AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

[Loppy lugs]

Hi folks

Another AF day Hurray!!!!!!!

Bear Congrats on 30 days.

Thanks everyone for welcoming me back it makes me feel so much happier and stronger and cared about.

Late for work so have to run, will check back in tonight.

Take care

[Gold]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Well done on another AF day loppy lugs they soon add up!

Thank goodness the headache is much much less today.

Hope everyone has a great AF day.

[1967]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Congrats loppy!
I think I am most glad for sobriety in the morning!
We had a scare last night. My little dachshund got out after midnight and I had to go look for her.
If I had of been drinking I wouldn't have slept for the rest of the night.
Thankfully I found her and she was okay.
Day 19 here I come!

[dill]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Loppy, fantastic on another day AF! Thanks for the start up.

Bear, congrats on 30 days! Hi, Gold! 1967, I'm glad you found your pooch! I can just imagine going through that kind of episode drunk. It's so great to be sober in the evenings to face whatever arises: both the good and the bad. I regret all that time I spent incapacitated. What if there was a medical emergency? What if I was needed to deal with an emergency situation? I most certainly was not able to, and on a daily basis! How selfish and stupid. I remember a year ago, the winds from hurricate Ike made their way to Ohio. It was during a Browns/Bengals game on a Sunday afternoon. Sundays were my big drinking day, starting during the first round of games. Anyway, the hurricane strength wind broke down huge trees and limbs. One large limb landed on the roof right over my head. Shezamm! Did I panic? Hell no! I just poured another glass of wine and went outside and stood in the wind for a few minutes. Can anyone say "impaired judgement"?

[Cinders]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Hello AFers,

Loppy, it is wonderful to see you posting again. Good on you for another AF day. I know I am still amazed when I go to bed without having had any alcohol. I am incredibly grateful to be sober.

Gold, Yes, thank goodness on the headache thing. Let's hope it goes completely away. In AA they talk about HALT (hungry, angry, lonely, tired), I always think it should be PHALTS (pain, hungry, lonely, tired, stressed) but it just doesn't sound as good.

1967, Yay to 19 days. It amazes me how conveniently we forget when we are drinking that others might rely on us to be sober and able to handle life.

Dill, What a story. Very telling how drinking does destroy all judgement, even important things like survival. I can visualize it very well.

All to come and all above, have a wonderful AF Wednesday. Let's work on the wonderful part and stay committed to the AF part.

Love,
Cindi

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Morning abbers!

Doncha just love success!!

I went to the barking lot last night. We need to get back to that on a regular basis. Little doggie may go with me at Thanksgiving and that would make 4 dogs romping through the house. So we need to bone up on social skills. :H

Today I have things to do away from the hole. Taking a cake to the nursing home for a CNA's birthday. (No, greenie didn't bake it) Few other things to do, an annual MD visit and lunch with Brittzak! Weeee!

Have a happy day!

[speedster]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Loppy - thanks for starting the thread today, you sound very happy to be back! We're happy you are back.

'67 - yes Congrats on day 19!

Gold - glad your headache is lessening, it will go away completely soon!

Morning to Cindi, greenie and Dill. Dill the story about the tree is a good reminder of what we don't want to be -- impaired!

Pupster and I had a great agility class last night. It was cooler out and that helped tremendously.

My mood has improved and I feel less stabby. Still struggling with resentment. I notice that when I'm really tired, it stirs up resentment. Tiredness can feel a lot like the influence of AL.

I hope everyone has an RF (resentment free) day as well as an AF Day!

[LVT25]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Hello friends!

Everyone sounds just great! I love that!

Speedster, I had to deal with a little resentment myself last evening. Hubby's sis and BIL are coming today for a visit, and since I have been working so much, the house was in a dreadful state. So, when I got home from work, I proceeded to clean, and then go to town and pick up our son from football practice. All the while hubby drank beer with the guys that farm our land! I kept giving myself pep talks, and that I didn't really want his help, just didn't want him to not be doing anything while I slaved away. I was still a little stabby when he came inside, but just told him I better not hear any comments about how dirty the place is while we have guests. He said I shouldn't worry about it so much, everyone knows how busy I have been. It's always better when I control my emotions and think things through. In the past I would have stormed outside and threw a fit in front of the guys.

