Newbies Nest

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Morning nesters

Life is trudging along, never a dull moment in foster heaven! Carl is still doing really well in his crate and has been pretty good. as long as he is near me he is content to lay in the crate, he has his check up next thursday so hopefully things are going well. Bindi and Gucci are ok, both have decided to be very fussy eaters though did eat steak last night, its like a bloody restaurant at feed time. Oh dont like the meal, let me find you another! Like having small children, bed time is the best!

Battle, my landlord doesnt know what i do here. I have been here 15 years and have 3 chooks and 3 dogs and my daughters cat (whom i am trying to get her to take). Its a need to know basis, he doesnt need to know. house inspections are a bit tricky lol. I was told years ago that its not worth drinking AT anyone as it doesnt affect them, only yourself. I wanted to drink at so many people but it was just me trying to give myself an excuse to drink. If anyone pisses me off with an email now, i close it until i am not so pissed or i just ignore it. I did have a patient complaining just before xmas that they hadnt received an apt and i was so annoyed as i had covid, so i just emailed them and told them. Oh sympathy plus then. I love helping people, but give me a break, there is always a reason behind why something hasnt been done. Congrats on your near 30 days and all of those days AF. That AL brain just doesnt seem to stop at first but it gets quieter until it is gone. One reason that i never want to drink is that i dont think i have the strength to do it again. You will never regret getting through these first weeks.

Kensho, i have been putting stuff i dont want on a free site we have in our suburb and they are snapped up to be reused. i spend most of my time going to clean my garage but instead posting stuff for free. i have now gotten into the habit of "will you use these 3 tv's that have been sitting in the garage for years", umm no and off they go. Some stuff i have put up for sale on other sites. I now basically have to just rearrange the garage so i can put the portable spa up for carls rehab (and for me also).

Slo, hope you are well, i thought of you when i slipped over on nothing yesterday and hurt my knee again. Had to ice and rest it yesterday and have it taped today. they are so dodgy knees, goes with my arm that is dodgy too, ha ha.

Have you started teaching your new students yet Wags?

Time for a coffee, take care xx

[Mulburry]

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Its the idea of it I seem to be craving more than anything, there's no wanting to feel a certain way, just the maddening thought repeating.

That's so true, so often it's more about the idea of the drug, the ritual, the excitement than it is about the drug itself; and when you don't cave in to your craving there is a crushing sense of disappointment; I know it too well. I think the best thing to do is to try to distract yourself, just force yourself to do something that takes up your attention, because quite often those strong feelings diminish in strength relatively quickly.
I haven't read it, but a friend of mine strongly recommended Allen Carr's book (The Easy Way to Stop Smoking) as a method to counter any psychological addition and strong cravings (though I believe he has one for alcohol as well.

[KENSHO]

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Hi Battle! Try not to think of "forever"...just focus on today. The time will fly by.

I had a great afternoon with my pop... how nice it was to shut off my phone and leave the office on a Friday. I think I might make it a monthly ritual!

Happy Friday everyone... keep building those sober muscles! They can never get too big!

[Lavande]

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Good evening Nesters,

Wags, hope you have the weekend off so you can relax a bit

Kensho, enjoy your time with your Dad, sounds nice. I’ve never been to Vegas, have no desire to go but I understand your concerns. You have a good deal of AF time now & all the tools you need to skirt temptation. You’ll be OK. I used to enjoy the embroidery trade shows in Atlantic City, another temptation city, haha!

Battle, keep letting those thoughts just pass you by, no need to act on them. They will be decreasing little by little, I remember them well. You’ve done such a great job on your quits while being so busy with your schooling & job. Deep breaths help a lot.

Hello to all & wishing everyone a safe night in the nest!
Lav

[Battle_for_the_sun]

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Evening,

Day 5 and it seems to be getting harder rather than easier, ptsd flashbacks keep cropping up in amongst drinking thoughts and even the odd craving for painkillers, haven't thought about drugs this much since the early days of getting clean and I'm coming up on 30 days tomorrow. I'm trying to step back and analyse it all, figure out where its coming from but honestly I think its just sinking in that I've no intention of drinking or getting high again, and that's making me really really want to. Its the idea of it I seem to be craving more than anything, there's no wanting to feel a certain way, just the maddening thought repeating.

Kensho, I hope you enjoyed your 'date' and are looking forward to the market, its good you have somebody supportive along with you.

Lav - I'll be sure to take your advice when i get chance, keeping my head in my studies for now, it helps some but I can't seem to keep myself focused.

Waves to everyone else to come.