AF April Angels

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,Star,I hear you,there's no reasoning with a madwoman! I'm still sorry its come to this but heck as you said life's too damn short for b.s,I wish I could quit my job sometimes-now that Kell works there I get to hear all the backstabbing gossip..are they that stupid to talk sh#t in front of my kid and think she's not gonna tell me? Its nothing too crazy just how I leave as soon as the afternoon shift gets there,don't do towels(again with that nonsense) talk about my coworker,etc I just don't like people talkin period! Interesting on the vitamins,I did read all we need is mag,omegas,vitamin D supplements and the rest should come from food,oh and probiotics,who knows,Cyn,I'm looking for the light today,yesterday I felt a vague sadness for no reason out of the blue,I hate that feeling! What movie did you see? Lav,how's things going with the grandsons? We haven't heard a peep in ages,ugh still tired and hairs wet,off to dry wishing us all a happy AF Tuesday,,Star keep your head up girl!

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends,

The heavy rain hitting the roof woke me up several times last night, geez! But the day did shape up fairly well.

Star, sounds like you have a firm plan in place - GOOD!
I wish you an easy week, whatever happens, happens, right?
Glad your grandson liked the hot tub, ha ha!

Cyn, I've taken quite a few baby chickens pictures this week & FB put a little video together for me, ha ha! They are settled in & happy & the big rain didn't scare them last night.
We sit up on a hill too so flooding is not usually a worry here either. I made an interesting side dish with millet tonight - gluten free
I am feeling fairly sure that this political disaster we are witnessing is going to come to an end soon. Bigger than Watergate I am sure!

Pauly, even though I still didn't sleep decently last night my mood is starting to lighten a little. I think it's just been a difficult seasonal change for a lot of us.
I haven't mentioned my grandsons because I haven't seen them in over 3 weeks. That is until this afternoon when my son stopped by with the oldest in tow. He was home 'sick' from school today (not really sick). Apparently my DIL is out of town this week on business again. She will even be missing the younger guy's birthday on Thursday. I just don't know what's up with that but we were invited to join then boys for dinner to celebrate the birthday - nice. So, it's nice to have a little something to look forward to on Thursday.
I really wish you could work in a friendlier environment, those nasty girls would get on my nerves.

Wishing everyone peace tonight & a good Hump day tomorrow!

Lav

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Still fighting this cough. Work yesterday was stressful, my boss would neither talk to me or look at me, very professional of her. I handed in my resignation, just need to get through till next Friday. Boy yesterday was a long day. Trying to feel better.

Lav, nice you get to see your grandkids, enjoy the time spent with them. So sad that their mother is so irrational, I just don't get it. I also don't get not being there for your child's birthday, that is such a big deal when they are little. Sounds like your lunch with your friend was a fun outing too. We are going to get rain again today, I have my book club tonight, looking forward to it.

Pauly, sorry you work with negative people, that is not fun. Hope Kell is liking her job there and does well. I have been taking that mix of vitamins for a while and seem to do well on them, till all this stress hit. I even broke out in hives a few times, swelling in my feet, etc., it is weird what stress will do. I had a feeling of anxiety last night, bout my work situation, and had to examine my thoughts. My thoughts were what if...this happens, that happens, all things I do not have control over and I was working myself in to a anxious state. I make myself focus on what we were watching on TV, it was really interesting, and quit giving energy and attention to my anxious thoughts and it went away. I slept well and that was important because I am working towards health. Don't know if that would help you, but I have to be careful where my thoughts go because my feelings soon follow. Hope you have a great day today.

Cyn, isn't that weird about your post being lost, I hate when that happens. Thanks for the thoughtful outlook on change and going from the known to the unknown, which is really the hard part. Working after putting in notice is so hard, I hate it. Doing my best though. It is hard when life is so unfair, when an unstable person can affect your life and you have to make all the accommodations. On the other hand I am ready to leave due to this stress, so some confusion. I am going through grief, a huge loss. Our country is going through grief and a huge loss of decency, caring for those in need, providing basic health care to all in order to give the super rich even more. I hate 45 and the republicans who are so evil and want more for themselves. I saw that they want again to take away pre-existing conditions, emergency care, and more on health insurance. Then what would everyone be paying for? Oh, for the big companies to have 97% profit margins, just the way 45 and his cronies want it. I don't understand why people can't see what is happening. What movie did you see? I love going to the movies.

