Simply Sober October - Week 3

[Stargazerlily]

Good morning to all...

Dark and rainy this morning, a perfect day to go to work!!

Lav, YB is on the road to healing thanks to your help. Does he ever consider staying home? Just wondered if that is even something that you want.

Pap, back to work today, hope your weekend was great.

I have to get ready for work, so sending out wishes for a great week. :h

[rustop59]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Good morning everyone

Thanks for starting us off Star, where is the time going to, cannot believe it's week 3 already.

It seems high gas prices are everywhere. My car is 5 years old and it now costs double what it did 5 years ago to fill it.

Bright and sunny here this morning but rain is promised. Going to get out in the garden for a while. Have a great week everyone.

Rustop

[BlondeAFAmbition]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Where do I begin? First, it is so reassuring to come back here and see some familiar names. Bless you for being here. I am back to square one...day one. Why do I do this to myself? When I've quit in the past, I feel so good...why do I go back to the same old pattern? Had yesterday off, started drinking in the afternoon. Drank so many glasses of wine I lost count. This has got to stop. HELP. Do I have the strength to do this again? But there isn't any choice.

I wish I could spend my day on here, especially today but I have to go to work. Full day ahead. My plan? Work till 4PM. gym till 5:30, home by 6PM, eat dinner right away. Have some tea, come on MWO, maybe read a book...more tea. Today I feel like I am facing a mountain. Please pull for me...send me PM's whatever...I feel I need all the help I can get.

Missed all of you this summer. Sorry I strayed but here I am. Have a good day everyone and I hope to be writing here same time same place, waking up sober for the first time in months, tomorrow.

Love,

BlondeAF

[Lavande]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Good morning October friends!

Welcome back Blondie!
Glad you have decided to come back & join the sanity
It is important IMHO to pinpoint the reason(s) we choose to drink! It is always a choice......why do we make that poor choice over & over?
In my case is was a long case of unresolved depression & denial about someone important in my life, my husband.
You know what you need to do, I wish you the best!

Greetings Star, Rustop & everyone! Cloudy here this morning, rain moving in later, oh well!

Off to Curves I go then back here to get to some business that has been put off.
Have a great AF Monday!

Lav

[Chillgirl]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Happy Sober week 3 guys! Thanks for starting us off Star, cool and rainy here too....

Rustop - My car is 9 years old and unlike the efficient new cars it costs 170 pounds a years to tax :upset:, which I have just paid and it really hurts uch: the parking cost everywhere now are so expensive too.

Lav - Business as usual now the patient has gone, I hope he showed his appreciation. Most women would have very unpolitely told their estranged husbands where to go.

BLONDIE!!!!! Wonderful to have you back and focused on staying sober. Good to hear you making a plan for your time, for me sticking to a plan was crucial to fill the gap of the witching hours. We need to let it register in our brains that moderation just doesnt work, its another cunning trick played by the alcohol dependant mind. We are here to support you and I know from before that you will give it the comitment required. WELCOME BACK! :l

I had a wonderful weekend with Starty! The conference focused lots on happiness, on our inner dialogue with ourselves and what living richly really means. It was a good reminder of certain things but also great reinforcement that I am already doing lots right. Im getting impatient however on the job front and hope something turns up soon.

For anyone interested, the Chopra Centre are doing another 21 day meditation challenge starting 5th November which you can register for now (Lav I know you will already have done so) It is a fantastic way to get into the habit and doesnt demand much of your time. I cant recommend it enough. https://www.chopracentermeditation.com/Bestsellers/LandingPage.aspx?BookId=172

[Lavande]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Hey Chill,
I signed up for the Chopra challenge right after you did

I considered (just for a few seconds) telling YB to get lost but when someone shows up in obvious distress ~ I can't say no. He is back on his own turf now, I think he can handle the rest by himself - they way he prefers to be anyway.

The rain has started & I suppose it's bringing colder weather along with it as usual this time of year.
Now - time to get some work done - I am behind a bit!

