I don't want to be totally AF......,

[blue1]

TMH- you're doing good...one day at a time...right?

Frances- yes...taking care of babies can drive a woman to drink lol

I'm feeling kind of sad right now....cause my daughter went to look at a place through housing authority....and she's taking it. On a good note I'll be eligible to get paid for keeping the children now that she won't be living with me. But that's at night....and I don't want to worry about them doing the day. Maybe she'll do way better than what I'm thinking....being on her own. She's going to have to take their beds so we have to figure out new sleeping arrangements.
Maybe this will be good for me...I needed a new project....so we'll see....

Of course I'm drinking today....but I'll take it easy.

[ToMyHealth]

Frances, so sorry to hear of the passing of your friend. Nice you got to pay your respects.

Blue, good for you! 2 days. I have only had 1; need to improve! It is such a habit. Need to eat dinner earlier & skip the ol' Happy Hour. Or have an alternate beverage ready.

[frances]

That's so awesome that you had another AF day - good for you! Taking a care of a baby is a lot of work isn't it?! What time did your daughter finally get back?

The gathering was nice and I got to me my friend's mom, dad, brother, and sister. He has such a lovely family I can see where he got his gentle sweet personality. Such a shame to have him die so young. But you are right, at least he's not suffering any more. His wife told me he was really tired of not feeling well and so she was glad that at least he doesn't have to feel that way any more.

[blue1]

Awwwwwww Frances....sorry to hear about your coworker....at least he's not suffering any more. My prayers are with the family!

I hope Friday comes quick for you so you can get some rest!

I have another AF on my calendar for yesterday!
Last night was pretty challenging...still didn't sleep well and my 8 month old grandson didn't make it any easier....he woke up at 3am....when he usually sleeps all night.
I gave him a ba ba....and he went back to sleep...but when I tried twice to lay him down he would wake back up. So I had to let him cry himself back to sleep....which took almost an hour. His mom was suppose to get off at 6am....it's now almost 9am....and she's still not here! I keep saying she's going to have to put them in daycare...but I hate that they won't be able to sleep in their own beds. But she treats me really bad with this babysitting deal!

Gotta go....he's up....I really need some sleep.....

[frances]

Good for you on your AF day blue1! I have seen many many posts on this site from people with anxiety who say that stopping drinking helped with that tremendously! (I know you don't want to stop completely but I just wanted to mention that in case you didn't know).

I enjoyed being at the lake with my family but I was working the whole time which was hard - I was glad they could have fun though. I'm still working long days but it will all be over on Friday - I am glad about that!

Received some very sad news about a former coworker of mine who passed away Sunday - he had advanced esophagus cancer. I hope to be able to pay respects to the family tomorrow. He was a great guy and loved by many; I hope that knowing this will bring his family some comfort.

[blue1]

I have a great big AF on my calendar for yesterday. It was a bit challenging because of the panic/anxiety attacks....which lasted until the wee hours of the morning.

I'm perimenopausal (sorry men folk)....and I googled and found out that panic/anxiety can definitely be a symptom. So maybe that's why they're so strong and often now.

I'm happy about my AF day tho!

[blue1]

TMH- I am AF today....hubby went out yesterday and got me some sheltzer water and Gatorade...he's so supportive! I'm excited!

Frances-yea I am....she signed herself out of the hospital yesterday. I don't know what else we can do with her. How do you help someone that doesn't want help? It's heartbreaking.....

Hi everybody else!

Have a successful day!

[frances]

And hello to blue and TMH - - blue I hope they figure out what's going on with your sister. I am sure that's extremely worrying to you!

[frances]

Really though, I don't worry about it, fret about it, have a lot of angst, or question whether I should or shouldn't be doing any drinking or not.

Hi Guapo - this is where I am. I almost always have only one drink when I do, and I don't very often. After a 2 week break I had one glass of wine on Saturday and one glass of wine on Sunday. I was out with family for the weekend at a lake and also working very very hard. I didn't have any problem with having a glass of wine and stopping at that - not even a second thought. I am surprised and pleased at how this is going - it has been 8 months since I decided to try it, and going great.

