April Acceptance

[treegirl]

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Nite nite -

So glad to hear everyone's voices here today! Thanks all for taking the time to post, it is so good to know that we are all still walking together.

SK, good for you on the sugar front. I wouldn't be surprised to hear that fatigue is a part of sugar detox. Are you doing any herbal teas to help? Keep it up!

Lav, the fodmaps protocol calls onions, garlic, and mushrooms "illegal"! Must be how they feed the bad bacteria that I am trying to eradicate. I figure if it can make my face that inflamed, I can't imagine what it's doing to my gut! I am determined to heal and get rid of these intolerances... I can do it if I stay the course now. Today was better, and my skin is slowly healing. One small victory.

Wishing all a good night.

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Nice to hear from everyone.

Pauly, off today, have any fun plans? We are having family over on Sunday, so get to clean, shop and cook today and tomorrow. Did you drink again? I thought I saw that on another page, we are here for you, if you want to talk. Irritable, restless, discontent, that is how I get and it makes me want to drink, now I have people to call, meetings to go to, stuff to read, spiritual principles to work on. I am getting through those horrible feelings. Not always easy but I am determined to make this my last quit, two months ago I felt so sick, sad, and just plain disgusted (and scared). Now I have a support system and can reach out if I need help. We deserve to be AF.

Lav, how wonderful to be so close to crab cakes, lucky you. We are going out to eat tonight for hubby's birthday, but not sure where. Landlocked, no fresh seafood close at all. It is still so cold here, snow flurries expected tonight, high 39 tomorrow, unbelievable, but next Thursday, 65 degrees predicted, we'll see. How great to have a NP you can trust and have a partnership to discuss health issues as an equal.

Skendall, that poor neighbor sounds like she has anxiety, afraid to even except a chocolate easter egg for her kid from a nice neighbor. What a way to live and that poor kid, her captive. Lucky you to have warmer weather, we could use some here.

Cyn, my daughter knows how she needs to eat and not drink, it is up to her to follow the plan. She has gone to a naturopath, followed the protocol for a few months and was so much better. Then, she decided to cheat, and it was all over, although not as bad as previously. She mostly looks and feels better, now female issues, for that a regular ob-gyn. It runs in our family to have issues, I hope she takes care of them sooner than I did. All that unnecessary suffering. Avoiding onion and garlic is tough, both are in so many recipes, home cooked food is probably your best bet. Glad you are feeling better and healing. I am very happy having 60 days AF, this is just the beginning for me, I have to make this my last quit, I am done feeling sick and using poison in my body. Alcohol does nothing for me anymore.

Today, exercise, meeting, cleaning, laundry and out for dinner. Hope you all have a useful, productive, positive day.

[SKendall]

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Star, good for you on 60 days. Your determination and new thinking is definitely working for you.:happy2:

Cyn, will check out herbal teas. I felt fab on day 2 and downhill since. I feel physically ill and exhausted so will do a google research

.Pauly, take care.

Lav, will post later.

[SKendall]

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Afternoon update. I'm feeling so much better than this a.m. I ate a lot of sugar, so I should expect a serious detox. Headache still lingering.

I went out this a.m. for tire check up and a.c. - since when did a shot of freon cost $87.00? Anyway there was a mirror in the car bay and in absolute daylight, my face needs ironing!

Went to vet and re-sale shop for a stuffed animal and bought a nice purse for $6.00. TX now has a mandate for compulsory heart-worm testing.

We are expecting t/storms most of the night. It looks as if that could happen any minute.

[Lavande]

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Good dvening friends,

Yep, still chilly here but the sun finally made an appearance around 3 pm. Tomorrow’s big storn has been downgraded so whatever snow we get should only stick to grassy areas. I guess I should be grateful, Lol

Pauly, if I haven’t already I will give you my number, you can text me when you need some Lavan-itude, OK?
And please change jobs....that place has a history of throwing you off track. We want what you want, we can do this together.

Star, I’m beginning to wonder if winter is ever going to leave, geez.
The broiled crabcake was good but not exactly low calorie, ha ha!
I really do appreciate my two NPs & their willingness to listen & respond appropriately. I don’t know too many doctors who have even basic social skills, they're mostly just nerds with a medical degree.
I hope eveything is OK with your daughter. I’ve been watching & listening to mine, hoping she doesn’t inherit all my stuff too.

SK, I think breaking a sugar addiction can be difficult. I acquired a sugar problem after I stopped drinking. After a few months I solved that problem with some L glutamine, it works. But it was a little rough on my gut so I didn’t take it too long.
I hope the weather is not too bad yonight for you & Peggy.
I avoid mirrors & photos as much as possible, ha ha! My drivers license & passport photos look like some okd hag, not me, Lol

Cyn, glad you are getting some relief from your eczema. It takes time to heal, I know.
I hope you din’t get slammed with too much weather tomorrow, we don’t need this.

My nephew’s son & his partner had a baby boy this morning making my 48 yr old nephew a first time grandfather. It occurred to me later tgat it makes me a great great aunt. Does that sound old, odd, ridiculous? Ha ha.
I’m already at work making them a reading pillow with the baby’s stats embroidered on the pocket. Now I really sound like an okd hag, ha ha.

Have a nice night everyone!
Lav

[paulywogg]

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Congrats on the new family addition Lav I'll still post here of course,you peeps have helped me try to get my mind,body and spirit right throughout all of this,I'm not sure what threw me off this time,I did have an argument with Michelle the day before but I didn't think I let it bug me that bad but I hindsight maybe it did who knows? But no excuses,,figure I'll post here and in the nest cuz I've sometimes felt like I spread myself a little thin trying to be on too many threads at once,posting the same thing over and over and not remembering where and who knows what,I dunno,hoping we all have a nice night of rest and healing

[treegirl]

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Evening all -

Pauly, so good to have you posting, thanks. I believe in you.

SK, lol on the daylight views of oneself! Did you say that you felt better after you ate sugar? I wasn't quite sure what helped you feel better. I imagine that going off of sugar can take a long time to detox... that might be the fatigue, I dunno. Good luck with the storm tonight.

Star, so glad to hear your daughter is doing well. So often with these things one misstep and the whole thing goes south --- I am trying to stay steady and strong. And yes, cook everything from scratch!

Lav, yep the beat goes on... don't you also have a nephew that has a partner with MS? How is she doing? So glad the storm has been downsized. The chicks happy in their new home?

Very tired tonight, so just going to bed early. I'll be working this weekend with my move client since next weekend I'll be gone for a wedding... I'm trying not to be too freaked out about food, or my complexion, or what I have that I could possibly wear to a FL farmhouse wedding...?

All will be well....

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Lav, it is colder than cold here, snow predicted tomorrow night into Monday, this is such a cold spring, I want spring!!!!! Congrats on your great great aunt status. I am a great aunt, and needed to send off a gift soon, a little boy also. He is really cute and sweet, wished I lived closer so I could hold him. I love babies, they are so beautiful.

Pauly, I get where you are at, I was there two months ago. It is so hard, all I can do is share my experience with you. Looking in the mirror in Feb. and seeing what I had become, again, I am willing to do whatever it takes, for as long as it takes. It was the hardest thing to walk into an AA meeting, but I did it because I felt I was going to die if I did not do something different. I am very grateful I did. I have met some great people, have a super sponsor, in two short months my life is totally different, in a positive way. Was it scary and humbling, yes, very much so. I cried so hard, not believing how low I felt. The people there understood, they are the same as all of us here, no shaming, and just being there to help. That is what I needed, and it is still daily work to stay sober, and will probably the rest of my life. I am just one drink away from going back, as I have always been. I have had good runs AF, but always went back, because my mind/thinking tells me having a drink is OK, and for some insane reason I think I can drink normally. But I can't, as has been proven over and over again. If you want to talk, IM me on FB, we can call each other or text, whatever you need. I don't have all the answers, but having someone who gets it is helpful, for me. I want to be there for you if you want that.

Cyn, hope you are feeling better, take care.

Skendall, giving up sugar is not easy, once I start with sugar, it is hard for me to stop too. Normally I can't have candy or anything in the house or I eat it. Period. Fruit is OK, but who pigs out on fruit I ask you? Not me.

Have a great AF Saturday.

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,supposed to hit 90 degrees today with a lot of wind,I'll take the 90 but not the darn wind!Star,yup,that self hatred is worse than any kind of hate from someone else I felt so strong until I didn't and that scares me,Cyn,hope your skin issues sort themselves out,could be stress? Waves to SK and Lav,wishes for a great AF Saturday

[SKendall]

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Good afternoon.

Last night's thunderstorms turned into a tornado warning and the sirens were going off, the wind was wild and hail the size of baseballs was predicted. I tried to cover up the front of the car with an old quilt because years ago my car had hundreds of dings from a similar storm. The temp went from 87 to 38. Poor Peggy was shaking like a leaf. It was a long night for sure and the weather is in the 40's today.

I went out this morning and despite weighing the quilt down with bricks it was across the parking lot, but my car did survive the hail. Very weird and dramatic weather for sure. I was in capris and t-shirt to my down-filled coat today.

DD said they were too busy for Viv to come over this w/end and since I hadn't seen her for Easter I asked if I could drop by. I bought her 3 summer casual outfits that I wanted her to have. I was told to come between 11:30 and 1:00. It was a very, awkward meeting and Vivian was uncomfortable also. Every Easter since Viv was 2 I have sent her lollipops from Williams-Sonoma that they only have at Easter, along with chocolate ladybugs. I told her the lollipops hadn't arrived and she said they were delivered to her. I can see that b/c W-S has her address too and I probably clicked on that one. It was only troubling because there was no thanks. DD was raised to send thank-you notes or phone people who had sent her gifts. Over the last few years DD has forgotten the thank you's, and I wish those particular manners had been taught to Vivian for her sake. Anyway, not to dwell, I will have a gentle word with Viv next week. When she received the first one's at 3 she did call and thank me because she said they were adowable, lol.

I'm tired and cranky today probably lack of sleep.

Lav, a new life in the spring is so special.

Pauly, I'm so glad you will continue to post here as well as in the NN. We all believe in you and have your back. When it is really windy in Vegas I imagine it kicks up a lot of dust and pollen and dust is everywhere. I do notice here I need to surface clean more than in WA state because it's flat and the wind carries. Oh, look how boring I am. Just in a funk and questioning about living here again.

Cyn, I hope your skin issues abate somewhat. A friend of mine who had rosacea used a green-based make-up when she had break outs. What are you wearing to the wedding?

Star, I am really enjoying reading your "on this journey" posts. Thank you for sharing and your posts are a good reminder for us all, as we journey with you. Luckily, I don't crave alcohol anymore but sugar had become my new addiction as a hypoglycaemic and a lot of alcoholics are also hypoglycaemic.

Beautiful male cardinals in the feeder today with some finches and sparrows. I had to chase the squirrel away a few times this a.m.

My sister and I were exchanging emails last night and she said I caused her to wet her pants laughing. A great positive.

I'm sure to cheer up when the sun comes out. Low barometric pressure has always affected my moods.

Sorry for the moan.

[treegirl]

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Evening all -

SK, I can imagine you causing your sister to do that! You have a very funny and wry sense of humor. I find it hard to keep a good outlook without having had enough sleep - good luck with all. That storm sounds horrendous! Glad you are safe. Yes, I have the green makeup, but with acne spots, I end up looking like a leopard! No idea what I will wear to FL... uuugh.

Pauly, you are wonderful and as SK says, we have your back. You are doing it, just keep at it, never give up. (Hugs)

Star, sorry about the weather - my friends in MN are getting slammed too - one posted that it was 4 below zero one day last week. Eeeek! Hope whatever snow you get today melts fast. Congrats on your journey, and thanks for posting about how you feel -- it is great to know how you are really feeling.

Lav, did you dodge the weather bullet today? 3 inches for us yesterday, but it has melted in the strong sun. Not from the temps, though, it felt bitter cold this morning in the wind as I was walking my pooch! I hope your ' boys'will be OK fishing up north... th re's yet another potential Nor'easter in the making next week, but hopefully it will not develop.

Worked hard with my client today and now will do a couple of paperwork chores that I am behind on... not saying I am a ball of fire... I did listen to my meditation today, the first time in a while -- I need to do that everyday, or I lose confidence in myself, especially with all this health stuff. I actually did a little (as in very little) yoga as well. So I am trying to do the right things, and not just trudge along.

So, here's this week's mantra:

"I feel confidence growing daily". We can use a 'shot on the arm,' right?

May we be well --

[Lavande]

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Good evening friends,

Well, our storm never arrived - go figure!
It's been chilly with no sun all day so everyone's mood is just a bit low. My but is dragging because I no longer have my afternoon caffeine boost but I am sleeping a bit better.

