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[Bruunhilde]

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Hey buds. In German shepherd speak, DM is degenerative myopathg where. They Lise control from the tail up. Tail. Posterior limbs and bladder /colon.

It will be okay. Life as lesson. And be positive. Helps!

[playland]

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Oh Yes Bruun,
I see that picture clearly:upset:

play

[StuckinLA]

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See? Told you it was totally possible that I was completely confused.

[spacebebe01]

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Just a quick pop in to say hello, Ne have you had you exams now, hope they went ok, /bruun how is your dog, I am confused about the treatment.

Stuck how are you, I just checked back a bit but cant really make out what you are up to lately so you will have to refresh your page just for me hope you are ok

sending love to you all

xx

[Ne/Neva Eva]

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Love bacatcha, Space. And strength and hope to you Bruun.

Exam went okay, I think. I might be in kind of a pickle, in terms of getting the A. Why make it easy on myself?

Off to do some more homework and then finish up the shelves in the kitchen.

[StuckinLA]

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Am I really the :l guy, Ne? I mean, yeah I guess I am, but I didn't think anyone noticed.

So Halloween was pretty good. Only one of my students dressed up, and it was just a pair of butterfly wings, and I didn't dress up, but after leaving the house I realized that with my green fatigue shirt that I randomly wore, the green fake-army looking hat I try to wear all the time because of the sun, and with the beard that I grew again I was definitely wearing a Fidel Castro costume. The bartender, on the other hand, went all out--Avatar. So a stretchy blue outfit with a tail, wig, face painted glittery-blue, green cat's-eye contacts. And she was really self-conscious about her makeup and thought it looked kind of monstrous, and of course I told her she looked wonderful, but it did look a little stiff like a mask and she has such a beautiful face that I hate seeing it covered up anyway. Then she made me come outside to stand with her while she handed out candy to all the little kids, and I certainly didn't protest. So we stood out front of the bar for a lot of the night, her stuffing handfuls of candy in little children's bags and posing for pictures with them, because they all wanted pictures with her, and me smoking cigarettes. But this just might be my favorite bar night of the year because I get to stand next to her and it's relatively quiet and we can chat.

Something funny happened and she let herself kind of fall into me as she laughed. And with all the little ones running around we got to talking about kids and relationships, and overall it was a pretty good night. Since then we're kind of right back to where we were after it seemed like she was slightly cold or aloof for a brief while, and so on the bartender front life is good. The only other development being that she's wearing colored shirts now instead of just white, for really no reason, but man she looks good in grays and blues...

In the real world I did do the revisions on my proposal and it's now "excellent," though I still think it's kind of crap, but I think I may actually survive my written exam one week from tomorrow, and then maybe even the oral exam at the end of the month. We'll see; fingers crossed. I'm reading a bit more, and trying to write a bit more. Man, it's such a struggle but I'm trying not to give up. (Have I mentioned how I don't like the split-infinitive rule sometimes? Because not give up is precisely what I'm trying to do, so trying to not give up describes the whole thing a whole lot better. But noooooo, can't split the infinitive of to give. Stupid Latin...)

And then in the rest of life, well, here's the part that's going to drive Ne up the damned wall. I'm running a little experiment to see if the leg-thing is really a bac-thing. I'm down to 80. I haven't been below 100 since like March or April, which is when I remember the leg thing starting. And I have to say that honestly the leg business is vastly improved. Not entirely perfect or gone, but noticeably better, particularly at night when I'm getting into bed.

So here's a conundrum, because yes I'm sure there is a level of bac that will sort out the drinking, and I'm pretty sure I'd settle mostly in brain-wise and sleepy SE-wise, and even the new-sobriety depression would lift eventually. But I'd be stuck with the leg thing like I have been for the last 6 months. On the other hand, drinking is pretty easy right now.

OK, I should qualify that. It's still strange, probably like a bac hangover or something. :H But yesterday I went to the liquor store for a couple bottles of beer to take to the football game. I didn't feel like going nuts, and didn't have a whole lot of time to drink before the game anyway, so I just wanted one or two 22 oz bottles. So there I am standing in front of the refrigerator case, just staring, and absolutely nothing looked even remotely appealing. Then the thought of wandering around campus, by myself while everyone around me was tailgating and getting wasted, drinking a couple of beers and then sobering up in the hot afternoon sun, that thought was just revolting. So I was forced to endure the crowds, the game, and the heart-wrenching loss (that I actually didn't care at all about) completely sober.

But then after the combined several miles of walking due to bus reroutes, and the standing at the stadium for hours, and then finally making it back to my neighborhood at like 9:30, a couple shots and three beers at the bar were just the thing. It certainly helped that the bartender was there, and happy to see me, and wearing gray , but I didn't have a problem drinking at all really. By the time I got home I was pretty much ready to stop drinking and go to bed, but the girl from last summer was texting and saying she wanted to come by at midnight... So I stayed up, she showed with a $200 bottle of Middleton and poured a ridiculously full glass for each of us, and just like that I ended up drinking quite a bit overall last night. And yeah, bac is still blocking the euphoria so it's not like taking a drink, or a lot of drinks, gives me that oh right this is what was missing feeling.

Not sure why I gave such a detailed play-by-play... but I'm sure someone out there missed these posts.

And no, no I don't know what I'm really up to. On the lower level of bac I feel much better during the day, my thinking feels much clearer, and I feel determined to work on the things I need to work on--and hey maybe even capable of doing so. And yet I'm not sure how much of that is a mental trap, seeing as how AL is kind of back in the daily picture, for the most part.

So there's the update, folks. Hope all's well out there. :l

[spacebebe01]

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just alighting at your virtual doorstep top say hello

[StuckinLA]

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Hello there Space! Thanks for stopping by Had a pretty decent night's sleep, actually. And am now up at 6 am so I can go vote before school. I have to walk over hill and dale (kind of literally) to get to where I'm supposed to vote, as it's off in some park near a baseball stadium with nary a public transportation option to be found. So we'll see what the lines are like.

I know no one cares about the politics of it all, but just had to explain why I'm up so freaking early and going for a 2 mile walk. Or maybe I'm just still trying to explain it to myself... Mornings are not my thing.

[joanna_d]

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:H just wanted to do the giggle myself

good to read you Stuck!

[joanna_d]

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:H (just wanted to do the grin myself)

[joanna_d]

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:h:l:upset::welcome::H:new:

[StuckinLA]

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Hiya Jo! Nice to see you here. So today was kinda messed up already. Up at 6, a lovely 2 mile hike along wooded trails, with joggers passing by and wildlife and stuff, to and fro from the polls where I did my civic duty for the day, then got back home before I'd usually even be waking up, so I cooked breakfast. Then I wrote for a while and brushed the cats 'till they'd be brushed no more, and I'm just now getting ready to leave for school.

What is this strange thing they call morning-time? It's like there's so much of it...

[Bruunhilde]

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Kumbaya, LA. Who knew about mornings? I'm on a new hypothyroid med and reluctantly discovering how much day there is in a day...

I know that stadium and hope you packed your mace. Or are you in West LA?

[playland]

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Hey Stuck,
Of course we care about the politics of it all aren't mornings great, lol, glad you made such an effort to vote, I always vote by mail which is way easier, but I'm staying up to hear the results.

love and peace,
play

[redhead77]

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Kudos to you Stuck for getting up early to vote. I also voted. I brought my daughter with me and she wore an "I voted" sticker for the rest of the day. I'm on the edge of my seat, though. It's going to be so very close. I don't think we'll know until tomorrow, but maybe it'll be sooner. I haven't decided how late I'll stay up to wait! :H

:l