I do keep track since I am trying to be vigilant and make sure I don't see some pattern of more regular drinking than I want coming up - not sure how long I will do that, but it is interesting to go back and see, for example, how many drinks I had, how many average per occasion (usually one but every once in awhile two, so my average is 1.xx) and then how many occasions and how many days between occasions. It's all on a spreadsheet so it gets calculated for me, I just fill in the date I had a drink and quantity and I usually put a comment in to describe the situation.

My goal isn't to drink daily but less quantity, or even drink just a few times a week (e.g., to try to meet the guidelines of 7 or less drinks a week). I have to drink much much less than that because I have a healthy fear of what drinking regularly will do to me...I am 99.9% sure from previous experience that it will take me back to my earlier patterns.

Hope everyone has a great day! Back to my regular work schedule but it was nice that my family go to have a nice weekend away, and even though I worked from 6am to late night with little breaks, I got to have a nice view and was so happy the kids and my husband could enjoy the last weekend we had free before school starts.

[ToMyHealth]

Hi Guapo. Blue got Mods thread up and running again. Sounds like you are doing extremely well. Good for you! I don't think I ever figured out if you are a guy or gal.

Blue, I'd be happy to,join you with some AF time. In fact, I'm starting today. Will finish watching PGA with either V8 or tonic water or near beer.

Will c/i later.

[blue1]

Hi guapo!

Good to hear from you! I remember you....I used to be -143.....

[guapo]

Hello thread.

I rarely post on MWO, as I tend to get skewered to dare suggest that people can actually get away from problem over drinking and get a life back, that can still involve a little alcohol now and then.

I did use naltrexone, but at this point almost never take it, and almost never drink either. Really though, I don't worry about it, fret about it, have a lot of angst, or question whether I should or shouldn't be doing any drinking or not.

Just changed my approach to drinking to being mindful, and not being stupid and drinking too much, because as we all know, that's the road to hell.

So that's going pretty well. Just thought I'd throw that out there, as I used to post on the moderator thread, but that seemed to fizzle away.

[blue1]

How is everyone doing today? It is beautiful outside today...I'm probably going to sit on my porch and have a couple of drinks and take a nap....we'll see....

I am really going to try (no not try)....I am going to get some kind of AF time next week.
I think I'm having a challenging time because of all that's going on in my life at this time...but I can do this!

What are you guys doing this weekend?

[blue1]

Glad to hear from you Stew!!!

I missed hearing your stories!

Please post more often....
have a great weekend!

[Stewarts]

Hey guys, so, I am doing ok. I did go out with the young people in my office last night and it was a later night than usual, and yes there was drinking. I just drank beer. More than I wanted to, but I'm not killing myself over it. I stayed away from shots and all that nonsense. I don't even usually come in on Friday, so perhaps that's why I was a little more "careless". Of course, I am a little hung. After lunch I am going home, it is summer hours here, like I said, I don't even usually come in, I am usually away on the weekends. But it gives me a good chance to reflect. For me, it's not waking up in a gutter or doing anything glaringly embarrassing, I just don't like the way I feel afterwards. Some of you that know me better, know it can mess with my depression sometimes, and I just feel too off. This is simply a reminder. It's like being sick, an annoying sick.

Alcohol is funny, even though it makes us feel certain ways, that we may not like, we still go back to it, compared to other drugs. For example, a grad school friend had got some cocaine, I haven't done anything like that in years. But I figured what's a line or two. The next day, I felt REAL sick.... trust me, I have no desire to do that again. It was like long time reminder to say, "j. you really outgrew this stuff a long time ago.. remember?" hahaha.

So the journey continues. Let me go, get a bite, go home, relax, go on a run and then head down to my gf pot luck dinner later.

All be well.