Me, myself and getting sober

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Morning!!

Your new house will soon become your home Ne and you will love it

The sun is shining again :rays: and the seagulls are singing or squarking whichever way you think or them.

I hope everyone has a great day :l

[ifulovelife2]

Me, myself and getting sober

StuckinLA;1363572 wrote: Maybe you tried to do what I sometimes think about doing, M? I often want to put my cats in harnesses and take them for walks. Now if you drove them to where you'd be walking but then forgot about them in the backseat, well then I think I've found your problem.
Thanks SiLA, I've had a look on the back seat and rummaged around under all the assorted crap but I can't find any cats. I did however, find a slice of Battenburg cake, which I think will be fine to eat once I pick off the green bits. Scrummy!

spacebebe01;1363578 wrote: I didnt know you had a donkey M, how cute, is it a little one like the ones they used to have on the beach here or one of those big ones

I can't ride the little asses, Bebe: I'm too big for that. I have tried but I get complaints.

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

Morning, folks.
Windy, what you posted really struck a chord for me, too. Thank you for that insight.
SiLa, yours did too. But perhaps it's because I'm thinking about remodeling the bathroom(s). And the kitchen. And garage. And my office.

Which makes it all too clear what a snotty brat I've been about this house. I have an office! My very own! And a house that...well, sheesh. I'd be embarrassed to describe it because then you'd all know how much of a brat I really am.

Except I wasn't being a brat, exactly. I was/am scared. There was water under the sink, and I thought there might be a leak. The drain for the washing machine is backed up and I had a not-so-minor flood in the garage. The lawn looks like a jungle (and the yard is feckin' huge) and we don't own a mower, or have a lawn service. And I'm a month behind what I had planned in order to prepare for school.
A self-indulgent freak out or two is okay, I think. (And if it's not...Well, I don't know how else to deal yet. I'm working on it.)
Which is to say that even though I don't believe in an alcoholic personality, or that I am an alcoholic anymore, I do think I have a long way to go in learning coping skills. There wasn't any place to hide or get my thoughts together. Before that wouldn't have mattered and I would have been a brat and felt badly but knew how to forget about it rather quickly, at least a day at a time. (I suppose AL offers that, right? Amnesia from feeling and understanding--one day at a time.)

I am sort of blown away by the fact that you aren't really craving or drinking, Space. Whatever you're doing, keep it up! And cut yourself some slack, will you? A lager or two may keep the beast at bay while you work on the stuff that will take the place of it. Isn't it enough to have your life not dictated by that slave master?
Super :l

Glad the sun is out in the motherland.
Hope it's a nice day, peeps!

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

WCL, are we due for an update or did I miss something?

I don't even have time to check the other threads, so sorry if I'm being insensitive, or missing something important. I...have too much to do.

Eventually, MWO will figure out that I have actually paid my membership dues (!!! Yes, I finally sucked it up and paid the money and now have a PM box I don't have to erase all the time!!) and they will restore my PM box and then...I'll be able to do that, again, too. I don't know why I'm writing this...I guess I just forgot about it until just now. Add it to the to-do list!

Gotta go!
:l

[windycitylady]

Me, myself and getting sober

Thanks, Ne! I assumed I annoyed everyone with my sporadic, long, narcissistic updates. Well, whether you're fans or not, there is one coming soon. There have been a few interesting developments in my situation.
Freakouts are not only ok, they're inevitable. So, yes, definitely give yourself permission to have a few. Cause you're going to anyway, and they'll stress you out much less if you tell yourself that it's all part of the process. I'm sure there's a few on my horizon too...
Space! What did you say? "The sun is shining, the seagulls are singing", something to that effect? (No time to look back) What wonderful new med are you on, and where can I get some?! I kid. But you do sound great. Hope your mood has lasted.
Wishing everyone a wonderful day!

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Windy, that's priceless, asking Space about her mood! You realized she's doing better! Right on! LOL. Space, I too am happy to see you doing better. I keep reminding myself that alcohol is a depressant, and although life is often not fun or easy, its harder on alcohol in the long run. All the regrets! Lord help me!

