100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

[Dottie Belle]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Hi all,
At what point did u all stop counting days??? Wondering if I should still post on the roll call...or not. Feeling good and resolved to this path.

[Guitarista]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

mollyka;1604171 wrote: --- it is SO hard to get back on that wagon -- doesn't matter if it's after 5 days weeks or months imo --- the grog just drags every bit of motivation, self confidence, self esteem out of us from the get-go --- that pride in ourselves for our sobriety time --- all gone ---

Right on Molly.

Just reading back on this maaagnificent thread.

This is what happened to me. I like to think i'm a savvy, smart sort of fella, but....... well, as we know AL does not discriminate and will show you no mercy. Therefore, my approach now is to show AL no mercy, take no prisoners, and a zero tolerance policy is firmly in place in the house of G. As Molly say's above, if i go back to drinking even for 1 session, the grog will drag me down, as my self confidence and self esteem begins to head south. Why? Because i know deep down i am ripping myself off, am wasting my precious time, am not being my best, and i will soon enough descend into booze oblivion, which is only a matter of time for me, and us. So a big part of all of this, of my relationship with booze, is ACCEPTANCE. And understanding my relationship with grog, and where it inevitably takes me.

I have found i am able to moderate for weeks, months even (before the slide down back to dangerous drinking levels and oblivion), but i don't like how i feel with the chemical lingering in my system. It takes my edge off, numbs me to life, and i am nowhere near my best. In this state (i.e. a week or more between drinks and intending to drink again - 'moderating'), even though sober, I know/feel i am a second rate G man to the world, but most importantly, to myself. Why? Because i'm still shackled to the grog and the thought of grog. This is not freedom. This is not me at my best. 24/7 sober living is what works for me best, and this is my choice. This is where i shine like a raaawk star.

See youse in 19 days.

[NoSugar]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

You ARE a rock star, Mr. G.!

Thanks for that post - everyone on this thread is making the best choice. It is good to think of it that way.

EDIT: I thought you were already an elite member, you sound so good and strong! See you in 19 :hug:.

[Byrdlady]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

I second that, Mr G! AL didnt do me any favors! Infact it kept taking and taking until I was nearly given out. I look forward to seeing you here with all yoyr housemates, soon!

Mick, I mighta known you would chime in with your bunnies! They are eating machines!! You are a happy pappy! They have your nose, too!

Dot Belle, your count is YOURS! If you think it helps to keep posting it, I think it's just fine. In fact, I think you are a GREAT " roll" model over there. I like to see the big numbers...I am coming on one and Ima post it!! I am loud and proud of it! I am really proud of you, too!!! I'm so glad you're here!!

Xxoo, B

[Sunbeam]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Dottie, I got tired of counting days, so I just posted weeks for awhile, and now I'm just posting months on the Sunday Shout Out thread. So it's whatever motivates you.

G Man, glad to hear that you are doing so great.

I just finished a book about dogs in the military, fascinating read.

[Dottie Belle]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Yep Byrdie I like seeing the big numbers too..will keep it up for a while longer..I am proud of me too...hard to believe sometimes...but it is a great feeling..

[Lavande]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Dottie - I calculate my AF days every now & then - just for a giggle & to give myself a pat on the back. Today - 1751 days

G - you know we're going to have the dancing girls for your official arrival :cheering::cheering::cheering:

[Guitarista]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Lavande;1611051 wrote: Dottie - I calculate my AF days every now & then - just for a giggle & to give myself a pat on the back. Today - 1751 days

G - you know we're going to have the dancing girls for your official arrival :cheering::cheering::cheering:

Wow!

[Dottie Belle]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

WOW that is a lot of days....I will get there too...
Went to the grocery alone today and that would have been my way to get wine and not tell dh but I did not....walked right past the isle and didnt waver...woohoo for me!! So I hope this means it will get easier now....at least I hope so...cravings are much fewer and farther between....it really does get better..

[Lavande]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

You just keep hanging in there Dottie. It does get easier & easier as you rewire your brain
I do not consider this a struggle at all. I consider this a smart lifestyle change

[Samstone]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Dottie
Roll call is a great deterrent when I'm thinkin drinkin.

[Lavande]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Whatever works, right Sam?

No rain, ice or snow going on today - yay!

[NoSugar]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

Congratulaltions on 500 days, Sunbeam!

[Sunbeam]

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No Sugar, thanks so much for remembering this. I am truly touched. As I recently mentioned, I don't keep count of the days. It is beautiful out today, and a week ago the wind chill was way below zero. I have been working outside, the best way I know to celebrate.

I had a dream recently that I had decided I could have a glass of wine on special occasions. Nope, not going there.

[NoSugar]

100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

You're welcome, Sunbeam

I've been chasing the triplets (you, Allen, and Kuya) the whole time! I'm glad I haven't caught any of you or fallen further behind.

:h NS