100 Day Club members/Maintenance Thread

[Lavande]

Of course I'm cooking Byrdie, ha ha!!!
I don't mind really & will be sure my kids clean up after me!!

AF holidays with the grandkids are awesome Addy

[Pavati]

Hi, Long Timers:

Wanted to sneak in and say happy Thanksgiving to you all. I am VERY thankful I found this site and thankful for you all who gave and give me support. So glad I won't be drinking through the feast this year.

Happy happy.

Pav

[TJAF]

Hope everyone had a great thanksgiving! Tried Vegan this year. Ill give it an eh! My wife is Vegan so she was very happy. My grown kids, not so much

[STEADFAST]

Hi 100 Day Clubbers,

Happy Thanksgiving to those on the other side of the world! (I live in Australia.) I'm very thankful that I can still drop in and say Hi.

The past couple of months have been an ordeal. My employer performed an email audit of all employees Australia wide (thousands of people!), going back three years. Unfortunately that meant that some emails I wrote in which I was under the influence were scrutinized. (Don't even remember sending them!) osteroops: I got in the habit of "venting" by sending an email from work to my home email address. Had even referred to the vodka secreted in my desk drawer. Very. Silly. Indeed. Outcome was that I was "stood down" from work for two and a half weeks, pending an evaluation on my fitness for duty. I was interviewed by a psychiatrist, and during the two hours of grilling, I was able to explain to him that I've been AF for over two and a half years, and that my lapse in judgement in relation to the emails was very regrettable. He reported to my employer that I was fit for duty (phew!), and I returned to work last week. Still walking on eggshells around management though - I really let fly in some of those emails! So my alcoholic past came back to haunt me and is now known by my employer! THANK GOD it's all in the past; I would've lost my job by now otherwise. Am still recovering from the trauma of the process. Maybe it's a cautionary tale for anyone else who was so out of control they drank at work.

Am gonna take a look around the boards now, it's been a while since I last checked in.....

Onwards! , Steady

[STEADFAST]

[QUOTE=Rahulthesweet;1645155]Hello All,
I thin abotu about 1.7 years of sobriety my relationship with AL is like with an ex GF without I ahda bad relationship and came out of it. And when if she somes on front of me it does not bring about any emotions just curiosity ...

I relate to this analogy, Rahul. AL is like a charismatic but malicious ex-boyfriend to me!

[TJAF]

Oh my goodness Steady, you have me thinking about my emails as well. What a nightmare of a story. Sounds like all is forgiven but boy what an ordeal that must have been.

[Lavande]

Hi Steady, great to see you!
Wow, sorry about that email fiasco but glad everything turned out OK
How's that for a reminder of why we want & truly need to protect our quits?? GEEZ!!

A vegan thanksgiving TJ? I wouldn't mind but I'm afraid there would be a giant revolt around here, ha ha!!

Hi there Pav!

[All done drinking]

Steady,

Thanks for sharing your email story. I have to admit that during my 15 min. breaks, sometimes I check into MWO and read posts. Usually don't write one but...not sure I'd like my company to know why I visit an alcohol recovery site. Thank you for sharing your eye opening story. Glad it had an ok outcome but sorry the company knows more about you than you'd like.

Addy

[Guitarista]

Good to be back.

Glad things look to have worked out in the end Steady! Take care of yourself.

[Byrdlady]

Glad to have you back, G!
Steady, scary tale there and a lesson to us all. I am so thankful for my quit. Staying sober today corrects a lot of past sins. B

[Guitarista]

Thanks Byrdy.

It's good to be able to actually visualise some hope for myself, as in a path to get the life I want, rather than taking the attitude that it's all too hard and just live a life existing. The increasing self confidence and self esteem you get from another day sober is very special.

[Pavati]

Congratulations and welcome back, G. I'm glad you're feeling better. Now don't leave again, ok?

Steady - yikes! I get afraid that someone will find my posts here and expose me to my employers, but I guess I'll have to take that risk. Sorry you had to go through that, but thank goodness those days were in the past and you passed all of the tests. Another sober milestone.

I am nearing two years, and like I did last year, I am feeling a big off kilter. Last year was worse and longer, but the last two days, since I remembered how close this anniversary is, I have started getting a little discombobulated. I am happy and confident in my sobriety, but I do have the "really?" feeling more often lately. Even though it doesn't make scientific sense, I get mad with myself for not seeing this coming, and mad at myself for not being able to control my drinking.

Honestly, I believe and KNOW that my life is so much better with alcohol, and I would never go back to that hell I was in two years ago for the world. I don't understand this pity party I am throwing myself at big milestones. I know NoSugar had some good words for me last year. NS? You still have those words?

Do any of you long timers have these feelings any more? At big milestones?

Anyway - I am excited to celebrate on Wednesday. I'll keep it at that.

Pav

[Byrdlady]

I still have pity-parties, Pav. They don't last as long as they used to, mercifully. Of course it is difficult to believe that we let a substance take us on this awful ride....how did that happen? Some days I am in disbelief at the things I did. I think it is normal to get in a funk every now and then....the RELIEF and freedom certainly outweigh everything else.

I was getting ready this morning and standing in my closet....I used to hide wine in my shoe racks and in my suitcase. I rearranged a set of red shoes so that all of them would be in one area....I bent down and thought, 'Oh spit, I hope I don't have any residual 1/2 liter boxes in there still!!!' I shook my head that I WAS THAT PERSON. I find comfort in Turnagain's words "ALCOHOL IS THE PROBLEM". It is a highly addictive substance. We used it just like the next person, but WE became addicted. Truth is, no one should be using it. Alcohol is the problem. You are doing everything in your power to over come this and it's working. This is not something we chose. It's the way we are wired.

You have so much to be proud of!! Byrdie

[NoSugar]

Hey, Pav

I wrote a rambly answer to you in the GLOAMERS thread - Bottom line is that I think how you're feeling is perfectly normal.

Birthdays can hit like that, too -- they are reminders of exactly where we are in life. And even if you for the most part feel great about the years you've lived (or been sober), there is an extra awareness of time passing and the reality of your situation -- sometimes it's hard not to wish things were different. But I can't not be addicted to alcohol any more than I can be 35 again when I loved what was going on in my life, before I even started to drink at all.

Everything that has happened has brought us to where we are now - and in many ways I think this is a better place than it would have been without having had this experience so while I still have regrets and can get into the "if onlies", I'm grateful to be where I am right now. Just have to work to remember that sometimes. xx, NS

[Quit wining]

Thanks for the warm welcome all. I never thought I'd make 100 days AF but here I am.

Having a great guy like G-Man with the same quit date made it easier. I logged on to Roll Call every day to see everyone's progress and that was a huge help. Also the encouragement from so many Nesters was wonderful.

I'm sitting here in pain after falling on ice while walking the dog on Saturday. Not all that long ago I would have been consuming large amounts of alcohol to deal with the pain. Funny thing, back in my drinking days and this happened, if I'd run out of booze, I'd have found a way to get to the liquor store.

Steady, scary email story. A good buddy of mine one time did a CLM (career limiting move) by blasting his boss in an email. He thought he was sending it to one person but it went to everyone in his contact list, including his boss. Ah, technology. I hope you have no repercussions from your company snooping.

Thanks again everyone for the support and encouragement!