April Army Assembly

[mollyka]

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Hi everyone. Off to golf. We had a wonderful two hour walk yesterday amongst the wildflowers. BTW, Where The Forest Meets The Stars by Glendy Vanderah is the best novel I have read since Crawdads. I highly recommend it. In fact, I am so excited about it, I may do another pass. I have not done that since reading The Shadow Of The Wind. Have a beautiful day. Blessings x

P.S. I have a kindle full of books. I just look at it. The kindle not the content. I love holding a book and turning the page and just can’t quite warm up to e-reader.

Like with everything on life ...it still surprises me how we can have such different tastes in books...I always dreaded when a borrower asked for recommendations cos unless I knew him/her very well I cannot pick for someone else...not even Joe really....I just didn't enjoy Crawdads....at all...so many liked it I re-read it....same thing...just ...mind you I do have strange taste in books...and as I'm undoubtedly somewhat on the spectrum I'm inclined to stick with a similar theme ...to death really!!! Did ancient history for 4 yearslease:

[rustop59]

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Good morning everyone

Thanks for the book recommendations. I?ll read anything and like to mix things up. Loved the ending of the Crawdads but not the book itself. My daughter was the opposite. We are all so different.

Got the one Mary recommended on audio which is just as well. Have to go west tomorrow for funeral/removal. It?s hubbys aunt by marriage. 94 so a celebration of life.

Work today and then off for two weeks as going to Wales for the weekend. Hope everyone doing ok.

[mollyka]

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Nobody here so I'll just say hi!

[rustop59]

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Nobody here so I'll just say hi!

Hi Molly and anyone else dropping in. Thinking of you Mary, can?t remember when you said ye were getting more answers. Stay strong, you too Techie.

[mollyka]

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So....thee and me again Rusters...we should just become penpals and stick with that!
Hope all is okay Mary...

How long does it take to climb Snowden Rusters? Do you just head up like you would up Croagh Patrick say (I know it's a lot higher) or do you go in a group?

[techie]

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Hi Rusty & Molly. Nothing much to add today except I am always grateful for a day of checking in here @MWO. It has become a part of my life. Blessings x

[rustop59]

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Hi Rusty & Molly. Nothing much to add today except I am always grateful for a day of checking in here @MWO. It has become a part of my life. Blessings x

Blessings to you too Techie. You are an inspiration to the rest of us and thanks for being part of the army.

Waves to everyone else. Busy day ahead, doggie walk, getting hair done and then travelling west for funeral.

[Slo]

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It’s just part of being in a blackout, Satz. Anyone who is blackout drunk can do such things…the memory is no longer functioning.

[mollyka]

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Afternoon all.
I am so pissed off - YS has fallen off the wagon again. No reason - just drank on Monday while out cycling . Arrived home without the bike and didn't even realise he hadn't got it - Jesus.
When I asked he said "it's at the side of the house" - I said 'no it's not'.
He didn't remember where he left it.
Later he went & found it outside Aldi where he had put it. He went in presumably to buy drink and then walked out & forgot the bloody bike. Like WTF.

I don't care what they say but I KNOW I WAS NEVER THAT BAD !! ....... it's like he turns from a bright, astute, intelligent man into someone who behaves like he has a brain injury or something. If I behaved like that I would do EVERYTHING to stop.
Yesterday he drank again & now gone today when I got home.

Why would anyone want to live like that?

I really can't understand it and I am not going to even try anymore.

To the greater MWO community : has anyone ever done something comparable .............completely forgotten that they left home with a bike. But then walked home, in the full cycling gear, without it ?
Not even noticing he didn't have the bike

I'm so sorry...there's nothing to say really...its like an untreated disease ....did you see ANY tiny change even before the relapse? You wouldn't imagine going out on a bike with it in your head to get drink.
You're all living on a very difficult rollercoaster...make sure you and MrS are strong enough to cope with it xx

[techie]

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Hello friends. I?m sorry to read your post Satzy. I will continue to hold you and family in the light. It?s all I have to give. Blessings x

[mollyka]

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The only thing I know Molls is that day he cycled a good few miles and collected social welfare of 400€ .

