Evening Nest,
Yes Lav, it was a treat being outside and not be frozen in seconds. And it was sunny, to boot.
Ava, glad you're doing so well. And look! You're moving in the right direction, making better food choices. You go, girlie.
Kensho, yeah, doesn't he believe you when you tell him your hiding stories? Have you told him about the incident with your daughter when she saw you sipping from your closet? Maybe if he knows it was a common occurrence he would begin to understand. Does he know you're on MWO? I hope he begins to understand. We need support from our SO and not to be sabotaged. My husband and son know how bad I was. I wasn't good at hiding any of it as my word slurring, trips to the hospital, and just obvious drunkenness is super easy to see. We need to put ourselves first in early sobriety and take this disease seriously. Has he ever watched anything on addiction? Maybe if he would, then he may understand you better. I don't know if there are any al-anon videos out there but maybe there are on YouTube. Just some thoughts to help you to help him understand that this is not just quitting something like gum chewing, but a real addiction.
I was thinking about some things regarding moods being directly related to any urges we may have. For example, when we're tired, hungry..the HALT I've read, I know can cause that wobbly feeling and trigger your urges and cravings. I know my anxiety is a big trigger and just feeling down, depressed can trigger those thoughts. So I need to recognize my moods, as our moods will not always be on the positive end of the spectrum. Just being aware of how we are feeling might be enough to prevent a disaster from occurring, or it can help us to plan accordingly.
So it was a fun "day" date today. We left the house around 3:00 and got home around 7:30. First we went to a restaurant we've never been to. It was really good! I even had a little chocolate dessert with coffee and I was more than satisfied. Then we went to Trader Joe's which hubby has been wanting to go to for a really long time. Well, we went and loved that, too. Prices were awesome.
What I realized is that just a change in my Saturday routine that was so much different from my drinking Saturdays was enough for me to not feel deprived or have a pity party. Two places I've never been to, I don't associate these places with booze, and neither place sold alcohol. And we had fun looking at all these foods that were different from what we're used to eating. So, good stuff today.
Tomorrow is a "getting ready for the week" day. We also have my great nephew's birthday party to go to. The best part...the party is in a church hall and NO BOOZE will be served!!
Have a good night.
Jvo
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