Have a great AF Hump Day!

[treegirl]

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Morning all -

Star, good luck this week... that would be really hard, to have to stay in the situation. About the future, remember that your thoughts can help create your new reality (not easy! I am working on that!). Do you know about dream boards and tools like that? Maybe now is the time. But I completely acknowledge the grief that surrounds leaving work that has been a major part of your life -- I've done it, and it's tough, but do-able. Sending you strength this week.

Lav, what a story about your grandsons... I am so sorry that you don't have access to them, and really sorry for them that they can't have more of life with you. But they are young yet; hopefully this will all turn around in time - obviously your son gets the program! I'll look for your FB chick-flick...

Pauly, yes I guess we are supposed to get most of our vitamins from the food supply, but I'm not sure how reasonable that is! Especially now with the restrictions roll-back of some pesticides that have been proven to impact our health. Time to save our pennies and shop organic - apples for sure! I am aiming for 4 cups of veggies (measured fresh) a day, though I cook them all - I can't do too many fresh greens. Anyway, that's the goal... thank goodness for zoodles. Good luck!

The movie I saw last week was 'A sense of an ending' with Jim Broadbent. I love his acting, so the movie was satisfying for me - lots of good acting. I'm not sure the movie would appeal to many - slow moving and gentle - but it was perfect for a taxes-soaked brain break. Hey Pauly, I saw a FB post from a friend that made it seem like the end of Walking Dead was a shocker -- I thought of you and Dill!

Finally getting taxes in the mail. The CPA will have to file an extension, but at least I'll be able to reclaim the dining room table!

Wishing all a centered AF day ---

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends, Cyn,I've never heard of that movie,glad you liked it yeah the season finale of TWD was Sunday(insert crying face) and it started off slow but was pretty good, I had to tell hubs to go to the garage cuz he was making too much noise and I was trying to concentrate! Made gluten free dark chocolate cookies yesterday, the recipe has peanut butter in it and I think it kept them a little moister(is that a word haha) Louie didn't even want to help,was sad and surprised Star,what an uncomfortable feeling, ugh,but at least you know you're on your way out,Lav,I'm so happy you'll get to spend time with the boys,seems like your poor son has to be one way toward you when she's around but be himself when she's gone? I hope whenever Brady gets married its to someone cool who I get along with,that kind of drama would really hurt me a lot,anyways I hope we all have a great AF Wednesday

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends,

It was a nice day here, sunny & 70, woo hoo! Tonight it all goes down the tubes with heavy rain, flood warnings, blah blah blah.

Star, it is hard finishing up at work after you've given your notice. Sorry you have to go thru that but maybe you can think of it as the necessary first step to your better future.
There's just no understanding why people become so unstable & unreasonable. Despite the floods or whatever is happening tomorrow I'm glad we will have the chance to help celebrate Will's birthday. It's a shame his mother has more important things do.

Cyn, I did a dream board right when I first started on this AF journey. It helped me to clarify what I really wanted out of life as my vision had become quite cloudy for a number of years.
I'm glad your taxes are out of the way. We haven't heard anything from the accountant yet so maybe we actually sent him everything he needed, haha!

Pauly, did Louie eat any of the cookies you made?
Just so you know, I always got along with my DIL but she has been going thru some harsh changes. I tried to be sensitive to all that & I know she was on some different medications but probably having some bad reactions. When someone becomes withdrawn & refuses to discuss things with you there's not a whole lot you can do. I'm still hoping she comes around so we can get some sense of normalcy going again but who knows?

Wishing everyone a peaceful night!

