This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Ru, if you haven't run out to get your nutraceuticals, you may want to consider olive leaf extract. It is anti-fungal, anti-viral, and anti-bacterial. I would take it except I'm allergic to it. I landed in the ER twice before we figured out the cause. It is highly unusual to be allergic, so I'd say give it a go. The vit c thing? Did you know every cigarette smoked takes 25mg of vit c out of the body? I take a couple thousand mgs of vit c daily. Whether I smoke or not. I hope you and G feel better soon.

I knew about the comma before the and. It's a personal preference and not often used in newspaper print. I guess every type costs more. The important thing is consistency! Which I rarely have, but I've been trying to teach my dyslexic brain some things. Not sure how much is sticking.

I didn't know WTF was a mood option, Is. I'm changing mine to reflect the same.

I know Bruun. I know.

[RudyB]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

is, glad you took my input in stride. god i'm like my mother: so fuckin careful! don't want to hurt anyone's toes. doesn't give others much credit now, do it? especially when we're talking commas.

the comma thing. i prefer to use that unnecessary comma because it makes the final two items seem more connected than whatever came before. 'jack, jill and lucy went up the hill.' in that example, seems like lucy and jill have a deeper connection with each other than either has with jack. compare: 'jack, jill, and lucy went up the hill.' reads with a sense of greater diplomacy. wouldn't want anyone to feel left out. we've seen what happens when that happens!

see, toldja i was an extra-big dork.

red, did you just quit the smokes cold turkey? hypno therapy? gums? snus? (god i'm hoping i don't go into my typical epic lung problem just about now. i'm so peeved that i can't find my vit c!)
I've got a hypno download cued up for nitey nite. i'm using this cough to best advantage.

you make very good points about murphy's theoretical return.

hi bruun! i concur completamente!

thanks, is, about the apples. i am SO, SO bummed on his behalf. he is such a social animal, and loves doing fun things in groups. if he wakes up feverless, i have half a mind to take him there to meet his class... shit, his fever wasn't THAT high... (though, just now, in his sleep he burped like he was gonna throw up. help! wish us luck. again. thanks.)

guess i'll pop over to some other threads, though these days it feels very risky; i DON"T want to read any more negative crap or bickering! i gave up my spooky show just before bed. why should i trade it for ugly underbellies?

sweet dreams, all. here's to our health!

[RudyB]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

god dammit, red, i don't know where the heck i'm going to get any supplements in the next... oh wait~! i'm not going to work tomorrow. i'll run to the coop and do just that. good golly i love when the obvious hits me in the forehead. i'll get the olive leaf, too. thanks for the tip!

and, yes, consistency, red. that's the ticket!

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Ru, I mostly quit smoking cold turkey. Cold and miserable. I do have some old commit lozenges in the house that I've used for really bad cravings. I'm trying to avoid nicotine replacement if at all possible. I think it can potentiate the cycle of addiction for some. I just want to get it over with, and I'll deal with the misery.

Remember, I quit smoking when I had trouble inhaling air. Inhaling smoke was very difficult. It may be easier under these circumstances. :H

But you can do it. You can kick this, just like you've kicked so many other negative things in your life!

[Bruunhilde]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Hello All,

don't let the turkeys get you down. Let's huddle.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

It's been brought to my attention that one can only rate a thread once. So, unless one person out there has changed their screen name 18 times to rate my thread (God help all of us, if someone out there is that crazy), then my thread must be getting rated by 18 different people. Why do I feel like I'm battling an Army here? Am I crazy to feel this way? There was a ton of stuff written on this thread. I'm sure many didn't like it. It's stopped. Is the rest of it going to stop too?

[Bruunhilde]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Craziness should not be ruled out. Neither should a possy. And they think we're malicious and cliques. LOL, I think crazed is the answer here. :tsk: What is that saying about lurkers with agendas in glass houses throwing stones?

[Road to Recovery]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Bruunhilde;1188226 wrote: Craziness should not be ruled out. Neither should a possy. And they think we're malicious and cliques. LOL, I think crazed is the answer here. :tsk: What is that saying about lurkers with agendas in glass houses throwing stones?

Would this be directed at me?

[Bruunhilde]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Absolutely not, Road. Not you at all.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

I'm out now. I have to take care of some things, but I'll be back tonight. I guess I shouldn't pose such a question and leave. I do not want this to turn hateful and angry. Quite the opposite, I want to get the bottom of it, and find resolution between us, if possible. This shouldn't feel like GD against meds. I'm starting to wonder and this is why I posed the question. We should have a peaceful if not symbiotic relationship. Don't you think? This is what I want. And again, maybe I don't know who is busy doing the rating every night, maybe this is off base.

I can't answer PMs until I get home. Please no fighting. Let's stop this.

[SlipperyPete]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red, when I got back from my trip I saw you talk about life coaches. I had no idea such people existed! I had my first session with one last week, although she's probably more on the therapist side than a life coach, but I still think she's gonna help a ton. So, just wanted to say thanks for the idea.

[jimmyjam]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Red, love reading your thread..don't quite understand your remarks on 3 star 4 star upgrade downgrade bs. Dont care. But if there truly is someone who is spending time and energy doing this( which I doubt) they have to be the biggest fuc$ing loser of all time with no life but to obsess over a thread .. Seriously..it would take a truly pathetic soul with absolutely no life to expend energy on whatever you are talking about. Keep up the great successes you are having.