[Kaslo]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Hi everyone, Rusty, Star, Chill... everyone sounds good. I thought I might drop in and say hello. Special hello and welcome back to BlondeA, you CAN do it, you have the desire to do it. I remember last year how happy you were, I think it was around this time of year?

Lav, you are a fine person.

Yesterday was my 19th month, from Feb 14 2011 to Oct 14, 2012. (I think thats 19, math is not my strong point, lol!). I am doing nothing special, just not even going there in my mind.

I sure hope some of the other missing folks are ok.

October is so beautiful.


Kaslo

[Lavande]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Great to see you Kas & CONGRATS on your AF time - you rock
I have been meaning to drop you an email but as you can see my life kinda spiraled out of control last week. But I'm back in charge once again & YB is safely tucked away in his little hovel & out of my hair :H :H

I'm really beginning to think I prefer it this way.....if you know what I mean

[papmom3]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

I'm at work but promise to hop on tonite and properly welcome back kas and blonde! Hang on there blonde! You can do this!

[BlondeAFAmbition]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Hi everyone! Thanks to Lav, Chill, Kas, Pap et all for your warm welcomes and words of wisdom. I knew I could count on you guys, as always. It's actually been a good day for me today. Well, sort of. I didn't go into detail this morning on how rotten I felt...hungover, disgusted with my self really. I got to work by 8AM and felt worse. I actually had to throw up 2x and blamed it on a virus "I must have gotten" instead of fessing up on how hungover I was. Since there has been a bug floating around, no one was suprised. I stuck it out as long as I could and did what was absolutely necessary on my Monday morning routine (ummm...payroll for one thing or else the staff wouldn't get paid this week!). By 1PM, my afternoon help arrived and I went home early. The first time ever. I got into bed and took a nap...when I woke, I started reading the Jason Vale book again. Took the dog for a walk and got some fresh air, was actually nice here today. Just had dinner and checking in on here. Gotta stock up on my flavored seltzers again as I'm plum out, so it's lots of herbal tea for me tonight. I'm feeling better not nauseous anymore. Didn't have the strength to work out at the gym, which is my usual Monday routine. My usual Monday routine also included sucking down a bottle of wine afterwards...I don't have the craving for that tonight but I know I need to be prepared when it strikes as I know it will.

As I said earlier, I missed you guys. Thanks for cheering me on.

BlondeAF

[dill]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Star, thanks for starting us off on week 3! it's been a golden October day here.

Welcome back, Blonde. You disappeared from the thread about the time I returned. I look forward to getting to know you. Glad you came back. I know exactly how you feel about returning and finding old friends. Very comforting..

Welcome Jenni, I hope you stick around!

Chill, Lav, Rustop, Pmom, et.al., my internet is acting up so will just wish all an AF evening.

[ladybirdheart]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Blondie, welcome home! The last thing I recall was that you were all excited about the possibility of moving and then you disappeared. I am glad you are OK except for what has ailed each of us at one time or another, I feel very confident in your ability to recover and live a healthy, happy, clear life. I often enjoy the organic coconut oil you suggested and remember you. Get ready for an alcohol free night, so sweet even if one doesn't sleep, just be. Dill, I did not know about your car, very cool. When Lord Bird Heart bought his Smart Car, he really wanted an all electric one but they were not available as yet. I hope everybody has a fine evening. It feels here like a brief return to Spring, I have the windows open, and a nice fellow came with big tanks and power washers and helped me clean my pond for winter, the fish are zippy, the air is fresh. Love, Ladybird.

[BlondeAFAmbition]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Thanks Dill and LBH! Good to see you guys are still here. Glad you are liking the coconut oil LBH...me too. I have some every day. It's good to be home . Hubs and I haven't moved...but are still thinking of moving to Maine. In fact, we are going up on Friday for the day to look at a few places to rent before we buy a house, but it is still very preliminary. We need to find jobs, etc. Sell our condo in Mass, etc. Lots to think about but at least we are starting to imagine life there and what neighborhoods we would like to live in (we're thinking about Southern Maine...around Portland).

