Hi guys,
It was hard to post on the drinktracker as I'm not used to daily drinking and thought I could be stronger with not drinking daily on vacation. The difference with this one (as opposed to others) is there was a free happy hour from 5-7 with great appetizers that made a meal and our dinners were spent there and it was so easy to just have 2 glasses (even despite all the good advice from my caring friends to just have spritzers or AL free drinks on various nights). Their sauv. blanc wine was to die for. So tastey and no sulfites that gave any HA or even lazy effect the next day. Remember I've posted how AL demotivates hubby and me the next morning with even just one. With this particular Aussie wine...no problem! Unfortunately we can't get it in the states yet (or maybe that should be "fortunately" LOL!) Our last night with our Aussie friends we partied a little more than usual and I had 4. So, the drinktracker post was tough but I followed through!
Never felt hung over or too drunk so never got down on myself about it even though I broke my mod rules of no more than 3x weekly drinking. Actually I would feel more down about it if I went on my CA vacation (which we do 3 separate weeks in the summer) and drank nightly from a wine stash at home. I want that habit to change in the future. Don't want to have the bottle of wine sitting at home with the thought I can drink daily because I'm on vacation.
As I've said before, the moderation thing is so subjective. Someone else could be thinking 4 glasses at the most is nothing - moderation to them is 6 nightly and another person could be thinking "wow, moderation for me is only 2 at the most 1 x weekly." We all have our own way of what works for us.
For me, as long as I'm not slurring, having any of my family comment on my behavior because I've been drinking, don't have a hangover the next day, don't feel anxious or depressed the next day, and can remember EVERYTHING I've done, then my mod plan is working whether I've kept to my 2 with no more than 3x week - my intended goal) or whether I've drunk daily but have kept in control.
So, I remain humbly a work in progress as WIP so aptly named herself.
For those of you who asked for more info on Bali - it was tropical and beautiful. 90% hindu and it was very interesting to see how devout they were with their offerings and daily devotions. The people were gracious and humble with the biggest smiles always. Lots of mopeds with families of up to 4 riding on them. Baby in front - dad, mom holding another. They were everywhere. Massages on the beach were $5 American money - pricier places were $10. People hire drivers to take them to tourist sites but the drivers always have ulterior motives as they get paid commissions from higher end tourist trap places so it was always a battle with Dede (our driver) to take us where WE wanted to go. Yet we loved the crazy guy although he wouldn't listen to us!
We got to witness a bit of an Indian wedding. It was a 3 day affair at the hotel but not uncommon for it to be a 7 day affair. It was beautiful to observe from a distance.
I fell in love with all of the faces of the little balinese children. So round and brown and beautiful.
Every night since we've been home I've had the most spiritual, calming dreams.
Our intention was to go to Bangkok but God closed the door and opened the window. Ducky I thought of you when someone recently posted their sadness at you not being able to have children. I couldn't either but want to share I have the most precious adopted boys. When God closes doors he really does open windows for us. Depends whether we choose to look out or not.
Blessings & hugs,
Eve11
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