Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

[Irie]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

May I join your thread? I have had a goal of 30 days AF for over a year, and have only come close once, to be perfectly honest. The last time I posted on MWO was a few months ago, when I once again challenged myself for 30 days, and almost immediately went down in flames. I was so embarrassed I couldn't come back. In the last couple weeks, I've been back, but only to lurk.

All of you on this thread are very familiar to me, and I've cheered your successes from the sidelines. I'm ready to give sobriety 100% effort again, and think this would be a good place to keep myself accountable. So, today is day two. I'd love to think I've seen my last day one.

Ishy, your honesty and assessment of your setback is what prompted me to stop lurking and start posting. Thank you for that!

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Irie, of course you can join the thread...its a canny little group & we'd love to have you on board!!!

You're right..you have to be "ready" and that switch has got to be down otherwise you fall at the first. I dont know how many times I lurked before May when I dived back in...I too was embarrassed abt coming back and even now this small thread is the only one I feel comfortable posting on. The alcohol seems to have zapped all my confidence even compared to 2007 when I was first posting here regularly.

Regular posting does make a difference even if its just a quick check-in (its like doing the register lol....Sausage-yes!, Janice-yes!, Janet-yes! Ishy...Ishy??? oh my god, where's Ishy????). Thankfully Ishy reported in before we sent out the search party !!!!

Feel free to tell us a bit abt yourself......would love to know "your story".

xx

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Irie...just wanted to say I've just read a bit of your "30 day thread..." on Starting Out. You should go back and read it all to yourself again..... I am sure you will be reminded of your positive attitude, energy, happiness & enthusiasm back then (you were literally bouncing!!!) & be inspired. I know I was when I read it. You CAN get that back again. Make the decision to quit full stop, and realise that you're not missing out on anything, you are not depriving yourself of anything...you have everything to gain. xx

[Irie]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Oh, Janice, thank you! I'm excited to get this journey going! It's long overdue. I do remember how hopeful I was earlier this year as I was reaching for a 30 day goal. I was so relieved to think I had moved on, and that alcohol would no longer be an issue for me. Well, it didn't happen, but it will! It will!

I've thought about re-reading my old posts, but just couldn't face them. I think I'm ready now. It's time to face this thing head on, and that includes accepting past failures and being brave enough to hope again for the brilliant future that I know could be mine.

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Irie look on the Longterm abstainers board...I've just bumped a post to the top "5yrs sober" by AboutTimeToo... She very rarely posts now but if you check her out in the MembersList she comes under the same name but with an extra nought on the end....AboutTimeTooo!! Read her posts.

Also look out For DoggyGirl's "my new story starts here" (I think its called) on Tell us your story, also Sausage's story on there. Read, read, read, and get your head int he right place, make your plan, decide, commit, dont mess about, do it.

You're names on the register for tomorrow's class lol!! xx

[Irie]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Janice, I will follow every one of your suggestions. When I get home from work tonight, I will spend the evening reading. Thank you so much for reaching out today. I had a feeling that logging on this morning would be life changing, and you are confirming that for me.

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

you're welcome Irie...remember, if you REALLY want this you can make it happen. xx

[planetjanet]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hello...Hello...Hello Everyone!

Wishing you lovely peps a rockin AF Day/Evening to you! I just wanted to chime in for a quick hello and welcome back Irie. It's so nice to have you on the thread and looking forward to hanging with ya for the next 30 days (minus the days you have..day 4 right?). Everything that Janice wrote is wow is exactly how it is and yes checking in everyday helps, even it's just a couple of words. Thanks Janice for writing something so sincere and wow talk about " hitting the nail on the head". Way to go girly girl!!!

Okay, gotta head out...phew it is a hot one today but hey it's still beautiful in Sunny Southern California....actually any where is beautiful..just as long as I stay AF : ) I will check back in later......


Hugs,
Janet
AF Day 77

[SAUSAGE]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hi everyone

Welcome to the thread Irie - I remember you from before when you got close to 30 days. You can do it again, Janice has given you some excellent advice, can't really add anything there. I would agree with her on the importance of checking in regularly when you are vulnerable in the early days / weeks. I do notice a pattern ( includ with myself previously) that as people start to drift away and post / read less frequently they become "at risk" and then they disappear completely and then in mostt cases you just know they've started drinking again.

Janet have you finished your job yet - I bet you won't miss those early morning starts!

Janice, are you still juicing? If so what have you made? Glad you feel string about your 50 th - do you plan to do a none alcoholic toast, with some AF sparkling juice, or just not bother?

Hi Ishy, hope you are doing Ok, and hello and keep going to anyone else following the thread.

Today is day 148 for me.

Have a great AF day everyone

[Irie]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Good morning! I made it through last night, but boy was I grumpy! I had been out of town the night before, so I was in the controlled atmosphere of a hotel room when I did not drink and decided to start posting and stop drinking for good.