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

No problemo SP. Let me know how it all works out. I love when people try my ideas when I haven't. Jimmyjam, nice to officially meet you. I know I haven't visited your thread yet. Thanks for the pep talk too. I've gotten some pep talks via PM as well. I'm feeling better. I'll be back hopefully tomorrow night to discuss reflections of my own behavior lately and some other reflections too...still thinking about them.

Tonight we had to scrub the house. I make it a family affair as it's too much for me to handle alone. Really, I don't want to handle it alone, and this way everyone pitches in, since I can't afford a cleaning lady anymore. It's all good. We have fun. The nanny picks out some tunes she's an old soul... she picked Simon and Garfunkel and the Eagles (really I picked the Eagles but she was happy, that's what's important. ).

[RudyB]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

good golly my house needs a scrubbin! good thing my almost-five-year-old loves to use the spraybottle. 'mommy, can i clean this?' -music to my ears!

sweet dreams, sweet one.
xo ruby ru

[redhead77]

This Redhead's Baclofen Thread

Sorry, it took me a while to come back to this. I've been suffering from some wicked insomnia...for days. The first few days, I coped with it well. I have taken bac for 8 months, but this was the worst I've ever experienced. It was so severe and pervasive, I thought I was going to lose it, or was losing it. I slept last night...finally. It was only about 5-6 hours, but as anyone on HDB knows, this is pretty good. I usually sleep 6 hours a night. So, I'm here and refreshed, and ready to address some things.

If anyone noticed, I posted a valid question some days ago. A couple of them. I was wondering if the Attackers were the folks in GD. Some responded to me, but not on my thread. I guess I can't blame them considering the current atmosphere of late. I am feeling with the responses, it is unlikely they were the Attackers. Come to think of it, there have been other drama threads started while we were all here (and many of them have been here much longer than I have), and they haven't come back to attack anyone. That said, I am still sore about the situation with Murphy. We all are. I don't think anyone should have gone on his thread in the first place. They did tell me via PM that no one meant to get him banned. What's done is done. I just couldn't understand why Murphy did that, responded in such a manner. He himself has said maybe he was going to tone it down. I had a theory as to what may have happened, that I thought of posting. I then thought, I should take it to the source and ask. I emailed Murphy and asked him what really happened that day. I know he's smart, and this is partially a character he plays here, so why did he write the caustic things he wrote? Here was his response to me:

"I've moved on. I could no longer afford the emotional and time investment I felt my presence on MWO required and looking back, my departure was really a kind of suicide by cop. So I was as responsible for my banning as anyone. I bear no ill will towards anyone, hope everyone has sweet dreams of kittens chasing butterflies."

After this email, I decided to send him an email (well, a few of them), regarding everything I was going through. My severe insomnia was the highlight since I was emailing him at 1am. I guess he thought I might have insomnia due to the Attackers. Here was his email regarding this:

"Redhead, you're not sleeping? Because of that stars bullshit? FFS. It's just childish fluff. It means nothing and shouldn't concern you in the least. The people I care about on MWO, I know also care about me. That's all that matters and that should be all that matters to you, not whether some 'tard is firing spit-balls from the back of the class. I know, I know, you already know this but we recovering alcoholics are a strange bunch. I've had a look through and I notice even the 'Stars' thread itself has been down-graded. That's so ironically funny."

Yes, I've changed my real name to Redhead for anonymity. I think he has a valid point, though. Whether you want to call them Tards or Attackers, it's all the same. I did assure him, my not sleeping wasn't due to the Tards. Even I'm not that sensitive. I told him about my latest increase in bac, my quitting smoking, my period, the predisone I was taking for my asthma, and some other stuff too. I was rambling. After I sent the emails, I was worried he would deem me neurotic and not write back. He did write back. A few times. He gave me some advise on the bac (this was the only thing he knew about, he doesn't understand periods or quitting smoking :H but he didn't say so, didn't make me feel stupid.). This is what I'll miss the most. The technical assistance he provides with bac. He's been indifferent for 8 months. He's always been an avid supporter of us, and I know he read my thread (I'll bet he still does ), and there really aren't many frequent posters to my thread anymore, who have this much indifferent bac time under their belts. I know, there are one or two of you, but you know where I'm going with this. He had the time to post, since he makes his wife do all the work to support them...sigh.

I've been watching and studying GD for a bit. Thought I might want to pop in there some as time permits (may do so one day). It turns out they are a supportive and cohesive group. I thought, I want what they have. And then I realized it. I have what they have. When I wrote, I felt like I was battling an Army here, I should have written... We. We were battling the army (or what we perceived to be the Army). I wasn't doing it alone. When under pressure, we banded together. It doesn't matter if we are battling an army or the Tards. They aren't going to win. We are a cohesive and supportive group. One who will rally when we feel we've lost someone special. One that will continue to support each other in killing this beast, while taking bac or other meds. At the end of the day, this is all that matters. Killing this beast one way or the other. Isn't it?

xxoo,

Redhead

PS. Murphy, as you can see I got some sleep last night. I did as you advised. I didn't bac down on my bac dose, either. A special XXOO to you!