My last drink was 12/06/08
I have been back to my old happy self and my life has been great... until yesterday.
I blew up, everything that I have been holding back has come out. Personal/business
I've been in a fog for a long time. Now that I'm sober and looking around, I don't like what I see. I know I cant drink so that is not an option.
I find myself sitting here saying what the fuck is the point of my hard work if no one appreciates it. I make a lot of money and provide a lot of things but there is no teamwork. Maybe I expect too much out of my wife. She is very comfortable transfering the stress/pressure of "all this" to me.
We work together and has told me that she does not want to take any more responsibility and learn. That was not the plan. So now I say to myself... No Future. Why am I killing myself if she will not be a team player.
In the last year, I have been picking up the slack for her because she is not getting the job done. So now I feel like I'm going to do what I want and not what I'm supposed to do.
Am I wrong, will this pass? I am deeply hurt. If she doesn't give a shit, Why should I?
On the personal side, I blew up again last night. Every week, a women comes to clean the house. Every week, she finds a way to get out of the straiting up the house and I have to do it or she waits until 10:00 to start. I come home ready to get the job done so I can relax the rest of the night. I'm not going to help her if she starts at 10. So I do my part as best I can and get disturbed why I am trying to relax. I feel it looks like i'm not doing my part sitting down and she is cleaning.
Am I wrong, will this pass? I am deeply hurt. If she doesn't give a shit, Why should I?
Rambling, any advice would be nice.
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