Newbies Nest
Grego is right about those genes. Some got em...some don't. I read something quite wise a few months ago....it went something like this:
Alcohol addiction is not a choice....but we CAN choose NOT to drink.
As for WHY I am this way....it doesn't matter...because I am. No wishing will change that. So, I have finally accepted that. And that has liberated me from a life of hell and saved me from an earlier than expected death. I stopped fooling myself that my drinking was just a bad habit that had gotten out of control. I let go of the fiction that I could have "just one or two" and stop there. I never really ever wanted just one anyway. I wanted 20. I wanted to feel the buzz. No matter what you want to call it... an addiction, a disease, a dysfunction....alcohol and my body don't mix well. So now I keep it out of my body.
I've got good news for the newbies and the newly returned...the longer you are AF the less you have to struggle with cravings. It think this is easiest for those who have ditched the feeling of deprivation early on.
Next time you get a craving or a thought about drinking...do not allow it to torture you. USE that as an opportunity to make your AF muscles stronger. In fact, don't wait for the urge to come along to really celebrate how wonderful it is to live AF. Every morning - before I even get out of bed - I take time to think about all I am grateful for. I do the same before I go to sleep. And, ANY TIME a rogue urge comes along I hook it off center stage of my brain before it can start its tap dance. I NEVER had a buzz from AL that equals the feelings I have now!
Last night in chat, a couple of us were talking about the weirdness of the physical act of drunk drinking - the kind that all of us here have done. If you were an alien from Planet Gork and you walked into a bar - what would you make of the humanoids who pour 'mass quantities' of a poisonous substance down their throats - a substance that alters their ability to think and even physically move about? It's pretty silly. And for those of us who have been poisoned...it is tragic.
The fact that we are here and recognize that we can no longer go on the way we have been is a good thing. Today....see yourself as a strong person who is healing. Flex those muscles!
Grego is right about those genes. Some got em...some don't. I read something quite wise a few months ago....it went something like this:
Alcohol addiction is not a choice....but we CAN choose NOT to drink.
As for WHY I am this way....it doesn't matter...because I am. No wishing will change that. So, I have finally accepted that. And that has liberated me from a life of hell and saved me from an earlier than expected death. I stopped fooling myself that my drinking was just a bad habit that had gotten out of control. I let go of the fiction that I could have "just one or two" and stop there. I never really ever wanted just one anyway. I wanted 20. I wanted to feel the buzz. No matter what you want to call it... an addiction, a disease, a dysfunction....alcohol and my body don't mix well. So now I keep it out of my body.
I've got good news for the newbies and the newly returned...the longer you are AF the less you have to struggle with cravings. It think this is easiest for those who have ditched the feeling of deprivation early on.
Next time you get a craving or a thought about drinking...do not allow it to torture you. USE that as an opportunity to make your AF muscles stronger. In fact, don't wait for the urge to come along to really celebrate how wonderful it is to live AF. Every morning - before I even get out of bed - I take time to think about all I am grateful for. I do the same before I go to sleep. And, ANY TIME a rogue urge comes along I hook it off center stage of my brain before it can start its tap dance. I NEVER had a buzz from AL that equals the feelings I have now!
Last night in chat, a couple of us were talking about the weirdness of the physical act of drunk drinking - the kind that all of us here have done. If you were an alien from Planet Gork and you walked into a bar - what would you make of the humanoids who pour 'mass quantities' of a poisonous substance down their throats - a substance that alters their ability to think and even physically move about? It's pretty silly. And for those of us who have been poisoned...it is tragic.
The fact that we are here and recognize that we can no longer go on the way we have been is a good thing. Today....see yourself as a strong person who is healing. Flex those muscles!
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