Hi!
I'm Leana & I'm an alcoholic (pronounced Lee-ah-nuh).....
I had my first drink at age 22, back in 1998, when I was stationed overseas in the Army...I started out as a "Normie", but after 2001 when I moved to Arizona I started blacking out & having problems with my drinking...I started using men, and a few women, to buy me drinks. I was becoming a con-artist & lying a lot to get more drinks from folks...I have held down only 2 jobs since I got out of the Army (cocktail waitress/stripper & telemarketer)....I was definitely NOT being myself anymore (the real me is very outdoorsy, loves exercise, doesn't wear much makeup, & stays an auburn haircolor, my natural color)....And I haven't been HER in a long time....
I have relapsed numerous times since 2004 (too many to count now, shame:upset
...But my problem is that I let things & people get to me. And I DO know better! It's principles BEFORE personalities...But when I get angry, it's the other way around with me, & it shouldn't be!!
So, today, I have 19 days, after I spent 4 days at a psych ward in my town. Glad I did, because I did learn a few things about how to be myself again & not let my anger bring me to drink anymore. But since I just got my haircolor done, about 4 weeks ago, I have to let it grow out some before I can go back to my natural ME, auburn.....LOL!:H
Love,
Leana M.
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I'm Leana & I'm an alcoholic (pronounced Lee-ah-nuh).....
I had my first drink at age 22, back in 1998, when I was stationed overseas in the Army...I started out as a "Normie", but after 2001 when I moved to Arizona I started blacking out & having problems with my drinking...I started using men, and a few women, to buy me drinks. I was becoming a con-artist & lying a lot to get more drinks from folks...I have held down only 2 jobs since I got out of the Army (cocktail waitress/stripper & telemarketer)....I was definitely NOT being myself anymore (the real me is very outdoorsy, loves exercise, doesn't wear much makeup, & stays an auburn haircolor, my natural color)....And I haven't been HER in a long time....
I have relapsed numerous times since 2004 (too many to count now, shame:upset
...But my problem is that I let things & people get to me. And I DO know better! It's principles BEFORE personalities...But when I get angry, it's the other way around with me, & it shouldn't be!! So, today, I have 19 days, after I spent 4 days at a psych ward in my town. Glad I did, because I did learn a few things about how to be myself again & not let my anger bring me to drink anymore. But since I just got my haircolor done, about 4 weeks ago, I have to let it grow out some before I can go back to my natural ME, auburn.....LOL!:H
Love,
Leana M.
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