Ne, don't you worry about these things, they always happen and the idea is to say to yourself, this too shall pass, this will be better, and this can be fixed. None of it is worth freaking out over, its just a pipe, a wall, a tile. Even if the worst happens, you have insurance. You had an inspection when you bought the house, so you know the big stuff is covered. A house will give you a run for your money with little things falling apart, especially if like my first house, the homeowner never really fixed anything, just covered it up. Something needed fixing every single month I was in that house for the first four years. And I had to do it alone, you aren't alone in this, and you will learn to really appreciate and love it when you fix it up to your liking. After all, this house won out over all others to be in your life! You have to have liked alot of things about it. Keep them top of mind. The little stuff works itself out.

M, keep away from the farm animals - they're full of fleas and other bugs.

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hahaha, its not the meds, Im still on the wrong AD's that I hate, I wish it was the meds that way it would be easier to maintain. Yesterday I did just feel like crap for most of the day, I saw my doc and got the new med my psychiatrist had given me but I dont want to take them, I have read around about them and I can barely find anything positive at all, I did take one as soon as I got home but felt bad all day, I dont know if that was the med or me anyway but Im not sure what to do about it.

But, I am determined that I have to take the dogs out again, I said this yesteday that I do not want to let myself slide down the hole and then I did anyway so today Im giving it another shot. Getting out and getting some excercise is good for me I know, but its so damned hard to do, its not helped by my overexcitable pain in the arse dogs, just getting them into the car is a job and a half in itself but they love it.

Windy have you moved yet, Im not sure you may have said and Ive missed it

Are you liking waking up in your home yet Ne, there is bound to be a period of adjustment and getting stuff sorted can be a pain but it will be worth it, because its yours now.

How you doing Bruun? and whats Mr M been doing with the farm animals? no dont tell me, I dont want to know, Ive got enough nightmare material in my brain already, I dont need anymore.

So heres to another good day I hope you all have one too xx

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

Seems to me like the getting up and doing it is the hard part. duh. I know. I know you know. But I'm going to put on my clothes and wash my face and take the Goose for a walk-a-roo. Hope you made it out with your not-so-Goosey dogs.

And yeah, I'd like to take all the credit, but she's a breed mix that wants nothing more than to please. And she is extremely devoted to me. So she reads my mind in that way that doggies do. When she figures out what I want she actually does it! As opposed to a cat, who would do the opposite. Or a spouse who goes to work in spite of the fact that our house is a cat-ass-trophy winner. grrrrrrr :upset:

and no. I did not wake up (at 2:30 am) with bells on and a smile. But one of these days, space... And then I'm going to start stringing them together again into weeks and then maybe even most of a month. Just like you will!

I'm pretty sure it all starts with a walk and some breakfast and some medication, though. So I'm off to do just that! Just like you did. (well, some combination thereof.)
:l

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Have you been up since 2.30 Ne???? whats going on, your 5.30 getting up is early to most of the rest of the world but 2.30, please tell me you went back to bed.

And yes I like that idea of a walk, breakfast and medication to start the day, that sounds good. very good

My eldest son who has had long, long term sleeping problems and is trying to sort it out has started gettin up at 8am and is doing really well with it, I have asked him to wake me as well, but Im like a schoolkid to get up, he keeps on coming in and waking me, then I go back to sleep and then he comes back again, then he tells me its the third time, we do have some role reversals going on still, but at least nowadays they are good things I noticed this morning that I have a bad habit of coming down making my coffee then taking it back to bed, so thats something else I want to stop as well.

Love ya all lots :l

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Hey Space, I have that overly excited dog too, he's 90lbs of pull. I think they get so wound up because 99% of the time they're bored. They don't have MWO, friends, family, the option to choose their type of day. They are stuck in the house or yard until we give them the option to do what they love and then they go nutso.

How old is the goose, NE? She's older right? Was she a ball of energy when she was 4? My buddy is still puppy-ish at 4.