Anyway, this will be a challenging week with the beer drinkers and ciggy smokers. I won't be tempted, but I would like to enjoy their visit without feelings of resentment.
Wish me luck!!

:h

[Lavande]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Hello all Abbers,

I'm with speedster - let's all go RF (resentment free)!
I have had a very hard time dealing with resentment - in all aspects of my life. I think I don't really have the ability to truly forgive, myself included. I get close but just can't seem to let things go. Sounds pretty stupid, I know........ I'm beginning to wonder if I'm missing some crucial gene that would allow me to just let go of the old s...t, forget it forever, you know?

Anyway, wishing this large group a very happy, AF Wednesday!

[greeneyes]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Radical Forgiveness by Colin Tipping

Radical Forgiveness Free Online Tools

Very interesting read / concept

[universal]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Lavande, I can so relate.

I have been having a hard time as of late letting go of the past and the stupid destructive things I did while drinking - for example, inviting men over to my house while intoxicated with my young daughter asleep upstairs - makes me sick to think of it now. I would have friends come by at 10pm and we would get loaded all the while my child upstairs. Now that I don't drink like that anymore it makes me ill to think of the stupidity of my actions and I am having a hard time forgiving myself. It is amazing the impaired judegement we use. I know that I have to let go but it is incredibly difficult for me to do so.

Greeny, when I get a chance I will read your link, thanks!

Have a good one everyone - I will be AF today. I like the sober life.

[sunshine_gg]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Morning Abbers!

Loopy.. you sound great! So happy for you!
1967... we're side by side... day 19 here, too!
Bear.. big huge congrats on 30 days! Keep moving, 1967 and I are right behind you!
Dillie... yikes. I totally know what you're saying. I've been incredibly grateful that I was sober and able to take my son the hospital - he had a weird spout there a couple of months ago.
Greenie.. ahhh... I asked somewhere else what a barking lot was... doggy school/play dates? That sorta thing?
LVT.. wishing you a RF visit! Hope you enjoy every minute of it!
Speedster.. same to you! Glad pupster is doing well in 'class'... did you end up staying with your original class?
Uni... I'm going through the same... panic attacks when thinking of the past and 'what if'... Thankfully, nothing DID happen and now we won't ever put ourselves and our love ones in danger again.
Cinders and Gold... good morning to you! Have a great day all!

[paula]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

Hi everyone, another af day for me. I do understand how you feel Uni. I still beat myself up about things I did whilst drinking, but we do have to try and let go or face the possibility of relapse. At least your daughter was asleep and unaware of what happened. Don't punish yourself any further, just move on.

[bear73]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

hello all - day 11 here for me sf and af.

just spoke to counsellor tonight who pointed out i am trying to do a lot by giving up both(and trying to lose weight/train for a ten k)
I feel really good though - I struggle with a lot of all or nothing thinking/low self esteem BUT I feel happier less anxious af, and alcohol is what always leads to me smoking/not exercising.

I will definitely keep my chocolate levels up for now!

I was/am feeling good - but that has unsettled me a bit - am I setting myself up to fail?

I don't think so this time - she did say I could be at a pivotal point and it may be time for a big change - why can't I just trust my own views?

[Determinator]

AF Daily Wednesday 26 August

whew, happy late check-in from garlic breath!

still fighting this cold but the good news is......(drumroll please)

the doctor said my bone is healing well enough to walk on my foot again!!! so now I'm learning to walk all over again which is a bit unnerving at times but wonderful. wooooo!

Dill, as a radically self-reliant survivalist (who used to sabotage myself with drinking) I really can relate to your post. Now I'm 'truly' ready for Y3K hahahahahaahaha. ok, a little survival humor there.

Resentment free? I'm in with that! resentments are nasty evil offspring from a dysfunctional ego.

be well everyone