Friday 26th January

[lorisunshine]

Friday 26th January

Good day to you,
This is hard to tell, but I fell on my face last night. My husband said something so hurtful and horrible to me, I just had a total melt-down, as my daughter called it. Some people just know how to push your buttons and I reacted the way I used to. There were 2 glasses of white wine left over from making a cream sauce for dinner and I drank the lot, not even out of a glass, no straight from the bottle.
I am so mad at myself I cannot even tell you. It did not solve a thing except ruining my budding self esteem and pride at being AF. We are not talking still and I don't give a rats arse either.
I am also refusing to go back to day one, no way, I will call it 25 days minus one for all of 2007.
Signing off - Stupid Lori.

[vinophile]

Friday 26th January

Oh Lori,I'm so sorry that you had a bad night. Those closest to us really know how to ring our bells!!!
You have done so well for 25 days!!! I wouldn't go back to day one either if I had attained 25 days(I never have unfortunatley) Just subtract yesterday and continue on.
I know I have gone for a few days where I held my conversations with my husband to a minimum because I was angry at him. Perhaps that's not the healthy thing to do....(Kathy might be able to advise us here) but at the time I felt I needed a "cooling off" period. I hope the situation heals. Don't feel badly!!You are wonderful!
Day 5 here and unfortunately I have to go to a friend's house where I know the wine will flow. I know I am not the only one here who will have a challenge tonight and that makes me feel stronger. I would really like to remain a hermit for the first month, lie on the couch and rent movies ........ As a friend of mine used to say... "Life isn't Burger King where you get to have it (your hamburger/your life) your way"
Hopefully we'll a be a bit stronger and wiser tomorrow.

Janet

[YoungAtHeart]

Friday 26th January

You're not stupid, Lori, just hurt and angry. I'm glad there were only two glasses to drink, though.

I've got the Friday night blues. There's a lot of productive things I could be doing, but I don't feel like it. Been pretty up all week, but I think I've crashed.

Did I tell everyone the other day that Maddy got accepted into UNC at Chapel Hill? It turns out they sent out the e-mail by mistake (to her and thousands of other kids). She won't find out until March. She feels bad, and I feel bad for her. I think that she is taking it better than me though.

I listened to the hypno cd today, but I think I need to listen to the clearing. I can't find it! Ouch. I might have to go searching. My mess obviously isn't cleaned up enough quite yet!

Oh well, I've got a difficult e-mail that I've been procrastinating on writing, so I guess I'd better go write it.....

Hugs,
Kathy:l

[Lou]

Friday 26th January

Andy...im only a 29 yr old female so what are you implying....should i be offended!!! LOL!!!

X X

[Popeye]

Friday 26th January

Lori, I think Kathy got it right (again). I know that you're sad just now, but I think that you are brilliant. You have been a star on many of my darker nights.

I'm signing off now.

Goodnight all

:l :l

[Lou]

Friday 26th January

Night Paul...sweet dreams x x x

[YoungAtHeart]

Friday 26th January

Arrrrggghhh!! I wrote it! It basically consisted of possibly "breaking up" with an office mate that I rent from in order to rent full time from someone else. I don't want to lose this woman's friendship (and I really shouldn't, if she is reasonable, but it's complicated). I also will "break up" with someone else I rent from, but I don't care about that one so much. Ugggh!

Oh well, it's done now, so I can relax. Whew!

[Andy1111]

Friday 26th January

12 days af and I am fading fast tempted to drink right now cause its friday night. wish me luck

[YoungAtHeart]

Friday 26th January

Hang in there, Andy. Why not try chat??

[Java]

Friday 26th January

Andy don't do it, think of how great you feel everyday and what you have accomplished!!!! You can do anything you want, and if you want to chat, I am around.

[Andy1111]

Friday 26th January

I'm talking to my wife right now, should be OK.

[xtexan]

Friday 26th January

Andy:

Take some valerian root. Take some GABA.

Listen to a hypno CD. Listen to something calm if you don't have a hypno.

Stretch. Run down the block. LIft a weight.

Anything. ANYTHING. Listen to her reasons.

Get in the shower, and take a long hot one.

Breathe in as deep as you can. Hold it. Let it out slow.

Anything. ANYTHING.

Concentrate on being clear, and being free.

Don't give in!!

Take some calms forte. Take some skullcap herb.

Let your wife massage your spine, top to bottom. Knead the neck muscles.

Anything. ANYTHING.

You can do it. I know you can.

Neil

[Newyear]

Friday 26th January

Hi Lori....definitely 25-1! So sorry for the rotten night you had too. I think our egos and lots of other emotions are pretty fragile right now. Two glasses is a drop in the bucket - so to speak- you are doing great to just get right back up again. Silence can be golden too. Take care of yourself.

Kathy- I hate possibly hurting someone's feelings too...just rip off the band aide! ( sounds like you did ) It's usually not as bad as we think. :fingers: wishing you well with all the work stuff!

Lou...Wishing you well on your date. I'm trying to get out there too...I actually now have two blind dates tomorrow...yikes One for coffee in the morning and then bowling tomorrow night (group outing). Can't wait to hear about your date!! Good luck- he sounds very nice.

Everyone I didn't say hi to ,,HI Hope you're all having a good Friday.
Lisa

[Newyear]

Friday 26th January

Hi Andy - Neil always has great advice. You can do it! I know you can do it!

Lisa

[Java]

Friday 26th January

I hope everyone has been able to stay strong throught this Friday evening. I know some of you have had a tough time, but you are all tough people so I know you will all be okay, Andu, hope you are doing okay, just posted my "0" for the evening in the drink tracker.

Went in the chat, guess no one is home tonight, no big deal, I am just not out, so i figured I would check,

For those of you who have not checked the Mods board and need a mood booster, you might want to go over there even if you are abs, there is a bit of a blues band started up over there, and there is a little song writing thing going on right now, so if anyone is in need of uplifting i suggest checking it out.

I guess I will stop blabbing now, i will talk to you guys later, hope you all have a wonderful evening.

Victoria