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[Doggygirl]

Bruun's Titting UP

Hi all! LL - that is so funny about something "crawling up there!" :H Can sure understand that in the camping context! I know what you mean about the comaraderie. I love that too!

Hi Ne!

Is - I'm so glad you pointed out our cross post yesterday because I DID miss it! :egad: Thanks for sharing all the details. I printed it out! I have to get my program back on track and what you are doing seems very healthy. I can also relate to your comment about eating home cooked meals growing up. Me too - parents could not afford a lot of eating out or junk food that we always wanted. That was for the best! Have a FABULOUS time at the party tonight. I hope the pain meds kick in a little better for you so you can just enjoy yourself.

rudyb - cound me in as another one of the "love to sleep in the cold" peeps. I like to open the window in all kinds of crazy weather. Are you supposed to get snow this weekend? I haven't been paying much attention to news/weather this week but someone else mentioned that on AF daily. Stay safe and enjoy your party! Sounds like nice friends you have.

Hi Brenda. I've always been a little afraid of prescription meds. Given my experimental nature with everything else, that is probably a saving grace for me. It's really funny. If you asked me if I did a lot of drugs in my past, I would say "no." But one day in class we were practicing taking an alcohol and drug history. We didn't have to be truthful - the purpose was to practice the interviewing. I went ahead and was honest (why not, and nobody knew who was being truthful or not). I said I never really used many drugs. But then the questions were "did you ever use this? This? This? Boy I had a lot of yeses in there! I'm lucky.....

I can't believe our final is already next Saturday in this short class. So I have a lot of studying to get done this weekend and week! You all have fun at your respective parties!

Where is brutus? I miss her.

DG

[SlipperyPete]

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Doggygirl;1200236 wrote: But then the questions were "did you ever use this? This? This? Boy I had a lot of yeses in there!

What kind of a monster are you?!
That kind of behavior won't fly around here, Missy!

Thank god those days are behind us :l

[Doggygirl]

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SlipperyPete;1200255 wrote: Thank god those days are behind us :l

Indeed! When I read in one of the text books that poppers are sort of a gay drug (gay clubs, sex enhancement, etc.) I had to laugh.

DG

[Bruunhilde]

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Hi Y'all, just popping in to say hello, send light thoughts out to the stormy east for Ru, and hope Is' party is fab as yours was Ru.

DG, can't believe how many tests you take, sheesh. Tires me out just to think of it.

Just back from the farmers market where I bought my greenfix smoothie and I had a hot mocha, yum, I decided one hot coffee with chocolate a week is a requirement. At least for now - still hungover these days and miserable about it. Can't remember how I dug out last three times. I think I'll pop extra baclofen and watch a movie tonight, I am officially too tired after the farmers market, errands, including the good one of going to dogpark (lots of socializing there with very cool young dog owners bemoaning the drama queens who stomp out of the dog park because they feel their pitbull mix is being picked on by our wimpy dogs who are really just playing). Washed the dog and am looking tiredly at the dust and crumbs in the office and fridge thinking I used to clean these things of a weekend when I wasn't hung. Send healing thoughts my way, my friends, I need to struggle back to the campfire and enjoy the sober moments again. The gym is weakly calling my name but I'm to tired to drive here much less work out. Did some laundry and dishes and scrubbed down the pool and calling it a day. I do have the Allen Carr and the other guy's novel too, about quitting the drink, but I've been too tired to read them. Aren't I the big friggin' downer? Duh, I guess I'm feeling like the lone loser in the camp today.

Regarding the ephedrine Rudy, on your thread you were posting about it and it was on the ADD thread too - I used to love that stuff and it did help me keep from drinking too much and from depressive thoughts. Too bad I can't take it, bummer, while I'm drinking at least. Gots to chase away the AL before the other options (bac, sudafed) become more realistic based on blood pressure reading.

[ifulovelife2]

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Hi Bruun.

How are you getting on with the gabapentin? Still using it prn? Is it still as effective as it first was?

[Bruunhilde]

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Hey Brenda, popped one this AM after not taking it for a day or two, can't recall for sure. Yes, it still helps. My Riverpharmacy shipment was capsules and they seem to act differently so I'm not as enthused but I've only taken like two so time will tell. In fact, I'm in a funk still, so will pop another shortly. I have to get out of this room, it has all sorts of high pitched noises (wifi, computer, etc) that only dogs like me hear and get bothered by and it helps me to clear out of here to feel better sometimes.

Have you tried it? Nice to "meet" ya.

[Isolde]

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Bruunhilde;1200300 wrote: Aren't I the big friggin' downer? Duh, I guess I'm feeling like the lone loser in the camp today.