Lav

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Lav, your daughter in law is pushing you out, and I don't care what kind of mental illness someone has, they are still responsible for what they say and do. She is doing this for herself, not caring for her husband or boys. A little about power and control I bet. It was rainy yesterday and I had a day from hell, long and boring. I am going in today with things to do, coloring, reading a book, going out for lunch. I was emailed and refused to meet with her alone, HR was not available. I just want out at this point. I am going to lose all I worked for, but started to cough really bad and felt sick last night for a time. Not worth it.

Cyn, that movie sounded interesting, what a nice break. I enjoyed my book club last night with three neighborhood females, they all loved the book too, A Man Called Ove. It was fun to talk with people who like to read. We have a new book for next month, The Guernsey Literary and Sweet Potato Pie Society. Ha. About WWII, I am excited to read it. Yes, this time will be tough at work, I wish it was over, but I am going to do the right thing, with dignity and respect for myself and fellow workers. My supervisor is a sad little power hungry person. Her entire life is work, she basically lives there. Not for me. A dream board sounds like a fun idea, I will look into it today. I started a list of things I want to do and.....we are thinking of getting dog. If I am home more, we can.

Pauly, how goes it in the West, getting warmer day by day? Your new recipes sound fun, I can barely wait till I am off and have time to actually try new things to prepare. Sorry grandson didn't want to help, what was he doing? He is so cute.

Have a happy AF Thursday!

[treegirl]

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Hey all - morning!

Pauly, I like the sound of those cookies! How did they turn out? I have a GF recipe like that which uses nut butter, coconut and chopped chocolate.... waaaaaay too good! I have to give them away or I'll eat them all! I also stay away from refined sugar too, so I only eat a few of them. HB's current favorite is an almond cookie sweetened with maple syrup, and that I can have. Just3 ingredients! Hope work is good for you today.

Star, I like Lav's idea of seeing this week as the first week of your new life, not the last one of your old life... you are releasing the past and making way for a future that honors you -- great job! It seems like the Universe really wanted to get your attention, and now you are 'getting with the program'. I think you will love your next book in the club... I read it several years ago, and it is really eye-opening, both about what London was like just after WWII, and then the war story of the Channel Islands... just amazing what those people went through.

Lav, you have a great perspective on your DIL. In our extended family there is an adult that struggles with mental health, and it's always hard to figure out what's illness and what's personality, it's so mixed up. Personally, I think it's great that Will gets you and his grandfather all to himself on his birthday. Maybe that was a gift in disguise. Life can sure be complicated...

I finished Hillbilly Elegy, and now have gone on to watch a lot of videos about Appalachia (though the book is about that culture transplanted to the rust belt.) I watched a video of a film made in the early 60s about the Kentucky mines... all the profit (except for individual salaries of workers until they were automated out of a job) went to the big industrial centers, nothing stayed to help advance the communities. If anyone is unclear what the advantages are of emphasis on education and the ability to plan your family, these videos should be required viewing. Everybody wants meaningful work for pay, and the chance to live outside of poverty. Such a complex issue, and heartbreaking (especially when they report that the drug companies dumped OxyContin in these communities: 20/20 report with Diane Sawyer). When will the life of everyday humans become the highest priority?

OK, off to do my jobs so that I can bump up the work for social justice!

Rainy rainy here today - let's find the light ---

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends, Star,a dog would be so much fun for you! Last night I was laying on the couch and Winslow jumped up,put his face against my chest and just wanted to be pet,it was so cute speaking of dream boards I had never heard of them but on Little women L..A they were making them and I thought it might be fun but not sure what I'd put on mine,after so many years in my 20 and 30's of chasing dreams..I'm kind of over it and just want the somewhat peace I have now,I guess I never should have left my small hometown, it woulda been a simpler life but I always wanted more but got burned several times, Lav,I guess all you can do is be patient with DIL,not quite sure what she has but if its a mental thing its not really her fault,at least you'll have fun at the birthday celebration today Cyn,anymore banana,flax pancakes? I quit Pinterest cuz it was annoying me with pointless suggestions, I can just Google recipes if I need them,most of the time Pinterest just directs you to websites anyways, I also quit Twitter cuz it was irritating me too,dumb stuff I honestly don't care about,you guys see Bill O'Reilly and those sex pay offs?13 million dollars is not chump change! Yet he's still on fox news last night acting like nothing is going on,all these powerful men are corrupt,sickening, wishing us all a wonderful AF Thursday

[paulywogg]

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X- post Cyn,I'd like that recipe- can you share when you get a chance? To the light...zoom

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends!

