am so proud of you!
          You have so many fans right here, too! We are so happy for you! What a beautiful post, stick with this, it gets better still! Safe travels!! Byrdie
          All you gotta do, is get thru this day. AF 1/20/2011
          Tool Box
          Newbie's Nest

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            Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

            Rahul,

            That was a nice reflective post. It is interesting and beneficial to look back and reflect on our state of mind from previous points in our life. I can so relate to some of your thoughts back then, and how I felt at my worst moments.....guilt, depression etc.

            And how you feel now.....Happy!

            Thanks for sharing.

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              Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

              great post Rahul, you are an inspiration and as i keep saying, i know you can do this. I for one cant wait to celebrate you 100 days wherever you may be.

              We missed so much drinking but not anymore thank god!
              AF free 1st December 2013 - 1st December 2022 - 9 years of freedom

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                Thanks all for the comments. It has been possible only and only because of the support of all of you ... !

                Today was my first day here in Germany. We worked like crazy had a looooong day. Jet lagged a bit. And what does one likes to reward it self after a days long work ? drinks ... well thats what a colleague of mine did. While I ordered a non alcoholic beer, he was getting high enjoying. Its his first time in Europe. 2 hours later ... boom ... he is puking and I am writing on MWO.

                I am soooo glad to be sober ...
                Rahul
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                Rewiring my brain ... done ...
                Updating brain "attitude" firmware ... done ...
                Rebooting ... done ...
                Restarted program called "Life" ... started successfully ...

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                  #9
                  Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                  Good for you Rahul! Enjoy your trip this time. Your post was inspirational.

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                    #10
                    Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                    Rahul awsome post. Sounds like you are in a good place. Safe travels.

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                      Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                      Glad you are doing well. :goodjob:
                      No matter how far you go or how fast you run, you can't get away from yourself. ....said at an AA meeting. It stuck with me.

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                        Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                        Way to go, Rahul! What a great post. You sound so positive and happy. Keep it up.

                        Maybe tomorrow for a reward you could go on a stroll around the city or take in a performance rather than watch someone else get drunk??

                        Have fun,
                        Pav

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                          Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                          Hi Rahul,

                          Great post. I think it can help us all remember. Even us newbies. Day 16 for me!! I am still trying how to have fun without alcohol. In time i bet.

                          Meshell
                          ?Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday.?

                          ― John Wayne

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                            Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                            How slight change in thinking can help. I have had so much drinking history in this place in Germany. Its beer drinker's paradise (now actually looks like hell). I remember after days work the high light used to be booze.

                            Its like a paradigm shift in my thought process or my vision. Everything about this place about every place I have ever been, I saw myself drinking ... The place I taught my liver to burn with the poison called beer.

                            Altstadt, Germany's old town : Picture this ... here you have bars and restaurants, narrow road, next to river ... about 5 to 7 micro brewery's. Today I was talking my colleague our of dinner in the same place, so many memories of this, when ever I have been here I have been drinking ...

                            This morning I was on a tram , saw a drunk with bag of cans barely able to open eyes, but when he did... his eye shot at me ... as if asking me for HELP ... HELP ME ... PLEASE ..... I am trapped ... and I felt bad, emphatic, sad, scared and also grateful (for me), for me I was just like that roaming in the same old town called Altstadt with a bag of cans roaming around there sitting next to Reine river drinking and even passing out ... I was him ....

                            It was a nice rainy day today. In evening I went out for jog to near by park. I didnt notice this place has to many parks and gyms ... but then I was not looking .. Its summer so it was green.... small lake with lots of ducks. Cant believe a beer drinking paradise could have such nice parks. ... earlier I came here to jog, to remove the guilt before the highlight ... drinking. Today the highlight is not drinking and jogging.

                            Drinking never had to start in evening, if you are here to visit an exhibition then the all you need is to go to a supplier's booth and they will offer you some beer, some nights you have invitations from big corporates with lavish parties and free booze... once even rod steward came on such private party ... all was so great ... but that was 2009 ...

                            2014 : Oh yes I as jogging its been now 50 minutes and I dont feel tired ! Rain drops fall on my face as I run thru this lush green park ... with each breath I suck in fresh air and also fresh new memories, new experiences. Then I empty my lungs ... I flush out all the "good" memories of this place, and make my mind ready for the new ones as my brain reboots and does a paradigm format ... a fresh prospective ... to see this place .. to see life ...

                            Have I been here ? yes so many times.... have seen this place ... yes ... but then wait, I never saw that ... heck I have been here ... its so nice ... y didn't I see this before ... Oh I was drunk, or was drinking or was thinking about drinking, or hung over ! Now
                            I am not drinking so this place is showing me itself what it is, what it has always been. What it is supposed to me ...

                            As Life too is showing itself to me as it is supposed to be .. just great, refreshing ... life this nice part in this lovely german town with this great old town where now I choose to make new memories ... and good one too ...
                            Rahul
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                            Rewiring my brain ... done ...
                            Updating brain "attitude" firmware ... done ...
                            Rebooting ... done ...
                            Restarted program called "Life" ... started successfully ...

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                              #15
                              Life is about choices ... De ja vu ... lounge

                              Rahul, perhaps if you get tired of your extra-busy business life, you could be a poet .

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