Ye know the thing that annoys me is he will drink now for days maybe weeks - then when he's had enough of it ......I'll have to pick up the pieces - get him to a doctor for Librium - sober him up.......... until the next time !!

Would I be right in saying that that was more than one weeks benefit? Could it be that he was purposely saving it up so he could have a 'proper' binge? I would never have gone on a binge unless I had the wherewithal to sustain it till it was over -- be it with drinks piled up somewhere or plenty of loot in my pocket --
If that is the case it would mean that he had planned it... not an impromptu sort of cycle by the offie and suddenly decide to go in and buy a bottle? If that is the case - well then he would be playing you imo --- (I DID ALL THIS so not being pious or anything) - staying sober long enough to make everyone happy with me -- happy families - then the 'relapse' isn't the disaster that a relapse straight on top of a relapse would be.... I could be and probably am completely wrong -- only commenting as in my past behaviours.... if you could get to the bottom of that it would surely change your attitude one way or the other to his drinking?

as always --- said with love xxx

[rustop59]

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Morning all

Funny enough that same thought came into my head. Think it could be tied in with getting the lump sum. Bloody exhausting for yourself and Mr S though. Molly has more insight into the thinking behind it. I wasn?t a binge drinker, it was more continuous and overdoing it every so often. The drink was always there so didn?t have to plan. All you can do is to try and look after yourself.

Long day yesterday but himself did all the driving, I even had a snooze so I guess I should not complain. Need to get stuff ready for the weekend. We are going with a group from Dublin and he will guide us. Usually about 20 people. We go via ferry and in a mini bus. Already questioning myself why I agree to these things. Better than drinking any day of the week though.

[mollyka]

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Morning all

Funny enough that same thought came into my head. Think it could be tied in with getting the lump sum. Bloody exhausting for yourself and Mr S though. Molly has more insight into the thinking behind it. I wasn?t a binge drinker, it was more continuous and overdoing it every so often. The drink was always there so didn?t have to plan. All you can do is to try and look after yourself.

Long day yesterday but himself did all the driving, I even had a snooze so I guess I should not complain. Need to get stuff ready for the weekend. We are going with a group from Dublin and he will guide us. Usually about 20 people. We go via ferry and in a mini bus. Already questioning myself why I agree to these things. Better than drinking any day of the week though.

Oh never question yourself for something like that --- you are so right -- and put me to shame!

Yes -- binge (or occasional drinkers) are much more conniving than someone who drinks all the time -- well I think so anyway --- I could literally go 6 months without even THINKING of a drink (or THINKING I didn't think of a drink......) but I think in the back of my head I was always looking for that window -- time to myself - off work - no visitors expected -- and plenty of bottles in hiding -- then pretty much drank till I blacked out really (used to call it going to sleep) -- but it needs so much more organisation than the regular drinker who just tops up in the kitchen on the sly....

have a wonderful time -- it sounds really quite exciting -- you must be fiercely fit!!!! check in if you can xx

[rustop59]

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OMG Satz you really are going through the ringer. Thinking of you :hug::hug:

[mollyka]

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YS just said he can't go on drinking so maybe ............ let him off !!
Anyhoo as I said YS has taken up enough of my energy both emotionally & physically over the past 10 years.

Meanwhile my younger brother is close to dying with cancer .... the doctors are meeting today to discuss whether to stop treatment as it is not shrinking the tumour.
May possibly be only palliative care from now on. Can't operate as the tumour is dangerously close to the main artery in his head.
So as it grows they expect a catastrophic haemorrhage. which I've heard is one of the most frightening thing to witness ) So he'd be better off in the hospice I think 'cos it's not fair on his wife to cope with that.

So sorry to hear that

..you've a lot on alright...take care x