Rain, tons of it plus thunder & lightning & we end up with a pretty blue sky & a rainbow, ha ha!
We had a fun birthday dinner with the little man. He was happy & in constant motion, hence the blurry picture on FB.
My other grandson EB is dealing with an ear infection but he was pleasant anyway.
I have no explanation re their mother's behavior. I couldn't imagine missing one of my kid's birthdays unless the world was ending or something critical like that.

Star, you've got the right idea - make this week yours, all yours! I wouldn't give any employer a minute of my time after being treated so poorly. Stick to your guns girl, good for you!
If you do get a dog, don't get a huge one like Maxie (she's killing us these days) Lol

Cyn, West Virginia is dealing with so many drug related deaths they can't keep up with funerals. I read an article about that weeks ago, how horrible.
Sometimes I feel as if the country is truly coming apart at the seams. How bad is all this going to get?
I am starting to have daydreams about gathering the GOP & shoving them on a slow boat to China or someplace. Now they're considering military options in Syria? OMG! Sickening.

Pauly, all of the input from social media can be overwhelming. Sometimes I take a day or two & back away from it too. I've always been good at watching news, reading newspapers, etc to keep up on current events but I don't need a constant 24/7 diet of bad news, ugh!
I would like to fill another barge full of all the dirty old men in this country & give them a shove off too. Bill O'Reilly, Trump, they all deserve one another.

On that happy note I will wish everyone a good night.
Lav

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning....

Well, 45 is now bombing Syria, I knew he would get us into a war he is such an fool. I am sickened and sad to think that my money is being used to kill people randomly. I hope this is not just the beginning of more and more death and destruction, I do not believe he understands what he has ordered. I will for sure be limiting my news watching, it makes me feel helpless, afraid and very sad. Horrified, truth to be told. Then the fact that the GOP changed the rules to get Gorsuch in, always short term thinking, to win, rather than what is best for our country.

Lav, the idea of a dog is just that so far, and I know we would go to a shelter, but we are not there yet. I am exploring all options for right now. Very cold, windy and rainy, this weather is so up and down, that's spring. Your grandson's birthday party sounded so fun, great to spend time with them. I am going to see my grandson on Saturday, my daughter is feeling very tired and I am happy to give her a break. She is due in May and this is the final stretch. Work was OK yesterday because I made it OK, I feeling mixed emotions of course, but know more and more it is time to do something else. Next week will be it, thank goodness.

Cyn, I read the book years ago and remember enjoying it but none of the particulars. Nice that you read it and remember it being a good read. I am thinking of getting politically active once I have more time, I need to find a good organization in my area to join. Hillbilly Elegy sounds so sad, I do believe that everything is connected and systems matter. The way corporations come in and strip an area of all resources and give nothing back, what a nightmare. Then lets blame the individuals in this system. I know there have to be controls, laws, rules in place, but with this administration we are going backwards, very very quickly. The frightening thing is that citizens have voted them into office. Just horrifying. Any special plans this weekend?

Pauly, I get what you mean about making a dream board. I have to think about what I even dream about for my future. Interesting that you want peace now, reflecting on the journey in your 20s and 30s, did you move alot? Kind of exciting for you and your family. We did not move till our kids were out of high school, have now moved twice in 10 years, I never expected to do this. I am really having to rethink who I am with no current job and wanting to change careers. Lots of soul searching for me, it will take some time. I am not going to do anything quickly, but feel guilty that I will not be bringing in any money for a time. Also, I am very slowly starting to feel better, cough less, and get through this illness. Patience, patience. How have you been feeling with the change in eating plan?

Let's all take excellent care of ourselves on this wonderful Friday!!!!! Have a good one.

