Giving up....in a good way!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Happy Friday all!!!

So, with this newfound sobriety, I am realizing that I am having way more angst. Not overwhelming, and I don't even think it can be described as anxiety, just ARGH!!! ull

I definitely need to develope some coping methods. Something can't go wrong at 9 a.m. and my way to deal with it is thinking about going home and drinking. I need to be able to deal...and I don't know how. I can only smoke so much and walk around the block so many times. My initial reaction cannot be "Fuck it, I will just drink"! And not just methods to deal with bad things either. Maybe that's just it. I don't have to "deal" with these things. I just accept them and move on. They no longer have to dictate a reaction. Things can happen that just happen, right? No need to make them bigger than they are. They no longer have the control. I don't have to drink over every little thing good bad or indifferent. Things can just be. End of story! For this minute anyway...

Next weeks self improvement exercise will be working on setting boundries....stay tuned! :H

[ifulovelife2]

Giving up....in a good way!

taw;1362375 wrote: Next weeks self improvement exercise will be working on setting boundries....stay tuned! :H

:H

I used to think once I stopped drinking alcoholically everything else in my life would just fall into place. The reality is all the same shit that used to be a problem (and may even have caused the excessive drinking in the first place) is still there. If you do come up with the answer Taw, please share. One thing's for sure though, once you get the booze beaten you've proven to yourself you're a strong person. You can then use this knowledge, this strength, to work against the problems: "Fuck 'em! I'm bigger, better and stronger than I previously was. If I've beaten the booze, I can beat any fucking thing".

Oh talking of beating things :H my BB issue is no longer an issue ... at least until the next time it is.:upset:

Happy Friday, all. it's nearly the weekend: WOOOOOHOOOOOO!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Glad you got some release, um relief M!!! For now anyway!!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Thanks Reg! Was wondering if/when you would pop in!! Love the song, and the video. Always good to hear a kazoo in a song!

Thanks for keeping on eye on me!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

My intitials, Reg....I was so hungover and broke and lost when I joined I could not think of anything else! I tried Cinderella, which is my nickname at work, and that was taken, so this is all I could come up with at the time!

I wish I would have been more creative then!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Very boring when you thing about it....I should come up with at better story/meaning!!

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

Thanks so much Reggie!! You made my day!!! xoxo

[ifulovelife2]

Giving up....in a good way!

Reg, good to see you again, mate. Hope you're well. And stop deleting your posts.

Reggie;1362443 wrote: Always been attracted to your posts taw you reek of intelligence and spunk hope you achieve forever a sober life ..personally I think yOu willc. Sorry on I pad gives me the shits take care

Thank God you're not British, otherwise that would have been one of the most offensive posts I've ever seen on this forum.:H

[Ne/Neva Eva]

Giving up....in a good way!

I think I have caught up, though I'm still not sure where the montezuma butt fits in. Pretty sure I don't wanna know.
Happy Birthday, Bruun!

I feel ya' Taw, about the coping mechanisms. I've been incredibly stressed, and barely knew I was stressed (or HOW stressed I was, if that makes sense) until it started to ease just a tad. I didn't do squat about it, of course. A knowing friend (know-it-all, perhaps ) suggested that it's just too damn hard sometimes to see it and deal with it ourselves in the midst of it. Which is true but terribly annoying.

And ohmy. I love rowers. I love rowing outfits. I. am. a. bit. speechless. And I'd hate to see how big it actually gets if that was just hangin' out! yow. ow!

ummm.
:blush:

[StuckinLA]

Giving up....in a good way!

Late to the party yet again. After all the, um, gushing on this thread over that photo I decided to actually click on the link.

Did that article really say they won the bronze medal in Saturday's coxless four event. That's clearly the wrong event.

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

I really did not expect the world to become a perfect rosey place just because I quit drinking, but come on! Could the bombs stop dropping on me? How much more am I expected to be able to take before I just say Fuck it, I am going back to the bottle? Is this all a test? Seriously, does this higher power we were discussing a few days ago have some sick sense of humor? Let's mess with the newly sober chick to see if we can drive her drink!

Where are those coping methods I was looking for earlier??? Guess it is smoke and walk time!! Then I will deal with NN!!!

[windycitylady]

Giving up....in a good way!

So sorry, Taw. I hate that feeling. Like, "Seriously, Universe?!! You're gonna fuck with me NOW?!" I do think we need good coping mechanisms, but I think learning to let go like you mentioned a few posts ago is important too. That's hardest for me.
I couldn't fall asleep last night because I was thinking about what a terrible person I am for posting that person's signature from the anxiety/panic attack forums. I removed it today. So if you thought I was awful for posting that...so do I.
Keep your head up, Taw. If there is a higher power, maybe they are challenging you. Maybe they want to show you how much you're truly capable of. In which case, you should step up to the plate. Or maybe the world is just a fucked up place where shit goes wrong at exactly the worst time. In which case, you should step up to the plate.
We're all rooting for you! Hugs!

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

What's NN stand for? Should I guess? :H Not to make light of anything you're going through, Taw. I wish I had advice on how to cope with life sober. I'm absolutely useless there. Could we go back to talking about juicers? Or a higher power? Or rowers ...WOWSERS!! I just clicked on the link now too, since everyone is making such a fuss. I don't know if I should feel sorry for that lass or happy for him. That's quite a pic.

I hope tomorrow feels better than today, T. If it's any consolation, I'm having a down day myself.

It would have been nice to hear that song, Reg.

Happy belated Bday, B.

Thanks anyway, but you can keep that sucked out shell of a donut, Mx.

[redhead77]

Giving up....in a good way!

Hey Windy, we xposted. I think you said it perfectly!

EDIT: In regards to Taw and what she is capable of. I never saw the link you're talking about, but I don't think you should feel like a horrible person for posting it. You removed it when you thought it was wrong. Anyway, I've got to get out of here. I'm feeling like crap today, and I'm not so social when I feel that way. I don't like posting when I'm blue.

Talk to ya's later. :l

[taw]

Giving up....in a good way!

NN is just clueless!! That's all...I really should not let him get under my skin like he does. I know by know what a loser he is and will continue to be! He is a 58 yr old child!

Yes go ahead and guess what NN stands for!! Peanut M&M's to the winner....

Thanks Windy and Red! I will not allow him of all people to make me drink!!! He is the King Igit!!!

Better now! Thanks!!

Sorry you are down today Red! Anything we can do to help? Vent away here if you need to.

And no Windy, I don't think you are a terrible person for posting that signature. Someone put it out there for a reaction, I think....and got one...I would not lose anymore sleep over it.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I am sure I will be popping in!!!

Thank you ALL again! you are really sanity savers!!!