One Step at a time - April 2015

[SKendall]

Mama, I'm glad you are enjoying the new job. So happy you are with a group of more highly educated folks, I always felt Tucky etal were not your equal cup of tea. Get ready to soar my friend.

Niner, so damned happy you are TTFP, as your signature quote always said "you love your daughter more than alcohol". I know you will do her and yourself very proud.

Had to see dr today re panic attacks, I thought I was having a heart attack last night. I dropped by her office not expecting to see her, just to leave a msg, but she saw me and gave me a few benzo's - I have no history with them, just an RX about once a year. I have to spend the day with the husband Monday to start packing, planting, etc. I don't hate him, but he has disrespected me to such a high degree I can hardly breathe sometimes and I have trouble being in his company w/o b.p. rising. Last week when I was at the house my face was beet red and I couldn't stop peeing. Anyway since I'm on PST I'm probably the last poster this eve in the U.S. for this thread.

I've only had 2-3 hrs sleep a night for the last several days and to my horror, I was talking to the Maintenance Mgr this a.m. and starting blubbling. I was pretty embarrassed, as that is not my style at all. I did feel a little better, but exhaustion is a mortal enemy emotionally. I think I will sleep tonight and hopefully do some catch up.

Have a great w/end all - Pauly, Dottie, Liz, Sunny, Rusty and Bird.

[Lizann]

Skendall, so sorry this so difficult for you. Is he still disrespecting you? I can well imagine your blood pressure would go up. Panic attacks are scary for sure. I'm glad it wasn't a heart attack. Hope you get some well needed rest.

[sunshinedaisies]

Good Morning all ...

K9 thanks for sharing re the ABN - no worries - I would never take it and then drink no matter what I did to try and get it out of me - I react way too easily to it to ever drink after taking it. I was just curious! No moving furniture until your ribs have healed !

Skendall - that sounds awful re the panic attack - I have never had one but told my daughter to go to the ER a few days ago - sounded like a heart attack and there was nothing wrong so we surmised it must have been a panic attack. It must be really scary for you - glad that your doctor helped you out. It is sad that things get like that between couples - hopefully you will not have to deal with him for too much longer ? Will you take a tablet before you have to spend the day with him Monday - or is there any way that he can go one day and you another so that you do not have to be with him ?

Dottie - so glad that you got the RV sorted., And yes I hope the closing goes well - ours is Thursday!! Seeing as it is many years since having to be at one, I have no idea what it entails apart from LOTS of signatures!

Liz - Thanks for explaining the stuff with your sister and your twin - I am glad it wasn't all about you though - that must have made you feel a tad better. And yes the weather is silly for the time of year - I am not ready for the heat yet! I prefer 60-70 weather (don't we all?) to the 80's and up! Yesterday was 80 - too hot ! I might actually look for shorts this year - never usually wear them but having bought dresses, have to try and get my legs a slighter darker shade of white !! They don't tan well - usually just go red on the knees and back of the knees - the rest stays a lovely glaring shade of white ! I might even consider spray tanning but it doesn't last long ...

Liz - you made me cook quinoa yesterday! I had it with some asparagus for dinner - YUM !

Pauly - how are you feeling now ? Is the food poisoning totally gone ? I know one feels poorly for days after that though - did you manage to get to work yesterday?

I am working today - did not want to get up this morning - wish I could start sleeping better ! I suppose once things settle down I might - I hope !

MB - hope that you got a good nights sleep and are feeling better today! Why are the others quitting ? With jobs not so easy to come by that surprises me ....

Hugs, Sun xx

[Lizann]

Sunny, you are always so on top of everything here! So sweet you are. I was actually debating as to whether I should sit in the yard for a bit to get some color so I'm not so scary white. I unlike you do tan. Your coloring sounds like my Erin's, she claims she looks like a ghost. How do you cook the quinoa? Perhaps I will look up some recipes on Pinterest. Going to run on the treadmill and then get on with my day. Sissy should be here in a bit. My son will be here as well, so I'm Guessing there will be no heart to heart with her. We were just never like that, and I don't want it now either. Hope that doesn't make me sound mean.
Happy Saturday my loves. I'll check back later.

[mama bear]

good morning...off to get my hair cut and colored. Otherwise, I would be snuggling in my bed.
One senior person left (the one I replaced) and several people have left to go with her. It's a typical thing in my biz, unfortunately. And the girl we JUST hired and who went to Orlando with me, got a call back from when she was interviewing and was offered 30K more, so she gave notice. BOOHISS
Hi SKendall...dear friend.
I've got to run but will be bacinabit...love and hugs to all

[mama bear]

x post...have a happy Saturday!