Having a quiet evening...hubs is teaching his class tonight and won't be home till 10PM. I'm on my 2nd cup of tea and am giving myself a foot bath in lavender scent...always feels so good to slip under the covers after doing that. That and a double bagger cup of Sleepytime tea should send me to la la land. I haven't had a good night's sleep for several months due to AL so I am ready tonight. That's one thing I sorely missed. That and getting up sober. I remember that Chill said once that waking up sober every day is like winning the lottery and dang, she hit the nail on the head with that one! So, tomorrow I will be winning the lottery...the prize will be a night's sobriety under my belt. Here's to many more!

Peace, that's what I'm feeling tonight. Relief. Oh, and cozy toes Nighty night my dear friends.

[Rusty]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Good Evening Sober Ones,

A cheery hello from St. Louis:wavin: I am taking my Environmental Management Systems ourse this week, which will be the key to launching me into a whole new aspect of my career, focusing on pollution prevention, emphasis on recycling, and providing a safe workplace for employees. My instructor is a jovial man who has a wonderful sense of humor. I spent last evening with my dear friend, Laura, who is a US attorney near here. She's quite a survivor. I dated her brother when I was in graduate school. Their mother was an active alcoholic until she died of oral cancer at 75. My friend's sister is a psychiatrist who also has AL issues. My friend was mentioning all the lies her sister tells her to cover her drinking, and how at their niece's wedding last year, her sister showed up late and under the influence. I didn't share my secret with her. I prefer to leave that skeleton in the closet for now. Laura doesn't drink and prefers to be around people who are AF, due to all the hurt her mother and sister caused the family.

Blonde! Welcome back.:l I hope you're feeling better now after "driving the big white bus" because of your hangover. Ugh....yes, my last hangover was just like that....sitting on the toilet whilst my head was wedged in the waste basket. I'm glad you came back here. We missed you! You mentioned the seltzers....oh yeah, lemon LaCroix and Perrier are my favorites. You know what really tastes good and is a bona fide antioxidant....mix organic cranberry juice, seltzer and squeeze in a lemon wedge. Delicious!

Welcome, Jennie! Stay with us....we're a close-knit group.

Lav-I'm glad YB is back to taking care of himself after his surgery. I admire your compassion.

LBH-I chuckled when you said you wear hair in braids ala Heidi. Yo-De-Lay-EE-OOH!!:H. Regarding the clothes....I bet you could still wear the prairie dress and the matching white pantaloons and look fabulous.

Pap-I am so glad that you had enough money to get you through the week and a little extra....great job on the saving and making wise decisions.:goodjob:

A big hi and hugs to Dill, Star, Rustop, Chill and everyone else I may have missed....have a simply sober night.

[papmom3]

Simply Sober October - Week 3

Hey Blonde,
Here I am as promised even tho you are probably doing zzzzzzzs by now.
Your experience this morning is almost word for word what happened to me the day I decided to say goodby to AL forever (except for 2 one night slips). I just couldn't take the hangover's anymore and I truly felt like people at work were about to figure it all out (the fatigue, the calling in sick, the droopy eyelids, the constant sinus problems etcJ). So, even tho I slipped those 2 nites (one month apart), I always knew the goal I was reaching for and why. It no longer was a matter of could I do this and not miss having AL in my life, it was a matter of life and death. I knew deep in my heart I was heading towards an early death. I don't know if you are at the point yet-and I truly hope you are not-but I do hope you are at the point where you can truly see that a life without AL is a life worth living. No more BS about whether or not you can moderate or if your life will be empty without AL. The answer is NO to both questions.
We are here to support you and I swear to god, if you disappear again I will personally come up to the North Shore and hunt you down .
Just ask yourself this one question: Do you really have another quit in you if this one doesn't stick (I know I don't)?. So let's hope it does.

:l :h