Nope, not a loser and not a downer! At least you made it out to the dog park today! Hell, I went through a couple of weeks recently where it was all I could do to make it out of bed! AND you hit up the farmer's market and got a super healthy green smoothie and a comforting mocha. Sounds like a pretty good day in my book (hungover or not!). Relaxing with a movie sounds like a perfect way to end the day.
:l

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Bruun. I am so happy to see you check in. This place...YOUR place is not the same without you here. And that is true whether you decide to drink or not drink. We are all here to enjoy each others company and also to surround you with love. Hopefully a love that will lift you up just a little bit and help you over the very difficult hump of putting down the drink. I know that old saying of one day at a time might sound old and tired, but sometimes that's a simple way to go about it. So if you decide to come on here one day and just say "I'm determined not to drink today" we will do our best to help you through. I remember lots and lots of days just sitting here with my fingers and eyes glued to MWO until I could finally just go to bed. That's how it started for me and I think for a lot of people. So if you have to start that way too, so be it. We are here to *stare* at and type at!!

We love you Bruun. :h:h:h:h You deserve to find the peace that is possible when AL is gone.

DG

ETA: I'm really soppy sometimes but I don't care.

[ifulovelife2]

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Bruunhilde;1200308 wrote:
Have you tried it? Nice to "meet" ya.

Yuhu! I used to pop them on a daily basis but I think I built a tolerance. Now I just use them occasionally. They certainly lift my mood when I need it. And truth be told, they give me a welcome buzz. In order to get the buzz, should you wish to know, you need to take it in 3 or 4 doses. It acts completely differently to when you pop it all in one go. If you want to take say 900mg, take 300, wait 3 hours, take another 3, wait another 3 hours and pop the last 300. And happy buzz ensues. Weird but true.

[Bruunhilde]

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Huh. That's interesting. I took 600mg one panicked/depressed/freaked out morning, nothing happened to calm me down. I took another 600mg an hour after, and suddenly felt calm, peaceful, normal, like the ideal version of me without the crazed zombie taking over my soul. So in that scenario, I would take another 300mg and get high? Maybe I could use this to get through my first AF night or two? I'm really not interested in using this long term as a "high" but just a crutch to gaining some control over the alcohol, which I seem to have lost yet again.

So this AM, very early, I took 400. Its now eight hours later. Its almost my witching hour. Advice? I have to get out of this room and offline though, so let me know your advise and I'll use it tonight or tomorrow night. thanks Brenda.

[ifulovelife2]

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I think the gap is too long now for that to have any affect. Gabapentin wears off after 6 hours. But certainly you could try that tomorrow to take your mind off the lack of booze. Remember 3 or 4 doses, 3 or 4 hours apart.

[ifulovelife2]

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And it's not a high as such. It's a nice mellow, happy buzz. Don't worry about getting used to it because you'll build a tolerance and won't be able to do it forever anyway.

[Bruunhilde]

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Thanks Chick Brenda,
I'll work on that for Sunday, sounds like a good way to change up the dynamics in this house. I need change in a good way, and the baby steps we've been making here aren't enough to keep my head above the waves.

I know about the tolerance, the first time I took it I got high, but never again regardless of the dose. However, I never took that many doses in succession, and that sounds like organization/planning so maybe I need to train my dog to deliver the pill to me every four hours. He's a working line so needs a job. Pill dispensary pup. That could be very convenient especially when crossing the border to Mexico and back. lol

[ifulovelife2]

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One thing Bruun: It may creep up on you and even pass you by without notice, unless you stop and relax sometime after the second or third dose. Meditate, pray or go sit in a beautiful place where you feel at ease, and enjoy your surroundings (or the environment you build in your mind) and then you'll feel the gabapentin work. Once you've recognised it, it'll stay with you for hours.

Have a lovely Sunday, Bruun: tranquil and at ease with yourself.

[RudyB]

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heya bruun,

sorry you're a bit down. dag it! seeing you at the farmer's market in my mental movie projector, i harkened right back to brooklyn days, rolling on my blades through the farmer's market that was always full of happy families and couples at grand army plaza. in that scene i was probably hungover, and probably wondering why i was all alone. those were tough times. i'm sending you strong, healing vibes, my woman!

is, can't wait to hear about the party! for many details on mine, you know where to go...

dg, there's snow all over my thread from yesterday's weather!

we might not have been quite poor enough to justify our never-eating-out growing up. we were just led from the helm by my father, who didn't see the value in spending extra to sit at someone else's table. i remember distinctly one dinner at 'mom and pop's', probably because it was one of the only times we ever ate out. for similar reasons, we never went to the movies. i remember three from childhood: the muppet movie (so fun!), star wars (which i didn't understand, not one bit!), and saturday night fever (my parents couldn't find a sitter).

ok, i'm back to bed now!

zzz rudy