I used to do that going back to bed thing on weekends because I was hung over and didn't have to work. I think not working has its issues, work keeps you on your toes. And being in bed that long is depressing, its like watching TV too long. Too bad you don't have sun more often Space. I know it would help you. Take some vitamin D maybe.

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

I would love sun more often it would be great, today it really pissed down, we had one of those thunder and lightning storms where it really rains hard.

I dont know that my dogs do get bored really because theres two of them so they have each other for company, and, they are both 7 so they should really be quietening down by now I think, but they think they are still puppies WOW Bruun that must be one big dog 90 lbs, what kind is it, some kind of mastiff.

[Bruunhilde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Nah,, he's a german shepherd. I think Mastifs are 200lbs. He's big enough! He likes to block hallways and sometimes I can't get up from my desk because there's no room with him in here. He's a very sweet boy who likes to be my shadow.

I would like more rain. Its been so crazy hot here the last two weeks, I haven't used A/C until August for at least a year. I set the thermostadt to 80 and when it goes on, I know its 85F in the office (where I'm at) because this room is an oven! Of course its also where my treadmill is located, which is handy if I feel like sweating while walking.

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

I hate it when its quite on here and Im bored, well I dont know about but but Im wanting to talk to someone here and I miss you all when your not posting as much. Stuck where are you, how are you, I know your back home but I havent heard from you since, have I just missed you posts. Ne, are you feeling more settled, does Goose like the beach? I can just see the two of you out on the beach with goose running around and your hair blowing in the wind Windy :l:l how are you today, Im glad to hear that bf has got a flat, thats a worry gone, one thing less on the list, as for the packing I have moved loads of times and always end up just throwing everthing into boxes and bags with hardley anything labeled so try not to stress over that. When do you finish work, and move, oh hang on you said didnt you its the 25th??

Bruun :l you get the smile and other two hug Im allowed, I still dont know what you do, I imagine you doing, oh I dont know, you have told me I think but Ive never got my head round it, oh never mind, anyway, I hope this weekend is good to you. I was watching something about LA on tv the other day (that is where you live right?) (( do you know stuck??)) and I dont get it, I cant imagine living anywhere that looks so busy, and big, and confusing, and theres no way I could drive those 5 lane busy roads. I guess its not all like that but I still cant picture it. Strange because I have read a few good books set in LA, I cant bloody remember the titles but when Ive read them I can see it and imagine what its like, but then I see something else and its totally different. So this goes for stuck as well, tell me more about where you live. Oh and Ne, there used to be a series on tv when I was a kid called The Virginian, it was a cowboy and he just rode around ranches and stuff with other cowboys and lots of land and obviously cattle, do you do that??:H have you got a hat??

Play if you around, is South Park a true life portrayal of Colorado, is it a documentary?

Ok Im just waffling crap here now so I best get off

xx

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

Goose doesn't like horses. She thinks they are big smelly things with big teeth and rolling eyes. (I might have told her that.)
We don't have one of those. But I've got a gen-u-wine cowboy hat. And it's hot pink. (Not that I'd be caught dead in it.) And a real live lasso that probably cost more than all of the shoes in my closet. (And that's not chump change.)
From when my parents went on a trip in Yellowstone. Not sure what they thought they'd be lassoing.

Sorry it's quiet and that you're bored. I am finally studying. And no. I'm not settled. I still don't like my new home. pfffffffft. whatever. I'll get over it.

:l

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

What is it that you dont like about the new house Ne?

I didnt think a lasso would cost money, I thought it was a bit of rope. I take it you dont like horses then Ne, I love them, I worked with them for quite a while but have never had the money/time/place to have one of my own.

Ive never really been into the shoe thing. Im more of a sandals in the summer, boots in the winter girl but I have got these shoes for my daughters wedding with killer heels, they are gorgeous but I have also got a pair of flat sandals for later so I will be able to stand and walk because theres no way I will be very mobile in the high ones. Do you think thats why people think heels are sexy, because you have to lie down when you wear them.