I am up early and glad to not have a hangover - this morning i will either do a workout dvd or hit the gym and buy some packing boxes to help with major clear out.
I have read the' living sober sucks' website - has anyone else - Mark (can't remember surname). Title sounds really negative BUT it's not - he's got quite an aggressive style won't appeal to everyone but I really like it. He says living sober sucks (sometimes) but living drunk sucks more.
I realised that i am waiting for my life to be perfect as i am not drinking(from reading the site) - this won't happen, i will need to put in continuous effort. This sounds obvious but i think i often get to the point of - well i don't feel much better and this partly helps my drinking thinking.
I read a true life story in zest last night of a woman who is my age and lost the amount of weight i need to lose - inspiring. It's getting the balance between small steps but not so small there is no overall plan.
I used to be anorexic in my early 20's (long time ago), and I am a healthy weight now, but I always check the scale. Anyway, long story but I wish you the best Bear, just keep up the exercise and sensible diet and don't be too hard on yourself. The weight will come off 
The gym is being funny about not wanting to pay the instructors for a class size under 5 so I'll go in case it's a small class. What a stupid thing for them to do. Especially now during maniac season when people have to shop and go to drop ins, etc. The queen may have to speak to the mgt about it. 


I will no longer give the BEAST any power over me - he can go straight to hell.
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