I'm a couple months in to this whole "sobriety" thing and have been working the steps. They've shown me that my relationship with women has basically been "get drunk, then insert object here." :blush:
I haven't had much love for myself, so naturally I haven't really been able to love women. This has resulted in all my relationships being dysfunctional, and I've been cheated on a couple times due to not caring enough about her. This has basically led me to believe that all women are evil, selfish Succubus' from Hell that are always looking for the next best thing (kidding. kind of)
I'm 27 now, and I've pretty much subscribed to the thought "I wouldn't want to join a club that would accept me," but with women. My self-esteem has been shot.
Now that I'm feeling better about myself, I'm starting to become interested in having a relationship with a woman. I have my heart set on one woman in particular, but I probably won't be able to see her for a few months at least. Lately I've been getting these thoughts that I'm not a real man or won't be truly happy unless I'm in a sexual relationship. This feels like bullshit to me, but these thoughts won't go away. Does anyone have any experience with this? It doesn't seem right to me that you're not truly human unless you're constantly having sex.
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