One Step at a Time - March 2018

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

[MENTION=18725]NoSugar[/MENTION] thank for sharing your thoughts here with us. I fairly recently had a a significant amount of blissful alone time and I sadly acted on my craving. It was a train wreck of a week and so not worth it. I will never do that again. As hard as this is sometimes, it's nice to know some of you with some solid longtime sober time have thoughts. It gives me hope and inspiration to not act on my cravings. I can do it. Anyway, I'm happily sober and strong now.
[MENTION=1214]Rusty[/MENTION], I saw that episode of Mom and I think I already mentioned I didn't like the fact Jill said she lost all that sober time. Any day I'm not drinking is a positive, at least for me. I like watching it. I feel like it makes the disease a little less shameful? I guess I just appreciate that it's being put out there.
[MENTION=6149]Paul[/MENTION]y, I'm sorry about Michelle, I just hope he stays out of her life. It'll take some time for her to pull herself outta that dark place, but that's what mommies are for. We pick up the pieces and help them move on. It's so hard to see them hurting. [MENTION=9757]NoraC[/MENTION] I didn't realize yiu actually had pain from drinking. That must have been scary.
Waves to everyone and wishing you all a great AF night.

[NoraC]

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Thank you, thank you, thank you. You all really made me feel better about having little vents.

I've been trying to make a post but hubby is chatting. Hard to stay focused here. :rotlf:

[paulywogg]

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Ugh,Michelle went with the creep today so they could go look at a house so obviously she's thinking of staying with him I hafta distance myself from the situation cuz I tried talking to her today about just staying broken up with him,,she don't listen,grrr

[NoraC]

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Pauly - I'm sorry to hear that Michelle is still going to look at a house with him. But, you are so right - you must distance yourself. Certainly not easy but we've got to do it.

Liz - I would get pain in my side and never say anything. But, I sure haven't had it since I stopped drinking. I was scared out of my mind but it didn't stop me from drinking. :sad:
[MENTION=18725]NoSugar[/MENTION] - thank you once again for your wonderful words. I am delighted that you decided not to experiment. :hug:

Rusty - I didn't mean to worry you. :hug: But, it did feel good to just let it out here. Don't have to pretend with you all.

Bird - how you feeling? You over your cold yet? I think you were talking about what we did as children to relax. As a teenager, I read all the time. Did you like to color when you were younger? I enjoy coloring now. It's funny but I've been spending a huge amount of time reading lately. And, it's all mindless fluff........a little mystery, a little sex and happily ever after. Next book :harhar: I just need something that gets me out of my head for awhile and these books are it. LOL

[paulywogg]

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Morning friends,Nora,my problem with reading is if it's a good one I cannot put it down! Read on the toilet,while doing dishes,while on the treadmill,you get the drift nothing I can do about Michelle,,she's grown,,just worries me a lot was talking about alcohol addiction being genetic in the café briefly the other day and I said I wasn't sure,I had alkie mom and the guy she had me with was one too but I went for years without drinking,,my kids seem able to control their al,Michelle had two tall cans last night and that was it,I could never stop at two tall boys,that was just a primer,Kell says she can only handle one or two,LB can drink a little wine and stop,so I wonder why I drink like a douche but these kids can control it,,weird(but good for them!)just thinking out loud,Rusty,back to the road yet? Waves to Liz,Bird,Techie,Glassy,hello NS thanks for the post yesterday,wishing us all a happy,happy AF Tuesday

[NoSugar]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

I fairly recently had a a significant amount of blissful alone time and I sadly acted on my craving. It was a train wreck of a week and so not worth it. I will never do that again.

Sorry that happened, @Lizann, but it's great that you quickly got back to where you want to be. So often that isn't the case and the whole thing goes completely out of control. I have way too many memories of sabotaging the "All about ME" opportunities that have occasionally come my way. Very quickly they became "All about Alcohol" and we all know that the good parts of that are so brief. Then, to live with regrets about fun or productive things I didn't do and when-oh-when will I have such a nice big chunk to time to myself again???. UGH. You'll have this memory to help you the next time you have a chance to just be YOU without the wonderful but demanding wife/mother/grandma/sister/daugher etc. etc. roles keeping you too busy to indulge yourself (in ANYTHING other than alcohol!).

As hard as this is sometimes, it's nice to know some of you with some solid longtime sober time have thoughts. It gives me hope and inspiration to not act on my cravings. I can do it. Anyway, I'm happily sober and strong now.

Did you really crave alcohol when all this happened? Once we've had time away, I'm not sure that physical "need" is experienced anymore.

That is one thing that kind of cracked me up when I was thinking about drinking this upcoming weekend. I don't feel desire or craving at all - it was just an idea of something I used to do (and told myself I enjoyed) and would that be a fun thing to do again? Or, should I get a massage and shop for some furniture we need? Or try to catch up on sleep? Kind of crazy to have even considered it but I'm relieved not to have felt compelled to drink or really, to have any emotional response to the idea.

