Army Thread Friday 15th June

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Army Thread Friday 15th June

Zenstyle;1335158 wrote: Lodger reportage... the chain came off the bike when he got on it last night... but fortunately someone at his work knew how to fix it. Apparently it is something to do with the way he starts off peddling.

This bike is a fucking disaster!

:H:H:H

[Anjicia]

Army Thread Friday 15th June

Jeezuz that lodger is havin a hard time with that bloody bike who wud believe it :H:H:H

[JackieClaire]

Army Thread Friday 15th June

Zenstyle;1335156 wrote: Did you see the torch Jacks?

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Army Thread Friday 15th June

Zenstyle;1335134 wrote: Reccy... When I read about your AL counsellor I thought exactly the same as Stirls... I'd be surprised if there isn't more to delve into there. I know how hard it is to be AF when you're not accountable to anyone but yourself... and I think that's part of the problem. How about we become AF buddies (like the scuba diving buddy system) and hold each other accountable. Total honesty required and a daily check-in on how each of us is doing.

Ok....it's a deal zenny. And how are you doing AL-wise at the moment? Am I right in thinking you've been AF for a little while now?

[Anjicia]

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Great pic of the tourch Jackie thanks for posting.

[expat3]

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JackieClaire;1335169 wrote: YYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

How cool!!! I'm so excited about the London Olympics! And it will be nice to watch the games on almost the same time zone-only one hour difference! Not have to wake up middle of the night or whatever.
Half watching the footie -France is winning. And half playing with the kids. And jumping in here too. Quite happy tonight.
Will do a proper read back in a bit. x

[stirly-girly]

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Zenstyle;1335157 wrote: Yoo Hoooo Stirls!Yoo Hooooo to you toooooo!!

Zenstyle;1335158 wrote: Lodger reportage... the chain came off the bike when he got on it last night... but fortunately someone at his work knew how to fix it. Apparently it is something to do with the way he starts off peddling.

This bike is a fucking disaster!

:H:HOh dear dawg. I have tears running down my face here. Oh lawdy, lawdy, lawdy!!!
Zenstyle;1335167 wrote: :H

OMG... trying to keep a straight face when he told me about the chain... LMAO!

I would have been snorting into my fist.....:H:H

[pingu1997]

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Zen.... I've let it be... For over a year. Been mindful, done other things, seen it as a positive thing

This obsession has only come about since I cut my Meds in half. Before I didn't have to face up to anything. Now I do.
I coud ask for higher Meds again but in my heart I want to sort this out once and for all and either accept I have a problem, or else I don't and therefore drink again.
Sorry but tats the way it is, honest and from my heart.....
Ill post some more in a few days
But expect me to be either committed to aa or pissed
Love p3 x

[pingu1997]

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Zenstyle;1335186 wrote: I'm hoping its the former and not the latter P3... :l:l:l

Me to zennie bum x

[Recluse]

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Zenstyle;1335185 wrote: Great!!! I'll shake on it! lol

I was doing great till I had a blip last week, but I pulled myself around sharpish... I didn't let it go past one night. Since then I've had AF time and also some nights when I've had one or two (I had to go out a lot this week and the situations were not conducive to AF) but kept it controlled. However, as we all know, "keeping it under control" only lasts for so long before you're right back where you started. So, beginning Monday, I'm freeing myself up from any situations that will be triggers for a while and back on the wagon.

Are you going to join me?!! )

I'll try!

[stirly-girly]

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Recluse;1335175 wrote: Ok....it's a deal zenny. And how are you doing AL-wise at the moment? Am I right in thinking you've been AF for a little while now?That sounds like a great idea for both of you. Sending you both huge :huggy's and virtual strength.

JackieClaire;1335169 wrote: YYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

Lovely picture Jackie!!
expat3;1335179 wrote: How cool!!! I'm so excited about the London Olympics! And it will be nice to watch the games on almost the same time zone-only one hour difference! Not have to wake up middle of the night or whatever.
Half watching the footie -France is winning. And half playing with the kids. And jumping in here too. Quite happy tonight.
Will do a proper read back in a bit. x

I was over the moon when the Olympics were held here in Athens. First and foremost, it was the biggest event ever that had happened since I had come to live in this country and secondly just the fact that thousands and thousands of people would be coming here from all over the world to celebrate together was amazing. The city was so beautifully decorated with thousands of colourful banners hanging from the light posts on the main highways running through the city...