Pauly, I hope you remember that I did ALL of my slips & falls from grace before joining MWO!
Once I found this place I decided that this has to be my last & final quit, there will be no more chances for me. I had enough self-hatred going on at the time & my grandson was born. That was it for me!!!! No looking back, regardless of what's going on around me. YB walked out on me 15 months later & stayed away for 4 years, I did not drink. My brother died, my brother-on-law committed suicide next door, I did not drink. I found grace again in gratitude for all of the good things that were going on in my life. I had two more grandchildren born & developed good relationships with them so I wasn't going to mess that up by drinking. For all the bad days & all the good days I made a choice not to drink! I certainly could have but decided that it wasn't in my best interest. You can do the same thing, make the same choice because drinking is not in your best interest either.
I was sick to death of repeating the same old, habitual pattern, bet you are too :hug:

Cyn, this new grandfather is the nephew I spoke about before. His wife has given up trying all the crazy MS meds & is now altering her diet. There's been a lot of research recently on managing autoimmune conditions with clean eating. I've sent her tons of reading material, she's liking it so far.
Going to a farmhouse wedding in FL? Don't think I would overdress for that one, ha ha! Good luck

I just got an alert that 1 person has died in the Trump Tower fire in NYC. It was a three alarm fire - big!

Star, sorry this weather is so sh*tty for you as well. Everything is going to be so late blooming this year. My weeping cherry was in full bloom this time last year but not this year.
Congrats on your new baby boy in the family too! I'll send you a picture on messenger of the pillow I made for this baby.(Can't post it here because it has his full name on it).
Just finished it up this afternoon.

SK, I'm sorry your Easter plan with Viv didn't work out. We really do look forward to spending special moments with them, I get that. Yesterday was my grandson's birthday but I don't know when my son will be bringing him over. Can't go to their house because of my nasty DIL. Her parents are visiting for the weekend from NJ - swell.
Your storms are really frightening to hear about. I guess if I had to choose I think I would keep the weather we have here, I'm so used to dealing with it even I do plenty of complaining. Glad you didn't have any damage. Poor Peggy though - have you tried giving her doggie downers? Hyland's Calms Forte for dogs helps I've heard. I had a Rx for one dog that was the doggie version of Thorazine, boy did that ever work! I used to sedate her before taking her to the vet because she was so reactive to anyone touching her.
I hope you are feeling a little better tonight

I spent some time outside assisting with the fencing job for the chicken yard but my hands nearly froze, geez.
Hoping for a warmer day tomorrow with a touch of sunshine.
Have a nice night everyone!

Lav

[Snoopy56]

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Good morning...

Lav, it was fun to IM with you last night, I hope to get the info from my brother to place a pillow order. The weather here was sunny but cold, tonight is the snow forecast, yuck. Sorry you can't go to your son's to see your grandson, that is craziness, but I understand as my husband has family that are the same, we have no normal contact due to.....they are crazy and rotten? That did not sound right, but it is what it is.

Cyn, glad you were able to spend a little time for yourself, it is hard with physical stuff, it does get a person down. When I was having my eye issues, I was really upset. Thank goodness it went away in the last two months.

Skendall, that weather sounds wild, glad you are OK. Sorry about your daughter being so difficult, I don't get it. I appreciate your kind comments about my journey, it means alot. I worry about all of us who go back to drinking, I wondered how much more my body could take, let alone my emotions.

Pauly, hope you are feeling better, glad you are around, I have faith that you can do what you need to do for yourself. Any fun plans this weekend? We are having a birthday brunch for my husband, same menu as last weekend. He loves when his kids and grandkids come over, that is his present. Our kids understand that. So, I have to vacuum this morning as the little one crawls all over the house and puts anything in his mouth. Other than that, no cleaning because they love to get out the toys and make a mess, that is OK with me, it is just fun.

Alright, off to get another cup of coffee. Have a great AF day.

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,Star,hope you have a nice birthday brunch for hubs I'll probly cook the same menu today as last week too cuz LB is in town and wasn't here for Easter,Lav,that was a great post,thank you SK,sorry your visit with Vivian was awkward and there was no thank you for the gift glad your car made it through the storm,at least there's that positive Cyn,love this week's quote,thank you for always posting such positive ones that relate to our lives,had Romeo and Lou over here yesterday,Lou's happy to be back in his routine of coming to my house,I was going over there to watch them cuz they wanted to keep Romeo housebound til he had his shots,so that's good he's happy,Romeo is so big I'm gonna have to toss all the diapers I bought for over here cuz they're skin tight! I didn't expect him to be so big haha,anyhoo wishes for a great AF Sunday for us all!

[SKendall]

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Happy Sunday. Nothing much planned for today, except cleaning off the patio as well as I'm able.

Peggy and I went out this a.m. to discover a new playground. I wish I had weighed myself before doing the NS diet. I could lose about 10 lbs., but really did it for the physical improvement, and it's working. I sprayed Pam on the patio railing so now I am entertained by said squirrel hanging upside down.

Just bought some new make up by Thrive, very good stuff and my retail therapy needs to stop.

Happy wishes for everyone.