[treegirl]

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Morning all -

Star, here's a special TGIF shout out to you! The start of a new life. Remember Louise Hay saying that she didn't find her soul-work until age 60? It's all out there for you... remember that you are a human BEING, not a human DOING. It's OK to step back for a little - fill the well -

Pauly, which recipe, the almond cookies? I'll get the recipe out and post... I hear you about Pinterest - I ignore their suggestions and go right to my saved recipes. It's annoying to have to be redirected to the websites, but at least I can hold onto things things that I like or want to try. Do a Dream Board again! Even if it's just images of things that make you happy! That says something to your spirit, right?

Lav, so glad that you had a good time with grandsons! Hooray! We had thunderstorms and cold and wind all day yesterday, it was a slog. Much the same today, but warmer. I used the rain-time to run to a local-ish hardware store and buy a good saw. Somehow I lost my saw in the PI debacle last year... I'll probably find it when I get out in the 'back 50'. But now I have a better one so I get going on those small trees before they leaf out. Good luck with Maxie.

Well, the septic is not entirely fixed, as I found out yesterday morning when the downstairs bath and laundry floor flooded again. Sheesh. And I had a basket of laundry on the floor (grrr). So, back to making calls. At least I know where to find the tank this time, and it's not covered with 20 inches of snow...

re: Syria. This is all unraveling because of 1 statement made by 45. Words matter, maybe some day he'll get that, maybe not. Here's the plan - get informed on what's going on in your state and work for what you want, that's the battle line now.

Rainy here today, but finding my light and sending it out to all ---

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends, Star,I was gonna ask if you were gonna go back to work asap or take a little time off..sounds like a you're taking a break for now? I haven't really been sticking to whatever food plan I'm trying, kind of but still eat what I shouldn't be here and there, Cyn,I'm always interested in cookie recipes especially lower sugar ones,I've cheated and had diet coke for 4 days in a row,I really feel like its made me moodier and effected my sleep I know better but it just sounded so refreshing on these warm days,gonna switch back to LaCroix when I need fizz,all artificial sweeteners should be taken off the market IMO,why can't they just 1/2 the sugar in regular soda? Its still junk food but at least then its not so sickly sweet,sorry about the septic acting up again, Lav,glad you had fun with the boys that thing may have been a mosquito hunter but we do have regular Skeeter's her,Kell lives by a golf course and they're everywhere and I live by a flood channel so that's probably where they breed,creepy things! At least its not scorpions,spiders or some other bug flying through the air, can you imagine, Kells bf was complaining of stomach pain and he went in last night to get checked out and I guess he has a hernia,crazy,anyways wishing us all a happy,light filled AF Friday

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends!

Here I am wrapped in a blanket sitting by the fireplace again - winter is back I guess, geez.
I hope it doesn't get too cold for my young chicks outside

Star, I saw the breaking news last night about cruise missiles being launched into Syria & just wanted to throw up. 45 apparently has no idea what the word retaliation means? I guess we are all about to find out now that Putin is pissed off.
I hope you have a relaxing weekend & fun time with your grandson too!

Cyn, oh no, the septic system again? Sorry, I hope it's not too bad.
I just read a new recipe from FoK for banana oat chocolate chip pancakes - I will be trying them with my dairy free c. chips, oh yeah
Be careful with your new sharp saw!!

Pauly, I don't use any artificial sweeteners, can't take the chemical load.
I used to have a subscription to Allergic Living Magazine. They offer a lot of good ideas - take a look
Allergic Living magazine

We actually don't have to deal with a lot of mosquitos here around my house. We have a lot of birds & bats that love to snack on them, even my chickens will grab mosquitos. My son lives 6-7 miles down the road in a more built up borough & his yard is full of mosquitos, the boys are always getting bitten playing outside.
BUT, we do have to deal with tons & tons of flies though. They like to hang around the farms & the fertilizer, ugh.

Well, I am looking forward to a few days of sunny & hopefully milder weather. I hear it's going to 80+ next week!!!
Have a nice night everyone.

Lav