New Year: January 2010
'Morning, Squad,
Good to see everyone...Glad you posted again Rejuv, and congrats Eve on sticking with your pact. How are you DeeBee? What's up with your health worries?
Sunbeam, good for you for being honest with us about things...Sometimes I've wondered if you feel any pressure to live up to your rep as the role model modder. One of the things I admire about you is your mindfulness. It will see you through.
I've been busy with my family, having some fun together and feeling so grateful for my little boys and their health and well-being. Sometimes I just can't get enough of hugging and kissing and adoring them. Last night I was cuddling with my 6 year old, telling him how much I love him, and I suddenly had the thought, "I wish someone had loved me this much when I was a little girl". It just popped into my head. I know I was loved, and my parents were kind and good to us. But I don't remember one single moment of feeling that I was just absolutely wonderful and perfectly lovable; not the way I think my kids must feel. I hope they feel it, anyway. I hope it will always stay with them, and that they'll grow up feeling secure in a way I have never felt. I just don't have it in me...A deep or abiding sense of security and value. I don't mean to sound self-pitying, I just know it's true, and it's probably why I get depressed and maybe it's why I struggle with drinking.
OOOhhh....Not a cheery way to start the day. Have you guys watched the video that there was a link to on the Cowgal update thread? It's beautiful. Not "cheery", but inspiring. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B56UjiLuWkk[/video]]YouTube - I'm Alive - Kenny Chesney with Dave Matthews
Take good care, all you wonderful people!!!!
Sara
'Morning, Squad,
Good to see everyone...Glad you posted again Rejuv, and congrats Eve on sticking with your pact. How are you DeeBee? What's up with your health worries?
Sunbeam, good for you for being honest with us about things...Sometimes I've wondered if you feel any pressure to live up to your rep as the role model modder. One of the things I admire about you is your mindfulness. It will see you through.
I've been busy with my family, having some fun together and feeling so grateful for my little boys and their health and well-being. Sometimes I just can't get enough of hugging and kissing and adoring them. Last night I was cuddling with my 6 year old, telling him how much I love him, and I suddenly had the thought, "I wish someone had loved me this much when I was a little girl". It just popped into my head. I know I was loved, and my parents were kind and good to us. But I don't remember one single moment of feeling that I was just absolutely wonderful and perfectly lovable; not the way I think my kids must feel. I hope they feel it, anyway. I hope it will always stay with them, and that they'll grow up feeling secure in a way I have never felt. I just don't have it in me...A deep or abiding sense of security and value. I don't mean to sound self-pitying, I just know it's true, and it's probably why I get depressed and maybe it's why I struggle with drinking.
OOOhhh....Not a cheery way to start the day. Have you guys watched the video that there was a link to on the Cowgal update thread? It's beautiful. Not "cheery", but inspiring. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B56UjiLuWkk[/video]]YouTube - I'm Alive - Kenny Chesney with Dave Matthews
Take good care, all you wonderful people!!!!
Sara
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