The atmosphere was incredible - it was less of a competition and more of a celebration by the people who had come here to celebrate sports and support the athletes. And I got a present of tickets to the track and field events on the day of my birthday, accompanied by older son. It doesn't get better than that. I even got a temporary tatoo of the Greek and Canadian flags on my arm.

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Zenstyle;1335191 wrote:

Just say "yes"...

Yes zenners

[stirly-girly]

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pingu1997;1335181 wrote: Zen.... I've let it be... For over a year. Been mindful, done other things, seen it as a positive thing

This obsession has only come about since I cut my Meds in half. Before I didn't have to face up to anything. Now I do.
I coud ask for higher Meds again but in my heart I want to sort this out once and for all and either accept I have a problem, or else I don't and therefore drink again.
Sorry but tats the way it is, honest and from my heart.....
Ill post some more in a few days
But expect me to be either committed to aa or pissed
Love p3 x

Pingu - I don't want to sound like a know-it-all here but I posted something to you earlier today about acceptance. Please read it and I hope it will help you with that part of your dilemma. Not admitting and not accepting are likely to lead you right back to where you were and maybe even worse. It's nothing to be ashamed about, being an alcoholic. But it would be a real shame if you let alcohol ruin your life and your family. Especially since you have fought so hard to be sober for 15 whole months, but especially when you are so young and you have such a lovely, loving family. Said with much love.:l

[one2many]

Army Thread Friday 15th June

pingu1997;1131191 wrote: I'm a happy Pingu, I have gone 3 months without a drink.

I'm a private person so I'm not comfortable sharing the whole story. But I used to drink, not crazy amounts, but every night and on a regular basis starting with vodkas at around 5pm then moving onto wine. I went to bed every night pretty drunk and woke up every morning with a headache. I drank as a coping strategy, so if I'd had a bad day I drank more. I was in a pretty shit place and had to do something about it. I felt utterly worthless and depressed and as if life wasn't worth living. I have 2 gorgeous kids. They were one of the reasons I went for help.

OFC my doctor, while prescribing me meds for the depression, also picked up on the drinking thing and advised I cut down. And that's what I resolved to do. Cut down. But I had tried "cutting down" in the past and it had lasted a day or two. Same with stopping. I went home that night and said I will not drink tonight. And my OH had poured me some wine and I said no (but man I wanted it so much!). Same the next night, one day at a time.

The first week was torture. There were times I was bashing the walls wanting a drink. Especially if things went wrong, that used to be my escape mechanism, drink a couple of large vodkas very quickly and it will all go away. And now I didn't have that any more. I hated the first week so much. And being around other people drinking was awful as well. I didn't tell many people because i felt embarassed. No-one really noticed, not even at home. No-one bar my best friend knew how much I had been drinking. I didn't have to hide the bottles, my OH was away a lot and I drank alone. He didn't notice if I was drunk or not. After I resolved to stop I poured the remains of the vodka down the sink. I bought non-AL alternatives and put them in a wine glass so it looked (and felt) like I was drinking wine.

It got a bit easier after that. I still have days where I think why not, one drink won't hurt. Last weekend we were at a party and I hated being the only one not drinking. I felt left out and unaccepted. But I enjoyed the feeling of waking up the next day knowing I hadn't drunk. I wrote myself a list of why I wasn't going to drink and I kept popping out to read it when the temptation to have a glass of wine got too much. It worked.

I am not sure what next. My plan was to have some time AF and then try and control my drinking. But I am not ready to even contemplate that yet. I like being AF, I like the nice things like less headaches, better sleep, not being rude to people, being more awake during the day. I buy myself little treats as a reward for what I've achieved. Today I have ordered a purple carry bag for my flute, it's my 3 month treat.

I am also seeing a counsellor to try and get to the bottom of the things that cause me to drink in the first place. That is very hard as involves digging up all sorts of stuff from the past but I think in the long term it will be a very positive thing.

I have written far more than I planned to. I hope someone somewhere will read it and think yeah that's helped me a bit in some small way or another.

3 months AF and feeling so good. Thanks for reading
Corinnex

I replied to you also this morning Pingu, maybe you could go back and read it.

Your above post a year ago shows that yes, you had a problem and the fact that you are obsessing about whether or not you can drink again points that you do have a problem. WHY do you want to drink again? One answer....the buzz.

[pingu1997]

Army Thread Friday 15th June

Thanks aunts stirls I read it and cried

And oney I've printed off loads of stuff from earlier posts and stuck it in my scrap book. And read them over and over again

Ofc it's all about acceptance. You both hit the nail right on the head

So why can't or won't I bloody accept it?!?

Bah..