@paulywogg, I'm so sorry you've got all this stress with your daughter. It seemed tough when they were little but at least then, we had some control. All the best to you, xx, NS

[bird]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

Hi all,
Cleaning up some after having the kids home. Mopped the floor with some concentrated bleach and it about peeled my eyelids off! So strong..got ticked off at work today. The parts gal comes out and says some customer wants out picture since he can't believe that a female runs the parts office and a female built his part (that would be me). Anyway I said no he cannot have my picture, what an ass!...anyway, some people, whew!!.....well I guess it made the day exciting though, a bit of something different hehe....Nora, I do color sometimes. I read a lot, easy readers and recovery books. I listen to audiobooks and podcasts too. I have certainly had some aches and pains that go away when I am sober.......Rusty, working from home sounds nice. I could get into that...guess I will go to chat on women for sobriety. Tuesday nights are pretty good. They have a conference in June I am thinking about going to. Have never met any of them in person, but have met a few MWO peeps......hugs to all....b

[Lizann]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

[MENTION=18725]NoSugar[/MENTION], you are so right, I didn't crave the al at all. I'm not sure what I was thinking. Perhaps that no one would know. Stupid, whatever the reason. Thanks for your insight, I really do value your wise words! Thank you.
[MENTION=17650]paulywogg[/MENTION], sorry about Michelle. That was a quick break up. i find it easier to handle their relationships when they're not right under your nose. Kids, geez.

Bird, come clean my floors! That's too funny, someone wanted that picture. No one ever wanted my picture at work.
[MENTION=9757]NoraC[/MENTION] I am into John Grisham at the moment. The last one I read was surprisingly not that good. Most of his stuff has lots of twists and turns and yiu never know what surprise is waiting in the end, I started another one this week and so far so good. It's an escape and I find I can really lose myself in the books. I do enjoy a mindless love story as well, but I love mysteries!

So I might be working the rest of the week. My co workers MIL died last night. That's the plan for now. So I'm off to bed as tomorrow is my early day, 8:00am. Not complaining, I love my hours now. Waves to everyone!

[NoraC]

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NoSugar - thank you for your words. You really make so much sense.

I can't believe that it's already past 8:00. Evenings go by so quickly. Of course, we've been going to bed by 9:00 every night. I don't get home until 5:00 or later. So, no wonder. :rotlf:

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

There were time when I drank because I could. I wasn't craving but it was my chance. You know what I mean? Nobody was home & they wouldn't know so I drank whether I really wanted to or not. Just because who knows when I would get that chance again. :sad:

[NoraC]

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Bird - I listen to audio books too. Hope it was a good chat tonight. It would be fun to meet up with some of them.

Liz - I like John Grisham too. I have a Stephen King book to start but I don't know if I'm into heavy right now. I am thinking of rereading the Harry Potter series again. I did enjoy those books.

Have you ever seen the movie Fahrenheit 451? Sometimes as I go about life, I'll get flashes of certain scenes from that movie. I just had a flash of the boy learning to recite his book. Wow. Ok, never mind. Useless bit of information there. LOL

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

Fahrenheit 451

[bird]

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Ahh, I love John Grisham and Stephen King. I love to go to the library and try to find something new. I went through a spell of reading Amish romance novels for awhile. Easy readers and comforting.....I have drank many times just because I was alone. Crazy thinking. I think, well I can do whatever I want. But can't do anything when drinking and then pass out. Not much point in that ......so chat last night ended up being informal, as the chat leader had surgery and couldn't type...still about 10 gals in the chatroom and had a good ol sober time......spent a bit of time house hunting online. The money my friend left me should be happening soon and I am going to buy a house. I just rent now..very exciting for me....well, guess I will get things ready for work.....Nora, I might check out that movie this weekend. Last weekend went through the Hannibal Lechter movies...kinda fun.......b

[paulywogg]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

Morning friends,I think most of us have drank just cuz we had a chance to,so dumb,think you'll have fun by yourself drinking,listening to music,maybe clean some stuff you've put off,none of that shit ends up happening,I always ended up on my couch listening to music and crying over crap,alone,bloated,sick,bleh Bird,I don't blame you for not letting the guy take your pic,sometimes people try to take pics while getting their haircut and I'll be in it,I duck before they snap! Good luck on buying a house,I sold mine years ago and I don't think I'll ever buy again,didn't like the responsibility,i like just calling the landlord if something fails,Nora,if I'd have known you on last night I'd have logged on but evenings tend to be slow here usually so I didn't,how's mom? Liz, Logan has gotten so big what a doll! waves to Rusty,Techie,Glassy,hope we all enjoy our day

[NoraC]

Re: One Step at a Time - March 2018

Hi all. Let's have an amazing day!!!! :yay: