Me, myself and getting sober

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Me, myself and getting sober

ugh. sorry, space. Hopefully you got some sleep and you can spend some time today exploring solutions for that!

I woke up thinking about you this morning! Sending sleep vibes your way... (hmmm. Maybe I'll wait a couple of hours. )
Hang in there.

[Doggygirl]

Me, myself and getting sober

spacebebe01;1213503 wrote: 3.30am exhausted can get to sleep

:l I hope you managed to get to sleep. Will you have a chance to take a nap today?

DG

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Got nearly 3 hours sleep last night and going to go to bed in a few mins. Aww thanks ne for the sleep vibes, my son is bringing his friend home from school today and he might be staying over tonight so if he does I will have a restful evening while they are playing together, Im looking forward to that Even tho Im not sleeping and generally feeling like crap Im still so happy that I am sober, I feel somehow different this time round, I think the fact that the antabuse has removed that headwreck of should I/shouldnt I argument in my head and the thought that Im somehow missing out, Im able to accept the fact that I cant have a drink, even when Im not happy about it, and that makes it so much easier.

Also although my mum and daughter know about the antabuse and my buying it online, I havent told them about the bac, I dont want to risk any misunderstanding and disagreement about it, but I have told them that for around the next tree months my priority is staying sober and that for that time I may be unreliable and need to rest and that is what I intend to do. They are my big cause of stress, today my mum wants me to go and cut her hair and Im going to bed instead because I need to, I have told her Im going for a smear test which was true but I have also rescheduled it because little white lies are ok when they are done for the right reason I think.

[tiptronic_ct]

Me, myself and getting sober

You need to do what you need to do to get through this - if it takes a few white lies, that should be the least of your worries!

[Doggygirl]

Me, myself and getting sober

Space, I agree with Tip! Regardless of what methods we use to stop the madness with AL, we really are going through huge stress and change just to stop. Our bodies and minds have so much to adjust too. I think a few months of absolutely self-care as the #1 priority is extremely reasonable, whether family or others want to understand that or not.

I also think it's easier and OK to keep some stuff private from family that would only be controversial and misunderstood.

You are doing great!!!!!!

DG

[RudyB]

Me, myself and getting sober

hi space! you know, even if you're nodding off in a meeting, it's all going into your brain. think of it as hypnosis, and hope that the message is good!

drama class?! please tell more...

hey, if coconut oil might disturb sleep, i wonder if it will keep me awake when needed.

how old is your son? i agree with tip: keep stuff to yourself in order to keep the peace. you don't need anyone's approval or vote, just take care of you in a way that works for you.

i hope you're sleeping soundly as i type.

xo rudy

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

My sons friend came home from school with him for tea and stayed over last night, they had a good time so therefore I did to, I really do think things are turning round for us at last, they have gone off to school now both looking very happy. I took a zopiclone last night so was asleep when my head hit the pillow until this morning, its such a shame they have dependence problems so I dont take every night but I think every other night is ok for now. I am going to a local centre today that helps people with mental health issues, I am going to have a reiki session and see a health trainer, not sure what they do yet but I think its about diet and lifestyle changes so I looking forward to that. How are you both doing tip and doggy, you may have told me but if you have time can you give me a quick refresh on how you both got sober. Thanks

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

oops. hi rudy didnt see you there, my son is 12 and also my oldest son live with me and hes 22, I have a daughter of 25 but she lives with her boyfriend. I thank you all for your comments regarding keeping stuff to my self, it helps to have other agree that Im doing the right thing. I have no idea if cocnut oil could keep you awake it could be like the strange thing with bac that knocks me out of a day but keeps me awake of a night! I dont think I will ever understand that it makes no sense at all. Rudy can you also give me a quick refresh on how you got sober. I helps so much to hear other stories and by the time I have plough though the whole site looking for them I have forgotten who wrote what , and most of what I read. My memory is bad, but thats ok for now, at least Im not thinking of all the crap things from the past either, maybe bad memory is part of a defense system to help keep me sober.

[tiptronic_ct]

Me, myself and getting sober

I'm glad things are looking up. Incredible how much difference good quality sleep can make, huh?

In answer to your question about how I became sober... The whole story can fill pages and pages. The short version: realising that I needed to want sobriety primarily for myself and not others, regardless of how important they are to me (talking about wife and kids). Participating on MWO - almost obsessively at the beginning. Having a plan in place for each day - I used the Toolbox Thread extensively to help me with that, plus I made myself accountable to this community by posting my plan and giving feedback on how well I managed to stick to it. Taking my baclofen consistently until I became free.

What I didn't realise at the time, and what you need to prepare yourself for: achieving sobriety is just the 1st step. The really hard work and the rewards only came afterwards.

[Isolde]

Me, myself and getting sober

Slow on the response here, but wanted to answer your question about cooking with coconut oil. Coconut oil is one of the MOST heat stable oils. It can withstand high heat REALLY well, much better than olive oil. It is great to cook with for this reason. And if you were going to fry anything, coconut oil would absolutely be the healthiest oil to use!

I've never heard of it keeping people awake. It is supposed to increase energy levels, but I certainly never noticed any kind of wired feeling from it. I've taken it right before bed with no problems. Putting it in Weetabix sounds good. I like to put it in my oatmeal.

I'm glad you got some good sleep last night!! I got a little bit more than usual too, which was very welcome.
I'm really curious to hear about your reiki session!

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

Coconut oil probably han nothing to do with not sleeping, thats the thing I think with taking different meds and supps and being in early sobriety. the rieki session didnt happen there was a holdup but got other things sorted there i hope so not a wasted journey , i cant type any more tonight i have scalded my hand heating milk in the mircowave it in ice now and this typing with one hand is a pain

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

I keep on getting small burst of what I can only describe as a feeling of happiness, or maybe contentment i feel such love for my children and my mum I am almost scared of this after so long of feeling nothing but despair or maybe I was thinking despair. I know as well as starting taking bac over the past month I have reduced then stopped taking cipralex from the highest dosage then started taking effexor at a low dose. Maybe this is having an effect on my being able to feel as I know antid's have a mood flattening effect on me. As I am feeling pretty good for some of the time, very good for some of the time and also crap and insane and rage and anxiety for some of the time I am wondering if I should not increase my bac by 10mg over this weekend as I am now on my own until sunday. My cravings have redussed massively but the reason I am AF is still because of the antabuse, there are still times everyday when I want to drink and would drink if not for the antabuse so I know I still need to titrate up with the bac, I havent reached the switch yet.Although I have no idea how I will know it when I do as I am AF anyway. I suppose it will be when I stop wanting to drink. I think I have answered my own question here and will titrate up all I need to do is decide when to put the extra 10mg into my schedule. I currently take 4x10mg doses pretty evenly spaced out during the day, I dont want to start having to cut pills up again as I wasted a load by them breaking up into tiny pieces when I was doing that before.

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

spilt milk over laptop so cant post much, no key for letter in between c-e other leters not easy, am shakey to-ay got electric shocks on fingers am sober

[RudyB]

Me, myself and getting sober

too bad about the milk on laptop, dear! what a drag! i hope it dries out and comes back around.

i remember those electric shocks so well. in fact, they still visit me from time to time (i'm now down to 120 mg and still indifferent), which is annoying, but not much more.

yeah, don't bother cutting up pils, just maybe space the now-five 10 mgs evenly throughout the day.

i'm hoping for you to have more very good time and less crap and rage time!

[spacebebe01]

Me, myself and getting sober

50mg ok am , awful evening anger also visious temper, out of control