[Dottie Belle]

Got a call from my realtor. They did a final walk through and things are still wrong and of course it was late Friday so I cant get anyone to fix the stuff until Monday and that is when the closing is supposed to be. I am not sure how much more stress I can take.
Supposed to go to the zoo today to see flower display. Hope that improved my mood but it will not change things.
Weird dreams again and woke up crying. I hope this does not go on forever...

[mama bear]

Oh Dottie...hugs. If it helps, it's been a year since we lost Pop and Nana is better everyday.
Got my hair did, bought a few tops and some jeans, went grocery shopping and goofed around with the boys. Bret is at the pub and I am resting till he gets home and we have date night. Not sure where we are going but I will describe the food for you Pauly!

[sunshinedaisies]

Morning all! Dottie - we close on our house on Thursday - who does the walkthrough and when are you told about it ? No-one has mentioned a walk through to us at all ....

MB - hope you enjoyed date night last night - and are feeling a little more rested?

Hi there Liz - you always do a really good job of keeping up with everyone on here in YOUR posts !! The quinoa is easy - 1 part Quinoa to 2 parts water (or is it the other way round? LOL), bring to a boil, simmer for 15 mins. Oh - one needs to rinse it first to get rid of the bitter after taste! I had asparagus and quinoa again for dinner last night !

No I never tan - I go red and my legs do not even do that - apart from the knees and the back of the knee - wish I did tan - it looks so nice - just a little colour anyway!

I was laying in bed at 4. 00 this morning having yet another bad nights sleep and decided that I am taking 1/4 of an AB this morning - I have got to have a day off from AL - the Nal is going to work but it takes a while - and I need a break! I do not feel great this morning - not hung over as I didn't drink enough but not great - I know you all know what I mean.

I work this morning but not until a little later - off to shower I think. Storms coming today apparently - possibly severe - spring is here ! LOL

Have a great day everyone, Hugs, Sun xx

[Lizann]

Morning guys! How long have you been on the Nal sunny? Seems like forever. Lucy is insisting on some mommy time. Just a quick check in for me. Be back later.

[mama bear]

Morning loves. Wallowing in bed at the moment...just woke up! We had sushi and then went to a cigar bar and were home in bed by 9:00.
Laundry and putter around the house today
Sun - the buyer usually has a home inspection. Their lender will require it.

[mama bear]

SKendall.....how are you feeling? Panic attacks are terrifying

[paulywogg]

Hey all, Eww Mama, I hate sushi and cigars haha,glad you guys had fun though, Skendall,I remember my first panic attacks, one I was in the checkout line at Target, felt like I couldn't breathe and the floor was falling in, second, I was at my brothers and I was sitting on the couch, again floor dropped out,another I was riding in the car and I felt like jumping out of my skin, this was in my daily drinking days though, was prescribed a benzo and never had one again until I started tapering off, but these ones are milder now that I don't drink, hopefully everything will equal out eventually, panic blows!!!Hello to all,hope everyone enjoys their Sunday, I've got to get my laundry done, it's knee high and that's only MY clothes!later peeps

[Dottie Belle]

Raining here. Dont feel like doing anything.
The dog trainer is coming later to see if we can get a handle on the crazies here. It was sort of manageable with 2 people but me alone it is just a mess and I just cant even think of re homing any of them. So hopefully she can help me.
I really want to feel better. I am trying to get out and do things and force myself to make plans each day. My heart just is not in any of this. Right now I really have no life. I go through the motions....
Closing on the house tomorrow. Hope that goes well and I can get that off my list.
There is so much that needs to be done here and I just dont even know where to start. He has piles of things and boxes of things that I need to do something with. Still haven't done anything with his clothes...guess I am not ready to face any of that just yet. Someday I guess.

[sunshinedaisies]

MB - we did have a home inspection - that is different to the walk through - we had one on this house and also one was done on the new house but Dottie said that the realtors called and did a final walk through and things were wrong - so who chose to do a final walk through ? I am so confused - I assume it is the buyer who wanted the final walk through seeing as Dottie didn't ask for it ... no-one has mentioned final walk through to us and we close on Thursday.

Liz - I started the Nal 11th Jan so have been on it a little over three months but it seems that the time it can take is usually upwards of 6 months - it can take as long as two years to 'cure' you - but I will keep taking it whatever as things won't change anyway otherwise. I really do have faith and take it religiously an hour or more before I drink - it will work !! I just feel the need to have some AF time and pretty much the only way I can do that is with AB ..... SIGH.

Feeling quite grumpy today - think I am going to have a nap.

Hugs, Sun xx