I had a long meeting yesterday, then a three hour drive. I walked into the house at 6 pm tired and ready for my evening drink. My husband drinks too much, too, so of course he was already glass in hand. I had such an urge to give in and start on a more "sensible" day like Sunday or Monday. Proud to say I stuck with it though, and woke up this morning quite thrilled with myself!

This weekend will be tough, but I plan to stay really busy and check in often. For the moment I will put 100% effort into making it until Monday without a sip of alcohol. Nothing else is nearly as important.

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hi Sausage, Janet, Ishy, Irie & all who pop by.....Irie well done for not giving in last night!! Cant have been easy after a long day, finally getting home, seeing hubby with glass in hand and all you want to do is collapse & join him, so well done!! Just think how chuffed you will be with yourself Monday morning if you are starting the week with a few AF days under your belt instead of tackling Day 1!! There is never a "sensible" day to start and you have already got Day 1 out the way so might as well stick with it?!?

I'm sitting here with hubby who is on his 3rd glass of red...he's what I call a fairly "normal" drinker (if ever there is one?) ...drinks Fri-Sun (sometimes Thurs depending on how stressed he is) then doesnt touch it during the week (lol yes that only leaves Mon-Wed!!!). He keeps telling me how well I'm doing with my AF time and that he didnt think I could have done it and how worried he was getting abt how much I was drinking (he doesnt even know half of it). In abt 1-2 hours time though he will be sound asleep in the chair snoring his head off & will have missed the second half of whatever he is watching ...so predictable!!!

Had a good swim this morning, havent been for a couple of weeks but did 50 lengths & that always does me good. I always seem to have a better day after I've swam. Afraid to say I havent done much juicing lately Sausage...I need to get back into that. I've been terrible for chocolate (cadburys fruit n nut!!) even though I never touched it when I was drinking...must be a sugar thing!!! Yes, think we will be having a toast on Thursday....but I'll be having the sparkling water with ice & lemon!!

Hope everyone enjoys a great AF weekend....will see you all tommorrow! xx

[Ishybit]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hellooooo everyone and welcome Irie!
Irie, I remember you well and yes you were/ are an inspiration to me! You were euphoric and driven! You can do this again. It is so worth it. Even though it can be soo flippin hard to restrain, retrain, gut it out, and even when your a raging bitch, irratic and irrational, it will pass and the depression lifts (at least a little ) and the disgusted self loathing person starts actually like her/his self again. I agree with Janice, you should retread your posts and sausages journey. I admit, I have not been diligent in my posts and I should have posted more when I started to feel shaky, I think it could have put me back on task and focused. It's the unsuspecting, catch me off guard moments that throw me for a loop. I have to remind myself that I've been struggling for YEARS.
Whew! That felt good.
Thank you ALL for your posts, I gain so strength from you all.
Happy AF Friday.
Ishy

[Ishybit]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Oh and Janice,
Happy 50th! You deserve the best and the best is not feeling deprived of champagne but free of it! Cheers.

[planetjanet]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Hello Everyone,

Happy Saturday to you all! Boy oh boy is it HOT, definitely we hit the triple digits!!! My poor doggie is not a happy camper but I am dousing her with cold water to cool her off, as well as myself. Sheesh, I must be taking at least 4 showers throughout the day. I did go running yesterday but only could do about 6 miles because it was just too darn hot, need to get myself out of house by 6ish to beat the heat.

Janice, Happy 50th and way to go on toasting it with sparkling water, sounds like it's going to be a really nice evening. Looking forward to reading about it : )

Sausage, congrats on 148 days! Yes, last Monday was my last day at this job and even though the job was a HUGE disappointment, I definitely learned alot from it. I really didn't mind waking up at 3:45am because I was so "gung ho" on FINALLY finding a place that I could call my second home. The early mornings were brutal but it was worth it in the beginning but when I realized that this place was not for me, wow did I dread going to work every morning. So, I am happy to finally sleep well and shade no worry as to whether or not I will find a job, I know I will!!!!

Glad to see that you are doing well Ishybit and thanks again for your honesty. Irie, glad to hear that you were able to stay strong and not drink. It would have been a bummer that you would have to start again but not the end of the world if you did, just brush yourself and get back on the wagon.

Anywho, I have to sign off but will check back in tomorrow. It's nice to read that you guys are doing well. OMG, tomorrow will be 80 days.....LOL wow that's insane!!! But it's a rockin insane...I am ten days from 90 and 20 from 100, wow!!!!

Have a great Saturday night and beautiful Sunday!

Lots of hugs,
Janet
AF Day 79

[Janice]

Anyone Up For 30 Day AF

Morning everyone, hope everyone is enjoying an AF weekend. Janet, it must be a lovely feeling knowing you're not going back there and can now resume normal hours!!!! You sound great and I'm sure because of your positive frame of mind, the right job for you will not be too long coming along.

Had a lovely BBQ last night with hubby & daughter....they both drank beer and I was on coke. Later hubby finished the red wine then fell asleep. You really see it from the other side when you're not drinking dont you....and its not attractive.

Sun is shining here in England today so a day gardening for me.

Back later xx